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st1llnox
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: Patlal]
#19222576 - 12/03/13 02:51 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Into The Woods said: Meanwhile I'm here typing and sipping away on my 9th glass of wine at 8:43 in the morning.
You guys are starting to get to me
You could hoppity hop hop hop aboard the sober (bunny?) train!
I'm up to 18 hours
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Patlal said: IMO sobriety is probably one of the best things you could do. I'm jealous of people that have it without even trying.
Isn't it weird how to them, drugs represent a deliberate diversion from their natural state?
Honestly, I've been "accidentally sober" TONS but that was when I was at school, had my own life, was busy and doing stuff, etc.
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Into The Woods
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: st1llnox]
#19222600 - 12/03/13 02:54 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Isn't that what keeps sober people sober in the first place?
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Alexestalex
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: Into The Woods]
#19222635 - 12/03/13 03:04 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Into The Woods said: Isn't that what keeps sober people sober in the first place?
Ignorance is bliss man. I know a shit ton of people at my University who have never touched a single mind altering substance, not even alcohol, and are perfectly content with spending their Friday nights watching Anime and playing video-games. I read a study once that if you don't end up smoking pot (or doing recreational drugs) before you're 20, you'll probably stay straightedge for life because the brain matures at that age and is less likely to make decisions that society considers risky.
I'm not necessarily happy that I smoke pot because it's something I have to constantly hide from my parents, it makes me feel hazy the next day, and so forth. I mean, it hasn't wrecked my academic career or made me lose any friends, but you get the point. However, since I've tried pot and got a taste of what being high is about, I find it really hard to live without it. I was extremely straight edge up until grade 11 and I never found constant sobriety difficult or boring to cope with.
Contrast is the only reason I smoke weed and do other drugs. I can come home on a friday night and either do fun shit (hang out with friends, listen to music, get food, watch TV, long board, etc) sober or high. The choice is mine. Sadly, these activities feel 100000x better when I'm baked and thus it's extremely difficult for me to not smoke up.... Not to mention, weed is dirt cheap and basically available on my street anytime of day. It's very tempting to not light a bowl when you know it'll make your food incredible and music orgasmic...
-------------------- Stay far from timid, only make moves when your heart's in it.
Edited by Alexestalex (12/03/13 03:11 PM)
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Into The Woods
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: Alexestalex]
#19222898 - 12/03/13 03:47 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Well, sure. I don't get high any more and I don't drink EVERY day. I only trip 6-10 times per year at average.
Interesting about that study.
But to be sober all your life.
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deCypher
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: Into The Woods]
#19223369 - 12/03/13 06:00 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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The fact that no one responded to my well thought-out post made me drink a forty straight to the dome.
YOU GUYS ARE COUNTERPRODUCTIVE TO MY SOBRIETY
-------------------- We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.
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st1llnox
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: deCypher]
#19223583 - 12/03/13 06:44 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I thought you were trolling, although you had startling foresight with that... I did realize on the way home that I think much of what's keeping me doing this crap is that when the ash settles, I don't like what I'm left with/seeing.
Oh, and the soul-crushing guilt.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
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thizzlemaniac
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: deCypher]
#19223587 - 12/03/13 06:45 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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We are still smoking and using benzos
I actually just got home from getting my xanax, I'm feelin good
-------------------- Hi how are you? How high are you?
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deCypher
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: st1llnox]
#19223612 - 12/03/13 06:51 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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It just takes time.
I might have missed how old you said you were, but your frontal lobe continues developing into your twenties... which is coincidentally responsible for much of your intelligent decision making.
In other words, wait. Pray. Don't associate with friends who do drugs, it'll make it that much easier. Send all your current drugs that you have in your possession to me.
JK, but seriously. Sobriety is scary. When I get completely sober I'll post to this thread and let you know how I did it.
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st1llnox
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: deCypher]
#19223645 - 12/03/13 06:57 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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thizzlemaniac said: We are still smoking and using benzos
I actually just got home from getting my xanax, I'm feelin good
We are really rocking a shifty flavor of sobriety, aren't we?
I was figuring on benzos only if/for withdrawal as they're much too similar to alcohol and may negate whatever it was we were trying to accomplish here. I've heard many people in AA say that much of their early 'sober' time did them no good because they were on Xanax or Valium or Jankazepam.
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deCypher said: It just takes time.
I might have missed how old you said you were, but your frontal lobe continues developing into your twenties... which is coincidentally responsible for much of your intelligent decision making.
In other words, wait. Pray. Don't associate with friends who do drugs, it'll make it that much easier. Send all your current drugs that you have in your possession to me.
JK, but seriously. Sobriety is scary. When I get completely sober I'll post to this thread and let you know how I did it.
I'm 23 (did you not see my "St1llnox turns 23 today!" post from when I turned 23 which was less than a year ago? JK I'm heckling you).
I've heard that but I'm not super concerned at this point.
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st1llnox
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: st1llnox]
#19223651 - 12/03/13 07:00 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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thizzlemaniac said: We are still smoking and using benzos
I actually just got home from getting my xanax, I'm feelin good
We are really rocking a shifty flavor of sobriety, aren't we?
Oh and we both forgot: I'm on speed.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
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Whitewater
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: st1llnox]
#19223858 - 12/03/13 07:39 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Stick with it, you guys are gonna feel awesome.
Alcohol's effect lasts longer than just the drunk and hangover.
If you add a decent diet and moderate exercise you'll wake up one day like "damn... I feel awesome"
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st1llnox
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Re: The idea of sobriety literally scares me [Re: Whitewater]
#19223889 - 12/03/13 07:43 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Dude I can't wait and thanks for encouraging us.
I had no idea alcohol withdrawal is delayed either.
I successfully started the exercise thing a week ago when I quit smoking and have run 0.5-1 mile(s) every day. The food's getting there, and on top of quitting smoking I'm optimistic.
It's just that now I can't run from what I've done and how things have gone/turned out and I suspect as more of the ash settles and things become even more clear, I'm going to have a somewhat serious breakdown soon and I've been like crying sporadically today and yesterday about some things I've done to my family (but I'm not going to go back to drinking).
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
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