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Life Is Making Me Butthurt
#19222015 - 12/03/13 12:44 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Its been a ruff life. Not compared to most people but shit sometimes everything sucks you know? Lifes fucking hard and extremely painful sometimes. I'm depressed because: 1. My grandpa just died 2. Me and my girl are graduating this year and we may break up if we can't compromise 3. I'm fucking sick of this goddamn useless school work 4. I have a headache 5. Its dreary as fuck outside (Thank god I realized I didn't wanna live in oregon because of all the dreary weather) Anyways being butthurt on the shroomery helps me feel a little better
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The5thElement
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We all get butthurt sometimes, but it's the moments when our butt feels good that makes it worth it.
Edited by The5thElement (12/04/13 03:48 AM)
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i like cow poo
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The5thElement said: We all get butthurt sometimes, but it's the moments when are butt feels good that makes it worth it.
What cheers you up?
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larry.fisherman
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When I was four my parents broke up. My father was an angry, violent alcoholic and my only friend, because I moved around so much. My mother dumped my sister and myself, because her other family is apparently better. I didn't have a friend until 10, and I didn't find any sort of love until 20. I've had sever brain injuries, my spine broken alone with other things. I have a broken shoulder blade currently. I work rotating nights and days constantly. All this along with a host of shit I would prefer not to mention. Why am I saying this? Do I cry about it? No I trip out, get some perspective then fucking move on. Quit your bitching.
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The5thElement
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Most of time I cheer myself up, have too. I've had a long stupid relationship with being depressed man.. Sometimes it just comes and there really isn't anything that triggers it, then when that happens I start thinking negatively and just get stuck in that loop.
To get out of that place it really just takes a shift of perspective on your part, you can either live life and be depressed all the time, or you can find reasons to be happy. Every life is different and has different variables to it but I think it just boils down to how you choose to perceive things.
In the end when your honest with your self, you'll know what things in your life brings you sadness.. Wether it be a habit, a way of thinking, people in your life or drugs if your honest with yourself you can fix yourself.
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i like cow poo said:
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The5thElement said: We all get butthurt sometimes, but it's the moments when are butt feels good that makes it worth it.
What cheers you up?
And it's ok to talk about things that bother you, if you don't have anyone IRL to talk about it then talk about it here, probably the physical well being forum would be best, don't listen to that other guy.
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i like cow poo
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we both have 2900 posts! Yeah the other guy has a shittier life, but I think suffering is a component of being human. Its almost unavoidable. Yeah I should post in the Well being forum but I'll ride this thread out. What kind of music do you like?
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The5thElement
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Man I like most kinds of music, least favourite has to be country though... Pretty much just JC comes to mind in that genre.
Used to be really big into Metal but kinda grew out of that years ago, I like trance/hip hop/rap/ ect. ect.
I could name a bunch of bands but I'm about to log off, have to work out soon. Working out seems to make me happy too, same with playing guitar. Pretty much something I can dedicate my time to and can see result in makes me feel pretty good
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Good advice. I'd rate you twice if I could
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The5thElement is ridiculously cheerful
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Re: Life Is Making Me Butthurt [Re: koods]
#19222900 - 12/03/13 03:48 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Every moment is a new beginning
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Re: Life Is Making Me Butthurt [Re: koods]
#19225266 - 12/04/13 03:47 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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i like cow poo said: Good advice. I'd rate you twice if I could
Thanks man, hope it helps.
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koods said: The5thElement is ridiculously cheerful 
Oh you
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st1llnox
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What's your substance use look like right now?
I'm really sorry you weren't feeling so hot. Any better today?
My grandpa died too this year and I wasted my last chances to spend time with him on drugs. The one time robitussin was not worth it . It's easy to be cheerful, yet it seems so impossible to see around big issues like death and romance and coupled with the undertow of a dreary environment, well... hang in there 
You've got this. You're going to wake up in 6 months and things will have worked themselves out and you'll have already gone through the tricky bits, ya know?
