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ColdGear
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First mushroom trip
#19229725 - 12/05/13 12:44 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I first did shrooms about a moth ago, im still unsure of whether it was a good experience or not. After doing acid last spring, witch was an amazing experience i have been looking to do shrooms. I finally found someone that had it. He told he could sell me 4gs for $60 witch i thought was ridicules, eventually he decided he wanted to trip too so he said he would sell me 2g for 30. i didnt know anyone else and really wanted to do em so i buy them. I then go back to my apartment and eat only one gram.after about 45min i still wasn't felling anything, so i decided to take a bong hit. All of a sudden i started to fell odd, i wasn't sure if i was high but i knew i wasn't sober it was a very odd feeling. then i took the other half and started watching adventure time. after about 30min i had given up and was talking to my dealer and telling him that i was nt felling much. he told me he took them too but he just feelt a body high and was nt tripping much. when i was about to text him back to say that he owed me for giving me bum shrooms, the letters and the screen of my phone started bulging out. when i started watching the show, when ever Jake ( the dog) would talk i would start laughing. things were starting to getting brighter and i started thinking how ridiculous adventure time was. then some demon looking thing showed up in the show and that started me and i thought the show was evil and turned it off. I turned on some bob Marley and was just setting on my couch and i could see crazy ass patterns on my wooden floor,. The craziest part was i was seeing mushrooms on the floor, and it was changing, and the wet spots on my towel made these cool geometric shapes, i could see patters i had never seen before. i then took out my drawing book and wanted to see if i could finish a drawing i had started the day before. i looked at the drawing for a while and decided it was perfect and nothing more had to be added to it. then i decide to turn off the lights and thats when things went "bad". i was listening to bob Marley in the dark looking out the window. all of a sudden i didnt know who i was and my mind was starting to go to this negative place. i tried listening to music but that didnt help at all. so i decided to lay back on my couch and try to work things out. Then there was something telling, i woulds say directly talking but somehow communicating with me through me (if that makes any sense)through questions it was telling me that everything i ever did or plan on doing was meaningless. Its was the most uncomfortable feeling that i had ever felt, realizing that your life and everything you do is purposeless is too fucking scary. at a some point i didnt know what i was or who i was or where the fuck i was. the only thing that i knew was that i was aware, it was almost as if my awareness was the only thing that existed.i felt so lonely and helpless and worthless. Then i open my eyes and i went to the bathroom, when i saw myself in the mirror i was just thinking, this cant be me, it felt like i was more than just a body, very bizzare feeling. The scariest part was when my brother texted me and i tried to think about my childhood but had no memory what so ever. Something was constantly letting me know that my life was purposeless and that everything i wanted was also meaningless. I aint gona lie i had a though at one point that if everything was meaningless i might as well kill myself, but then i realized i was tripping.and the i thought what if i die and still feel like i was meaningless. The scariest part had to be after the visuals went away i was nt sure if i was tripping or not, the way my mind was thinking was not normal and i was scared that i would be stuck like this forever. The visuals werent that strong and didnt last long at all. The overall trip might have lasted less than 4 hours, i was getting visuals only for the first 45min after that it was straight mental. at about 1am i could nt handel all the negativity so i decided to take a walk outside. as i started walking i started feeling better and understood that the shrooms was trying to tell me something. ever since that day i have become more aware of the things i do. i wish my first experience had been positive, still deciding on whether to do them or not. Overall it was a bad trip but i have learned a lesson. I learned that my life was purposeless and that i was living my life for others and not me. i defiantly want to give shrooms another try but personally I like acid much better.
Edited by ColdGear (12/08/13 06:51 PM)
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Re: First mushroom trip [Re: ColdGear]
#19229808 - 12/05/13 01:30 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Paragraph breaks please? I can't read that.
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Re: First mushroom trip [Re: ColdGear]
#19235264 - 12/06/13 05:46 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Try a more positive setting next time, I always prefer the daylight and maybe do it together with someone you trust. 
I think it's normal to think those things during a trip. the mushrooms give you a much wider perspective of the world, which of course also makes you realize your own insignificance in this life. But you don't have to perceive this as negative; personally I think it's very liberating to understand the insignificance of my actions. It can offer a lot of freedom and peace of the mind.
Try to embrace it and approach your experience in a positive way. Then you will see that the mushrooms are not trying to tell you that you are meaningless, but instead are opening your mind to the greater picture of it all.
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Re: First mushroom trip [Re: Wowbagger]
#19257837 - 12/10/13 09:42 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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all that from 1 g? i call bullshit.
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ColdGear
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it was 2g
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Re: First mushroom trip [Re: Wowbagger]
#19274638 - 12/14/13 12:51 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Wowbagger said: Try a more positive setting next time, I always prefer the daylight and maybe do it together with someone you trust. 
I think it's normal to think those things during a trip. the mushrooms give you a much wider perspective of the world, which of course also makes you realize your own insignificance in this life. But you don't have to perceive this as negative; personally I think it's very liberating to understand the insignificance of my actions. It can offer a lot of freedom and peace of the mind.
Try to embrace it and approach your experience in a positive way. Then you will see that the mushrooms are not trying to tell you that you are meaningless, but instead are opening your mind to the greater picture of it all.
I couldn't have said it better myself so I won't. I'll just 2nd everything quoted above.
At that dose (1-2g), ego is still very much dominant. So also realize that you've just got a very good look at your ego "from the outside".
Peace
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