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psychodelia
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Can't seem to enjoy/participate in life
#19195029 - 11/27/13 03:29 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hey everyone. Been smoking pot for over a year with about 10 weeks break all together, but I can't seem to stop. I just can't break this rut. Failed my Tafe course horrendously because of laziness, and I don't feel worth anything. I'm planning to just quit Tafe, get some mindless job and work on my music... But I'm not sure. I'm never sure of anything.
Right now I'm at a gig sitting in the other room drinking alone and I just dread my life. I have got motivation, as I'm a good performer and an okay songwriter, but I can't get off my stupid ass and make my dreams come true. It's like what I could be, is laughing at me and taunting me, it all feels too hard...
Don't know what I really expect to gain out of this post, but I just feel shitty and worthless and maybe some shroomers can give me some perspective...
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eve69
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Re: Can't seem to enjoy/participate in life [Re: psychodelia] 2
#19195116 - 11/27/13 05:08 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Boredom is a sign of stress. What once was fun or seemed vital now drains you. You have no energy for it? I suggest it's because the stress - the pressure has eclipsed the situation. It happens to everybody but especially to artists because they must be self motivated. The boredom is a response to big pressures telling you to take a break. It could be beneficial to you to take your recent failures for a signpost that your heart wasn't in the thing. Take a break. Get your groove back.
The groove is something that comes from within so you need to nurture where it comes from, and it can't come from someone else. So first thing, lots of rest. Heal, health, good diet, exercise, allow the mind to relax and open up in place - don't run around. Just slow down and relax. Take a deep breath. Let it out.
Do something completely different.
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Re: Can't seem to enjoy/participate in life [Re: eve69]
#19195135 - 11/27/13 05:33 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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I know how you feel. I was in the same place once. I guess there's a couple of things you could consider. When I was in that stage I was smoking pretty often. Like once a day which was heaps for me, and seeming as I was already suicidal and depressed it only divorced me from reality even more. I literally sat in my room smoking and letting my university degree float down the toilet. My talent for writing felt like it was laughing at me too, in the sense that I knew I had a talent, but using it and having confidence in it was another matter entirely. I felt so flat and so dull that I stopped writing altogether and just existed.
Eventually I cut back on the bongs, and after a long down period the flatness in my mood improved and I was able to get shit done rather then being in a rut and not knowing (or having the motivation) to get out of it. Now I write purely because it is a passion, because it is necessary for my soul to vent, and because I feel like it can help people. And though I don't get paid for it, there is a gift that comes with talents like that yours, creative and artistic talents, and that is the gift of expression and being able to articulate your emotions (or even lack of). But like the post above mentioned, artists need to be self-motivated. They thrive off their own creativity. But creativity doesn't come to us when we reach for it, it comes randomly and can abandon us at times. I guess it's just an artists burden eh? Blessing and a curse at the same time.
I agree. Take a break, get your energy back. The groove will reach out for you again. It always does (:
-------------------- Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace
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Re: Can't seem to enjoy/participate in life [Re: BayArea]
#19198666 - 11/27/13 10:51 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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lots of rest?
rest fuels my depression. but being active does also, its just a circle of bulshit. i can't lay down without tearing up from stupid shit i just want to leave my fucking mind
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Spacerific
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Re: Can't seem to enjoy/participate in life [Re: Anonymous #1]
#19210023 - 11/30/13 08:11 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Don't know what I really expect to gain out of this post, but I just feel shitty and worthless and maybe some shrooms can give me some perspective...
Fixed 
Trip about it, ask the visions, you'll likely be shown how to overcome the inner blockages that are now holding you back. Be all that you can be
-------------------- Blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.
For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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Re: Can't seem to enjoy/participate in life [Re: psychodelia]
#19229259 - 12/04/13 10:28 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hey man... I know how you feel. Maybe this will help give you some perspective. These words have always helped me stay centered and aware of life: The Present
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