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Outlaw
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Registered: 12/04/13
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The summer of 13.
#19229096 - 12/04/13 09:46 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hello good people. Swim comes to you this evening to relay a gut wrenching, heart breaking, hallucinogenic tale. A story to weird to be real and to rare to be fake. Something that will be hard to write. Something that has ransacked my being and scarred my soul. Someday ill laugh at all this. But not now, not for quite sometime.
Ive walked through heavenly fields and been forced to run through devilish valleys. Im writing this to be a fare warning, a fare warning to all of you who may have never dabbled with psychedelics. A warning i really wish someone would have handed me.
Before i begin i must ask you to please go into this tale with an open mind and to be prepared for sexually explicit content, and graphic language.
It all begin in June of 2013. Summer was in full swing and my undeniably sexy girlfriend, along with myself, were loving it. I had just met a dude with a great lucy connect, began ordering cactus, watched ounces of mush appear and disappear not to mention the mounds of good grass, decent whiskey, good rum, and my ultimate demise: xanax.
J and i loved dropping acid, we bought a sheet for the summer. What a good idea that would be! J was mighty impressed by our large collection that maintained the summer fun. Each day was amazing. Mush on monday, lucy on tuesday, mescaline on wednesday, thursday, friday, and right back to mush on saturday. We lived each day on the grips of insanity. A test to eachother, a shout that screamed "fuck america, fuck the police, pass the fuckin blunt, wheres the fifth and holy shit look at the sky!". We loved eachother more than life itself. We had the best sex, got the weirdest looks from people, and took each breathe like we just might not get one more.
We had the world at our feet, were getting the closet we'd ever been to a higher power, and it seemed for awhile, we never came down. We'd mix acid with everything, foolishly even with mushrooms on special occasions. Our dreams were about to shatter into bitter, brutal reality.
We awoke nude wrapped tightly in eachothers arms. The room was fucking trashed, once again i had hippydicked away most of the spending cash for the week. I walked to my drawer and grabbed a handful of mushrooms, tossing j the bag i began rolling herb and pouring drinks. The come up hit us fast. How much had we ate? Didnt matter, id be okay.
J and i decided it was time to to walk to subway for some grub. Standing in line i notice j becoming nervous. Im readying myself to purchase the feast when j sprints out of the subway. I run outside, calmly approach and tell her everythings fine, were going home now, all we have to do is pay for our food. We walk back inside to giggles and arrogant college punks with little to no self esteem gawking us. I pay for my food and hand julia her bag of chips. She immediately opens the chips and fills the bag with blue powerade from the fountain. Laughing hysterically i hand her a cup. She smiles and kisses me. I look deep into her eyes and i see my darling girlfriend, someone who handles her shit fucking well, has checked out. Panic creeps up my spine.
"Balls up you fuckin got this, your a psychonaut!" i tell myself.
Luckily i happen to live a stones throw from subway. We arrived to an apartment stoop we used to constantly pollute and loiter. Were both enjoying our subway until j lays back on the concrete. Slowly she begins to finger herself. She accelerates moaning louder and louder. I try and gain her attention but shes nonresponsive. All she can do, say, think, and feel is her vagina. She steadys out to a tolerable noise leveled moan. There i sat. Eating subway next to a woman publicly masturbating. 45 minutes later i was able to get her to speak to me. We walked inside. We entered a room i was renting at the time and j layed down on my bed. Roughly 5 seconds later she hopped up grabbed my switchblade and told me i wasnt going to be keeping her hostage anymore. I quoted one of my favorite lines of all time. "Jesus man youve gone completely sideways!" Suddenly she was back, she began to laugh and projected back "And you know what that means!" The night was saved! J went home. I later wondered why god had me witness this, this mundane sexually enticing site.
The next bad trip wouldnt be for weeks later, but it would come around. We began the day once moreby peeling naked flesh off of eachother. Today we would each eat 3 hits. I had a slight toleranceat this time, j had no tolerance at all. We had decided to slow down at this point. And give ourselves time in between acid trips.
We went to our favorite park. Things were great, it was a beautiful day. J suddenly was sure a bee had stung her. Knowing j is deathly allergic i ask her if she was really stung. She looks at me and begins gasping for air, sucking in her neck, cheeks and facial tissue. I make a decision to walk her out of the park. It would be just my luck that a crowds of people would be walking through the park. There i was walking next to a completely stiff, pale, and troubled looking woman. I shamelessly walk her thru what seems like hrs of complete hell. Every tom dick and jane scowled at me like i was an abducter. Seducing his prey and finishing up the job with an after picnic roofie walk. This cant get much worse i thought. I was wrong.
