Hello, I have had the pleasure of experiencing my first trips over the last few weeks, and I would like to record my experiences. This is likely to be very long.
10/12/2013
My first trip was with 2 grams of cubensis mushrooms. I was with one other tripper and a spotter and we spent about six hours in the woods exploring nature and questioning society. It was very nice, and I experienced the familiar connectedness described by many. A frequent topic of discussion was the idea of going vegetarian, and even going so far as to not even eating food again. It was enjoyable overall, but at the same time, it felt like it was on the verge of being "weird" which caused me to fear, to this day, taking a larger dose of shrooms. I also want to add that the experience was cerebrally dominant, and the visuals I experienced were a slight breathing effect to the landscape and a morphing of the branches in the background, melding together to resemble a spider web. It felt very difficult to move once we sat down and settled on the ground, we sat for about 2 hours. I was surprised by how few visuals there were, but I was told that may have been due to the fact that the caps were tiny.
When the trip wore off, we ate a ton of food and proceeded to smoke a little weed about an hour later. After smoking, the visual effects started to come back, and things started breathing again. I entered the familiar mind state that resembled ramblings of Descartes.
10/26/2013
My next experience was 2 weeks later with two tabs of acid. I was to trip solo this time, and attend a concert with my roommate. I took the acid at about 10 pm and then 45 minutes later it came on very strong. (I was told they were 400 micrograms each, although I found it hard to believe, and added to that, they were sitting in my freezer for two weeks.) I was sitting on the couch while my roommate was playing techno/house music. All of a sudden I started feeling anxious and all I could focus on was the corner of my closet, which appeared to me like the fisheye setting on photo booth. I felt totally disconnected and couldn't take my eyes off the corner of the closet as the world appeared to spin around it. My friend who was with me at the time, the same trip spotter as last time, sensed a bad trip and changed the music to some Beatles which settled me down. I felt that I needed to get outside, so I walked around in circles for about an hour in the freezing cold with just a light jacket on. I could feel this sinister grin on my face as I embraced the wind and felt the tears streaming from my eyes to my ears. I remember repeatedly thinking how beautiful it was, and having an overwhelming desire to “happen to things.”
At this point I decided I needed to get to the concert. My roommate went out drinking with some friends, because it appeared that I was just doing my own thing and the concert was off the agenda. I knew I wanted to get there, but I couldn't remember how to. I spent a long time thinking about how to get there and walking in various wrong directions until I decided to go inside and grab a jacket. I ran into my trip spotter inside and he was happy to join me on my journey to the concert. On the way, the visuals started to become very apparent. Things started grooving, streetlights were flashing, and fleeting purple hues filtered my vision. I entered occasional time warps on the walk, and decided to call my best friend/ex-girlfriend to tell her about it. When I called, it kept saying the number was not in service, and I believed that she never actually existed. The concert was amazing, but I was stuck in my head the whole time and didn't remember too much.
Returning at about 3 AM, five hours into the trip, I decided to smoke some weed. I managed to roll a joint which was quite difficult and then proceeded to smoke it. Immediately after smoking, I started to regain a familiar mind-state resembling sobriety, but the visuals were intensified significantly. I listened to music with my friend, and heard the most fantastic details in the music, and it was very pleasurable. Finally at around 6 AM, I started to engage in the struggle for sleep. My brain was getting exhausted, and all I wanted was sleep, but it wouldn't come to me. I became very introspective and started to experience some negative thoughts, especially regarding my ex-girl friend and also pertaining to the fact that I nearly went schizophrenic questioning who in my life was actually real.
11/9/2013
Two weeks later, I had another experience with LSD. This time I took 2/3s of a $30 tab that was assured to be very strong. I smoked weed throughout the whole experience, which put me into a more familiar mind-state. I have found that I prefer the trip combined with weed, although smoking on mushrooms did not exactly seem inviting. This was similar to the first trip, although I had a friend also tripping to share the experience with me, which was a positive aspect. We listened to a lot of music, and spent a lot of time outside as well. We rolled up a cross joint and smoked it outside while I went barefoot in the freezing cold, somehow convinced it was the right thing to do. The visuals were slightly stronger than my first experience, with my field of vision being horizontally stretched, and tons of swirling. At one point there was a large beam of light that was present in my field of vision that was similar to a prism's refraction, except mainly white and yellow light.
During the second half of the trip, we watched this movie called Heathers, which made me really paranoid. My ego was slowly resurfacing from the trip, and this movie was fucking with my mind, especially since I couldn't focus on it very well, only taking certain parts out of context, and then becoming paranoid. Then once again came the struggle for sleep, where slightly negative thoughts came again. I began to think about vegetarianism and how it was important that I start eating mainly salad and things that I could grow. I just became generally upset with what I was putting into my body, and felt that I needed to change it for some reason.
Both of these times did not produce any negative side affects afterwards. I actually felt pretty good on the days after, feeling like playing my part in society was just so doable. For example, I spent many hours the next day perfectly content doing homework, something that is unusual.
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