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elchegue


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depressed and feeling worthless
#19255421 - 12/10/13 01:26 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Ive been depressed for all my teenage years im 19 now. With a few months feeling good and confident and the next depressed, anxious and wanting to withdraw from society stay at home.
I left college for a year because towards the end i started to slowly fall depressed and more depressed. So i told myself i work for a year, save up for driving lessons had everything planned.
But its now been 4 months and i havent done nothing, feeling very wortless and depressed, tired not wanting to do nothing. Im become more and more tired with myself. I want to try and look for a job, i always tell myself tomorow ill go out, but i wake up late, and after i just feel like fuck it i feel ugly and stupid.
Im 19 but i look like im 16. I always feel like ill get judged as not good enough or juged by other people in public, i sometimes feel people are watching and judging me. I have very low self esteem.
My mum is constantly telling me, what am i doing with my life go get i job. I understand. But i just cant im to depressed but i want but i dunno. Im so tired!
I went to a doctor last year to see whats up, he said i may have general anxiety. He refered me to CBT, but i never went back.
What do i do im so fed up?
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WhoManBeing
PsychedelicYogi



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Re: depressed and feeling worthless [Re: elchegue] 1
#19255509 - 12/10/13 01:47 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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get out there and mingle with the ladies. you have no idea what anyone over that age would do to be that age again. live it up.
read a book.
create a dream. live the dream. dream big!
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invitro


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Re: depressed and feeling worthless [Re: elchegue]
#19277831 - 12/15/13 05:40 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I felt this way when I was your age. I am about twice your age now. I can't say I'm a wonderful person or I've got it all figured out but maybe you could focus on trying to make the world a better place in some way shape or form. It'll take the focus on you personally, it'll help you to feel good about yourself. You might even start to get excited about life if you feel your making a difference. Definitely it doesn't hurt to get a job but it's got to be something your passionate about or you'll just make yourself miserable.
Are you passionate about anything (video games, sports, music, girls, working on cars, hiking), even if it's not practical try listing the things that your passionate about and really get you excited. If you can list your passions, try to see if there is an area where your passions might overlap with something that is of benefit to others. If you have those two things, passion, and making a contribution, then you might have a good place to start. For me, I'm passionate about growing mushrooms and tomatoes etc. It's something I can do without a lot of money, it's something that benefits others and that people will pay for.
My biggest challenge seems to be under-estimating the difficulty of starting new projects and starting small. I thought growing tomatoes and mushrooms would be easy so I started big and failed big, it has a lot to do with impatience too. I always try to approach new things in a small way to learn about the quirks about how things really work, because most things don't work how we imagine they do until we try and find out that there is more to understand than meets the eye. Then once you've got it down, expand with the confidence that those experiences have given you.
Another thing you might think about is "intentional communities" www.ic.org I think if I were 19 again I would join an intentional community where I could learn lots of good skills and be around lots of cool people. In fact I'm thinking of doing this in the future myself. What I wouldn't do is take on a lot of debt by going to college, especially if you don't have a solid sense of direction and motivation.
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