We make it home and j takes a seat on the porch. Slowly she rocks back and forth until she looks at me and screams "Oh YEAH! THATS RIGHT! WERE ESCAPING!" She takes off in a atrociously fast sprint. Catching this girl will be some task i think. I should stay here. Ah fuck. No i probably shouldnt.
I take off sprinting. I soon realize that catching this woman high on acid will be some task. I soon realize ill be lucky to catch her befofe she barrells into the intersection and right now the downtown rush is on and the traffic is going a cool 45 mph. Holy shit i think. I cant let this happen. I swear to this day an indian ancestor of mine teleported into my body by the name of Wind Horse. He gave me agile feet and crystal clear heroic decision making. I caught her right at the curb of the intersection. I throw j to the ground as the car that almost killed her whizzes by my right shoulder. J throws her iphone in the air and i hear kids calling the cops across the street. I pick up js phone and turn around just in time to see her ripping her bra off in the middle of the intersection. There had to be 60 to70 people present for all this. I run into the middle of the intersection put js bra on her succulent breasts. I whisper to her, "if we dont run, theyll take us away forever." Two kids fried off acid ran away after that. We ran right into my room and had sex for i was the night in shining armour. I had saved my fare damsel.
I will not reference and go into great detail about all the times ive seen j try and kill herself on benzos. To many times to count. I broke up with j shortly after her last suicide attempt. In which she almost stabbed me. Watching a woman drag a knife from her wrist all the way up to the elbow is terrifying. I wish it on no man.
Thats it, thats my story. Since this all time low ive quit doing drugs. I wrote this so some of you newbies can think smart. Any of this can happen to you. I suggest not keeping knives around. Trip safe, stay positive, and remember if need be, Wind Horse enters all of us.
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MrHill
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw]
#19229142 - 12/04/13 09:59 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Glad you're ok
This is how to not do drugs.
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FrozenHappiness
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Registered: 03/01/01
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: MrHill]
#19230093 - 12/05/13 05:46 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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kind of a Sid and Nacy story, huh?
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Parrott said: Glad you're ok
This is how to not do drugs. 
Being on so many drugs, and so often, doesn't sound like a fun or desirable thing to me.
I am glad you're OK too OP, but what did you expect would happen when you decided to go on such a bender?
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Outlaw
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Registered: 12/04/13
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I would never expect you to understand my psychedelic addiction. In order for you to understand youd have to be an addict yourself. I did all those drugs because psychedelics were my drug of choice. Im an addict.
Instead of spooning dope im skinning cactus. Instead of lighting the rock im fermenting 3 grams in lemon Instead of snorting a line im placing paper on my tounge.
Its certainly nothing to be proud of, but it was the life i lived.
And if i could do it one more time, I would.
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FrozenHappiness
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw]
#19231089 - 12/05/13 12:51 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Fair enough.
I don't understand it, nor do I particularly agree with it, but from the report it does sound like you kept your shit together despite the intense psychadelic abuse. That is impressive. I am betting most people would loose it after a week or two. I know I would.
Please be careful out there
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Yukon Cornelius
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw] 1
#19231101 - 12/05/13 12:52 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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You give psychedelic users a bad name. Don't try painting it up as a cautionary tale, anyone with an ounce of common sense would never do stupid shit like that. Quote:
Outlaw said: I would never expect you to understand my psychedelic addiction. In order for you to understand youd have to be an addict yourself. I did all those drugs because psychedelics were my drug of choice. Im an addict.
Instead of spooning dope im skinning cactus. Instead of lighting the rock im fermenting 3 grams in lemon Instead of snorting a line im placing paper on my tounge.
Its certainly nothing to be proud of, but it was the life i lived.
And if i could do it one more time, I would.
Terrible comparison, your equating the hallucinogenic experience with opiates and stimulants based on your poor life decisions.
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Outlaw
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Common sense is for the common man. It was a time in my life that i would not recomend you try living. Drugs were my life. I could run for miles, crank in 20 chin ups before. Money, a sexy babe who doubled as a wingman a few wavy walled nights, any drug worth doing, and a sense of invincibility is what my poor decisions got me.
Ive had one crazy ride so far this lifetime, and not all of it was because of my poor decisions. Given the chance i wouldnt change a thing. I call it life experiences. You can only run for so many decades. Ive sprinted through a couple of mine.
