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PurpleHaze147



Registered: 04/09/13
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Re: Weed anxiety vs treating anxiety with weed. [Re: InTheCosmos]
#19229378 - 12/04/13 10:57 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Regular anxiety and the anxiety I used to get from weed felt very different. I'd choose stoned anxiety over sober anxiety any day. I think y some people don't like weed is it makes them too introspective and self judging which can cause a lot if people to have anxiety. Weed takes away my anxiety 100% now a days. Most of my anxiety caused by weed in my early days of smoking was very irrational, it goes away with experience cuz once u sober up and u realize ur thinking was irrational u won't think that way anymore once u truly realize it. IME
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Gorlax



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Re: Weed anxiety vs treating anxiety with weed. [Re: PurpleHaze147]
#19229389 - 12/04/13 11:00 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Weed is subjective. Although paranoia is common with cannabinoids... esp synthetics.. I'd say in normal conditions I'm chill stoned..but if I'm like under the spot light speech presentation I'm fucked..
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Brisco
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Re: Weed anxiety vs treating anxiety with weed. [Re: PurpleHaze147]
#19229881 - 12/05/13 02:32 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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PurpleHaze147 said: Most of my anxiety caused by weed in my early days of smoking was very irrational, it goes away with experience cuz once u sober up and u realize ur thinking was irrational u won't think that way anymore once u truly realize it. IME
I feel stuck in between these stages. Unfortunately since childhood I grew up with bad anxiety and social anxiety and didn't understand that I had the power to change this in myself until I was 20. Now I feel very immature for my age (25) and I constantly struggle with anxiety and lack of confidence as well as a poor self image. When I smoke I can keep it together and relax for the first half of the high, and then my introspection, paranoid thoughts and self judgement get the better of my more rational side and I spiral into what feels like a schizophrenic haze/ depression. Which feels fucking awful. Through mindfulness meditation practice and reading stuff like Ram Dass I can pretty much see through the irrational thoughts and dismiss them, but the emotional trauma/ memory is still there and always finds a way to win. Weed triggers nervous tension in my body, it just wells up in my chest no matter how positive or good I start off feeling- neurotic high tension thinking usually follows (then I can't be around other people for a while cause I'm so high strung).
I stopped smoking for a while but recently started again. I'll smoke half way through a meditation practice because I think weed simply turns the volume way up on all the stuff that's under the surface all the time anyway, and its during meditation that I can observe my thinking tenancies and understand the psychological paradigm I'm inside to try and resolve things; find acceptance, retrain bad thinking habits, and rise above the head space I'm stuck in and laugh at how silly I've been acting and how hard I've been trying when the answer is to simply let go. I will let go, but then immediately latch right back on. It feels like swimming to surface to take a breath before inevitably getting pulled back down into the dark waters of trauma.
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