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st1llnox
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My barista is acting different but weed saved my life
#19227635 - 12/04/13 04:31 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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The other day, I would have ended up in Starbucks during the morning and my dad even asked if I wanted to go, but I decided I'd rather get stoned and sleep more.
About an hour after he asked me if I want a ride there, an SUV crashed through the front of the shop and put 8 people in the hospital.
Damn. I get lucky in the weirdest ways. BUUUUUT....
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Becka, the first barista at my Starbucks to introduce herself to me when I became a regular, was all weird to me today.
I think they might be judging me cause I might have gotten blackout drunk here like a week ago (don't remember). This was the first of the 2 days where I had 40+ drinks over 48 hours that really got my ass in gear about maybe giving my body and mind a break.
BUT NOW I'M SAD and I know actions have consequences and all that shit but still I'm ashamed of myself and how people that were really starting to like me might see me totally different now.
It's also possible she's just having one of those days (I mean people have been interrogating her about the car crash for days now), or maybe a combo of the two.
Maybe I should send an anonymous "sorry, it won't happen again" letter and if they put a face to the whiskey, they can hopefully forgive me and if not, no harm to my reputation.
Man alcohol
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Re: My barista is acting different but weed saved my life [Re: st1llnox]
#19227678 - 12/04/13 04:41 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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>>> I had 40+ drinks over 48 hours
I'm pretty sure you'd be good to drive and barely feel it, you're drinking at roughly the same rate at which you're metabolizing it.
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st1llnox
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Re: My barista is acting different but weed saved my life [Re: Ellis Dee]
#19227687 - 12/04/13 04:43 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Ellis Dee said: >>> I had 40+ drinks over 48 hours
I'm pretty sure you'd be good to drive and barely feel it, you're drinking at roughly the same rate at which you're metabolizing it.
Yeah, but the problem was I was sober almost all of both days and then took it stupid far in the evening.
I think I'm just worrying too much about this while the dust settles.
Edit: good post and good point as always, Ellis!
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Edited by st1llnox (12/04/13 04:44 PM)
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Re: My barista is acting different but weed saved my life [Re: st1llnox]
#19227741 - 12/04/13 04:58 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I wouldn't worry to much about it. All of the times I have made a total ass out of myself in public were because I was drunk and acting out every impulse without much thought. That's why I don't drink in public anymore, except I have 1 if its social, but only one. Otherwise I drink alone or with friends who already know what an ass I can be. Lots of people though have great fun drinking in public and have very popular social lives as a result.
This song sums up the way I drink these days. 
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Re: My barista is acting different but weed saved my life [Re: Ellis Dee]
#19228020 - 12/04/13 06:10 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I've only been blackout drunk once and it was a very embarrassing experience. i learned my lesson with the hangover too, never agin. luckily i had a good friend there who changed my pissed in jeans while i was zonked out
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Re: My barista is acting different but weed saved my life [Re: dontknow]
#19228810 - 12/04/13 08:48 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hmm okay thanks you two.
I'm hoping not to return to blackout drinking except maybe socially at house parties when everyone else is doing it (I lived in an all guys dorm if this explains any of my past and opinions). Actually I'm just gonna stop at brownout.
I'm just gonna not worry about it but plan on not doing it again.
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IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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