One AWESOME coping skill I learned is to do something incompatible with what you're wanting to get rid of. For example... if you're mad, it's hard to stay that way while fapping its so fun. Or, if you're sad, fire up some videos on the Onion.
Sometime I just remembered from a while ago that will help me (so thanks for prompting me to remember) is that sometimes you don't need to analyze and work out negative emotions. I'm hyperanalytical and you seem inclined that way as well, but one of the best people to talk to about problems I've ever met would simply let people vent a little bit and then show silly cat pictures.
You'd be fucking amazed how much better that can work than ruminating.
Also, change the channel. Start noticing when you're pouring back over the negative issues and think about something nice or fun or beautiful or sweet.
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Re: Life Is Making Me Butthurt [Re: st1llnox]
#19225352 - 12/04/13 05:02 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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st1llnox said: it seems so impossible to see around big issues like death and romance and coupled with the undertow of a dreary environment.
i like this. great description, those two themes give me the biggest empty inside feeling when im all alone with nothing to do.
i actually get very introspective on and it will get me intensely in touch with my feelings and while that intensifies my depression it also amplifies feelings of love for my fam and friends so a quick phone call to someone i love usually makes me feel better.
yea, i hate admitting it but weed can make me really sad about the "big picture" of live but, as with most psychedelics, i think this has more to do with the unfulfilling life im leading and the weed just forces me to realize it. despite claims about drugs being used to escape reality, i feel like most drugs amplify it. I am least aware and almost blissfully ignorant when sober.
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What's your substance use look like right now?
I'm really sorry you weren't feeling so hot. Any better today?
My grandpa died too this year and I wasted my last chances to spend time with him on drugs. The one time robitussin was not worth it . It's easy to be cheerful, yet it seems so impossible to see around big issues like death and romance and coupled with the undertow of a dreary environment, well... hang in there 
You've got this. You're going to wake up in 6 months and things will have worked themselves out and you'll have already gone through the tricky bits, ya know?
One AWESOME coping skill I learned is to do something incompatible with what you're wanting to get rid of. For example... if you're mad, it's hard to stay that way while fapping its so fun. Or, if you're sad, fire up some videos on the Onion.
Sometime I just remembered from a while ago that will help me (so thanks for prompting me to remember) is that sometimes you don't need to analyze and work out negative emotions. I'm hyperanalytical and you seem inclined that way as well, but one of the best people to talk to about problems I've ever met would simply let people vent a little bit and then show silly cat pictures.
You'd be fucking amazed how much better that can work than ruminating.
Also, change the channel. Start noticing when you're pouring back over the negative issues and think about something nice or fun or beautiful or sweet.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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Re: Life Is Making Me Butthurt [Re: Apostle]
#19225558 - 12/04/13 07:25 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thanks hologram. I've really been enjoying your posts as of late and thank you for the advice you gave me in other threads. 
I know just how you feel about weed. Several times, I've had miniature (perhaps even proper) 'trips' on weed and that happened pretty recently where I had this holy shit thing about how I've affected my family. I ended up crying all night but it was beautiful: I couldn't help but gather up some pictures of my family and me with my brother and look at them and I set them around where I eventually got to sleep. I wonder if that helped spur this (fingers-crossed) change in me recently.
There is a beauty to be found in depression, especially through a psychedelic lens. Crying is the spirit releasing toxins and if I hadn't been so depressed and unfeeling for so long recently, feeling happy and sober the last couple days wouldn't be nearly so wonderful. Depression is just a curtain for happiness and life itself... the main show and you can't see through it but you know eventually it's going to go up and you're going to get lost in wonder again.
And the curtain will always come back down, but the show must go on and we can rest assured it does and will 
I personally get deeply content and happy when its overcast, *barely* raining, and especially at night in artificial light but as we've agreed, the worst setting to experience maladies in is a setting with an ambient undertow.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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