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#19231221 - 12/05/13 01:21 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Re: My Life Could Be Worse..But Could Be Better [Re: Chicken Hoagie]
#19231339 - 12/05/13 01:48 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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From an outside perspective, if you haven't tried talking to the girl about it, I would. If you have and she's not doing anything then it is probably in your best interest to move on. Maybe look into moving to somewhere new. Oregon's got some fine mushrooms
Meditation could be of benefit if you motivate yourself. That's all it comes down to. Find what you want and motivate yourself to achieve it. You'll do well, man - there are always more girls and there is always a new home. Happiness is within your own mind.
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Re: My Life Could Be Worse..But Could Be Better [Re: LittleDaddy]
#19231890 - 12/05/13 03:52 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thanks for some insight..I've heard of those mushrooms! My parents are actually looking at Oregon as a location to move to soon for their retirement..who knows, i may come with if my job is going nowhere. Illinois is one of the worst states to live in, on top of a girlfriend who has tried her hardest to be with me for all her years, only to fuck me over and now take advantage of me every day. She has almost no friends and is stuck with me, and as a result my friends dont want to be around as much..i love my friends and theyve always been there for me..Some of the greatest friends i could ask for. But they have lives to live also, and i dont want to need neither friends nor girlfriend to be happy..but my girlfriend is a burden of anxiety that constantly puts strain on my vascular and nervous system..I feel this subtle disturbance in my mind, body almost every day..i know what its telling me. Its telling me there are many things not pleasurable and not beneficial to my life, but on the flipside my body has an addiction and is throwing a fit to not get rid of it..im very well self-controlled, but they are problems that are teetering from either self-destruction, or full enlightenment...i want to know what its going to take for that enlightenment, even if its a temporary struggle...And then theres memories..forever trapped in my mind from someone i love(d) so much. The struggle is difficult..anybody that has it harder than me, i truly pity you..I have amazing opportunities and abilities, but all the while i only constantly feel like someone with a positive attitude and mind deserves this body and not me..my ego often feels destroyed along with my pride.
Meditation is one thing i always forget to consider
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Re: My Life Could Be Worse..But Could Be Better [Re: Chicken Hoagie]
#19233136 - 12/05/13 06:17 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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You also seem to focus on the negative in that post.
A lot of people have it worse. You have to be conscious of what's good in your life.
You already sound like you have it made up in your mind that you want to leave her. I was in a different but similar situation with my previous girlfriend. I wanted to leave but I hung on to the good times and idealized her, when the truth is people are constantly changing and she and I were both not the same person we once were and our relationship paralled that. She left me and it's been about a year and half and I still think about her daily. Time doesn't matter, though, I know I will move on and find someone else, as you will too should you decide to leave.
Enlightenment is a process and it all started when I picked up a book called Buddhism for Beginners by Thubten Chodron if you're at all interested in the philosophical aspect of why we meditate. Meditation has been the single greatest medication for my anxiety. Along with that, being high and taking drugs only makes it worse. You have to come to a point where you realize what you want and you can't do that high off something all the time - I only find meditation beneficial sober as well. Drug use can really affect anxiety.
I'd recommend starting off with some guided meditation on YouTube and then progressing into mindfulness meditation alone when you feel comfortable. If you're still interested in bringing your girlfriend then ask to meditate with her. but honestly, it sounds like you should start over. maybe talk to your parents if they do move west and see if you can join them until you get your feet on the ground. set goals and when you move make sure you achieve them. or get motivated now and impact your life for the better.
good luck, my friend.
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Re: My Life Could Be Worse..But Could Be Better [Re: LittleDaddy]
#19236956 - 12/06/13 02:54 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Really appreciate that...thanks a ton! Sometimes it just takes some stranger's outside perspective. I'll definitely keep all of this in mind..
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