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pokitman
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Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question?
#19258635 - 12/11/13 03:12 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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So ever sense i took 9 tabs of acid, my entire brain feels fried. My entire life feels like a lie, i felt like my iPhone was watching me, accusing my family members and partners about things that were constantly running through my head, and everything feels like a loop, like how the day and night always happen, but I've felt like that principle can be applied down to the lowest part of everything in the universe resulting that there can not be "one" of anything, but the unity is what creates life, but I just want to know if anyone has any advice for me. To keep my life on track because I think I'm going crazy.
-------------------- Close your eyes, see the little colored dots? now open your eyes, and life just became a void, you have shifted into a new reality, by reading this. Life has become nothing, nothing more then what you believe reality and your senses make it. And what you have always believed reality to be, is nothing more than what reality was, but not anymore. Because reality doesn't exist anymore. Your welcome.
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Tangich


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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: pokitman]
#19258658 - 12/11/13 03:35 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Best case temporary psychosis, worst case schizophrenia. I know exactly what you're describing, I had the same feeling after mushrooms. I barely survived it, but it subsided after about a year and a half. It's a horrible feeling. I can only offer you my sympathies and best wishes, try to endure, and never loose hope. If it all gets too unbearable, you might want to visit a shrink, but they will only get you hooked on schizophrenia meds. Do what you feel is best, and good luck!
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pokitman
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: Tangich]
#19258671 - 12/11/13 03:50 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thanks alot, i just hope the flash backs don't get so intense because sometimes I will just try to kill my self in the middle of the night and then the next day wonder what the fuck i was doing and these awful horrible cannibalistic dreams are just making me lose my shit.
-------------------- Close your eyes, see the little colored dots? now open your eyes, and life just became a void, you have shifted into a new reality, by reading this. Life has become nothing, nothing more then what you believe reality and your senses make it. And what you have always believed reality to be, is nothing more than what reality was, but not anymore. Because reality doesn't exist anymore. Your welcome.
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Deathcore
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: pokitman]
#19258738 - 12/11/13 04:45 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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n i thought i was schizo..
lay off drugs..
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st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: Deathcore]
#19258822 - 12/11/13 05:43 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Deathcore said: n i thought i was schizo..
lay off drugs..
Now is that really helpful, bro? 
OP, I take it you are gonna give your brain a break tho?
PLEASE stay away from shrinks though. When K2 did this sort of thing to me through sleep deprivation, I got sucked into psychiatry and I'm just now clawing my way out and heres to hoping I'm clawing my way out unscathed.
Doctors simply do not understand how to deal with drug cases. In some meta-analyses I've read, though, pretty much every class of medication helped at least a little with HPPD but the cleanest and all-around best seemed to be Klonipin/Rivotril. It sounds like you would highly benefit from the anxiolysis of benzos too. Note that it was high-potency benzos (think the ones that come in 0.5mg starting doses as opposed to Valium's 10mg bioequivalency or Restoril's 20/30mg one--can't remember).
Just don't get hooked as benzos are a very comfortable way to die happy. If you are tight with your family doctor, you might show them some of the research (I'll dig it up if you need me to and I have access to full journal articles from most publishers--PM me if you need any help) and just ask if he'd put you on a course of Klonipin.
This is more of a partial cure than a treatment, as in a course of the medication can help it rather than the medication must be maintained to continue to benefit. I don't recall if the antipsychotic meds were acutely treated or maintained, but I suspect its the latter and NEARLY NOBODY should take antipsychotics, period.
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gornyhuy
A Myth Intrepidly Met