I no longer use any drug. I wrote this in case some young kid found this site one night. Some young kid traveling the same path that i walked. I wrote this because i want that kid to know that bad things Can happen. I didnt write this to be bashed by some 'vet'.
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Into The Woods
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw]
#19247728 - 12/08/13 10:38 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Tomandjerry58
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Registered: 01/27/03
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idk seems like you just had a wild and crazy chick No reason to give up drugs and psychedelics unless your just going clean
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Sleepwalker
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw]
#19251035 - 12/09/13 04:23 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Good story, thanks for posting.
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Outlaw
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Registered: 12/04/13
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For now, going clean is the best thing i can do. Ive done all the shit to many times to keep doing it. Walking th psychedelic razorblade is a task. The irony is, at the end of the blade, youre awarded a new pair of feet.
Thanks for the thanks dudes. Live life to the fullest and be careful out there.
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DirtyTomFlint
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw] 1
#19251838 - 12/09/13 06:44 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I don't think you have the right to compare your 'addiction' to psychedelic with an addiction to opiates unless you have experienced an addiction to opiates.
Thats not the point though, the point is that you had troubles, and you got yourself through them. Props to you, and best of luck in the future!
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MrHill
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Quote:
DatIslandLife said: I don't think you have the right to compare your 'addiction' to psychedelic with an addiction to opiates unless you have experienced an addiction to opiates.
QTF Seems like OP just indulged a little too much.
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Outlaw
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Registered: 12/04/13
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Ive done opiates. It was never my thing. They say use me once i might let you go, use me twice ill own your soul. I got lucky. In all honesty ive tried every drug down the line. In my opinion meth is the most addictive, followed by heroin.
For whatever reason however my heart always landed in psychedelic's warm cuddly, devilish cold hand. Its a whole other addiction all in itself. When properly managed i believe its possible to reach new heights. By management i mean using the common 3 psychedelics(Mescaline, psicolin/psilocybin cubenis, and LSD) in perfect rotation. Never coming down in a true sense of the phrase.
Unfortunately all my fun has left me with mental scarrings of past images.
Believe it or not i still suffer flashbacks, anywhere, at any given time.
I even enjoy them.
Call it chronic use, fuck, money and time well spent.
Its an addiction ill always remember. Having an addiction with any drug is like going to war. Some may criticize me for this next statement. Bring it on.
I believe going to war with (a) drug(s) can be worse in some ways.
Reason being is this.
If your in the military, someday the war ends. Your company and yourself come home. Now youve all done and seen some shit. Nasty shit. Youve all seen that together, as a team.
I was the only one that seen any of the shit i seen. No one else can vouch for my story but me. Thats whats the worst. Just knowing no one else witnessed any of the mundane shit kills me.
Its been awhile since then tho thank goodness. Im still mentally not quite where i need to be but spiritually im all there. Life has taken me for a ride.
The Wal-Mart penny horse has taken me for a good ride so far. Ive still got a few hundered dollars to pump in her.
Til the next bright and beautiful day.
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larry.fisherman
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw]
#19252316 - 12/09/13 08:15 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm glad your in the green but I feel I must say this if no one else has yet, be more selective with who you trip with. It will save you a lot of trouble. Things like this are why I prefer to trip alone on most stuff.
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Roland Deschain
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You built that up a lot.
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Outlaw
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Quote:
Roland Deschain said: You built that up a lot.
Yeah i guess saving a life, nudity in the street in front of 60 college kids waiting for the bus home, and The horrors of "checked out" public masturbation are poppycock in such matters of a site as this one. People only care about loving tangible flowing thoughts and all the wavy landscapes mixed with fairy tales ive encountered.
Built up.
Things could have been far, far worse dude.
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Into The Woods
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw]
#19253700 - 12/10/13 02:10 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm sorry, do you even know what site you're on?
This is the Shroomery, man. God damn.
You're story is but a day in the life, in this place.
It was a good read, nonetheless. 
But don't jump the gun.
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Outlaw
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Quote:
Into The Woods said: I'm sorry, do you even know what site you're on?
This is the Shroomery, man. God damn.
You're story is but a day in the life, in this place.
It was a good read, nonetheless. 
But don't jump the gun.
I was being fecicious. There was no better place to bring my story.
I love you all.
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Roland Deschain
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Re: The summer of 13. [Re: Outlaw]
#19257560 - 12/10/13 08:51 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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lol. It does sound like a hellacious nightmare. I don't know, the introduction just really sucked me in. You're a good writer.
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