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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: pokitman]
#19258982 - 12/11/13 07:22 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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High on toilet said: But OP, you're fine dude everything will be fine you took a hefty dose no doubt things would get a little weird.
Just remember in time everything will be back to normal
Good advice there... depending on how long it has been since your big dose?
(Just to be safe: If it has been a while and you are still seeing heavy schizoid symptoms I would consider seeing a psychiatrist for appropriate meds, only because it is fairly well established that it is possible for psyches to trigger latent mental issues in rare cases.)
Been there, but not as severely as you are experiencing it. Generally, I would advise staying as clean and healthy as possible, lots of exercise, lots of water, good nutritious food, NO WEED, and no other psyches for a long while.
I've also found LOW dose and infrequent benzos (xanax in my case, like .1 to .25 mg at a time) do help with keeping the edge off when shit gets too intense.
Be patient and hang in there man... it will get better.
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Smeagol
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: gornyhuy]
#19259017 - 12/11/13 07:43 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sometime its hard to come back with the things you realized. Cycles are real and are on all levels. Ive had times in my life with paranoia thoughts. Just wait for proof you can show before you say something. Looks you seen, ideas and other things dont equal proof. if they are doing the things you think they are it will eventually come out.
I agree stay away from drugs and meditate/ponder things. try not to focus on your phone watching you but the cycles in life. what you want in life. Our brains can grapple with reality after we floated in the psychadelic ocean.
-------------------- The road to hell is paved with good intentions, but it is not paved with clarity.” -Terence "If you're not peaking what the fuck are you doing?" Dude on facebook
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Thayendanegea
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: st1llnox]
#19259099 - 12/11/13 08:24 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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PLEASE stay away from shrinks though
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though, pretty much every class of medication helped at least a little with HPPD but the cleanest and all-around best seemed to be Klonipin/Rivotril. It sounds like you would highly benefit from the anxiolysis of benzos too. Note that it was high-potency benzos (think the ones that come in 0.5mg starting doses as opposed to Valium's 10mg bioequivalency or Restoril's 20/30mg one--can't remember).
Now, tell me just exactly how he is to acquire the above pharms to help him recover without seeing the aforementioned shrink?
Personally, if things get so bad as to question your validity on this planet, then a shrink may be just what you need....at least in the mean time for short term. I really don't know as I have never been there but have seen some who have.
This is exactly why I do not take these mega doses of enthogens. These are nothing to be under estimated...I really get tired of the "heroic dose" terminology that is thrown around here so cavalierly. I don't mean to sound like a dick but I hate seeing kids go through shit like this....It is entirely unnecessary.
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st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: Thayendanegea]
#19261611 - 12/11/13 05:39 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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baltimark said:
Now, tell me just exactly how he is to acquire the above pharms to help him recover without seeing the aforementioned shrink?
Personally, if things get so bad as to question your validity on this planet, then a shrink may be just what you need....at least in the mean time for short term. I really don't know as I have never been there but have seen some who have.
If he can find real acid, kpins should be cake; everyone and their hyperactive poodle is prescribed them (The Fix just named them the #1 addiction in America).
I think a PSYCHOLOGIST/therapist would be fantastic right now, especially if they'll treat you for your existential worries and paranoid thoughts rather than for a supposed "drug addiction" (again, the healthcare field including the software side is not always very good at dealing with things where drugs are a factor without tunneling in on that).
Now a psychiatrist... if you could find a good one (unlikely), that'd be one thing but most psychiatrists are antipsychotic and antidepressant dispensers nowdays.
Baltimark, OP's situation is how our kind end up with Tardive Dyskinesia or permanent inability to focus or memory loss from ECT. I've seen it too much. 
I think High on Toilet's advice is the best overall and that ought to be what you zoom in on OP.
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IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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Agentchewy
Pantheism.


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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: st1llnox]
#19262566 - 12/11/13 08:28 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Ive been there, When the feelings of insanity just make you want to shoot yourself, when it almost feels like you should be shameful or guilty.
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If I knew the way, I would take you home.
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pokitman
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: pokitman]
#19916885 - 04/29/14 01:36 PM (9 years, 8 months ago) |
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Hey guys, I've actually stayed sober for 4 months now. Went through treatment, (which did nothing but put me in the category of a drug addict, which all i need is a psychologist.) and basically went through hell of withdraws, mind numbing hallucinogens , and made me realize how fucking bullshit treatment centers can be. I've been perms tripped, but I've learned to understand it. I've also found a deeper meaning in life, thank you for all your support
-------------------- Close your eyes, see the little colored dots? now open your eyes, and life just became a void, you have shifted into a new reality, by reading this. Life has become nothing, nothing more then what you believe reality and your senses make it. And what you have always believed reality to be, is nothing more than what reality was, but not anymore. Because reality doesn't exist anymore. Your welcome.
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JesusDaMartian
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: pokitman]
#19916969 - 04/29/14 01:59 PM (9 years, 8 months ago) |
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You will be ok just drink lots of fluids. Try an take a 5HTP vitamin to restore normal rates of seritonin production. Eat healthy , in one week you will feel a little more normal. You just took an epic dose of acid , it will take a while before you return to "normal" , however such a strong experience may have left your mind with images that it wouldnt have ever had. Do not let the experience define you , instead grow from it.
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SixStripsDeep
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: pokitman]
#19917024 - 04/29/14 02:14 PM (9 years, 8 months ago) |
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Hey brother, good to hear you've been fighting hard to find your center again. Time heals most wounds. Just keep fighting brother and never give up. Peace and love. I've been in a place like that before I think. It took me months to get over, I felt like my whole world was blown apart. Like I had nothing to hold onto. Psychedelics are no joke and definitely are not to be fucked with or taken lightly. I hope you can find peace my friend. Sending all the good vibes I can muster your way.
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pokitman
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: SixStripsDeep]
#19917509 - 04/29/14 04:08 PM (9 years, 8 months ago) |
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thanks alot, ill let ya know how it goes with all the 5htp and whatnot
-------------------- Close your eyes, see the little colored dots? now open your eyes, and life just became a void, you have shifted into a new reality, by reading this. Life has become nothing, nothing more then what you believe reality and your senses make it. And what you have always believed reality to be, is nothing more than what reality was, but not anymore. Because reality doesn't exist anymore. Your welcome.
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jesslet
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Re: Hi all you super troopers, can anyone answer this question? [Re: pokitman]
#19918054 - 04/29/14 06:21 PM (9 years, 8 months ago) |
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good shit OP. you're through the worst of it now, keep on keepin' on and believing in yourself man it's just gonna take time to be completely back to normal. if you don't already i'm sure you'll have a much more positive swing on your view of life once you're through it
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