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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: zZZz]
#19183064 - 11/24/13 03:06 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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You seem to me like an isolationist who has been using marijuana and other drugs as a crutch for a while and now they are not as effective at helping you isolate as they used to be. I know the feeling. I have many stitches on my wrist from multiple hospitalizations, all from when I was your age. I know it sounds crazy, but try to cut back on the pot and replace it with social activities. Aren't you in college? Get involved in a club. Volunteer- seriously! It's the best way to meet really cool people. If you're too much of an asshole to work for no pay, get a job. If you do well in your classes, try to work for your college as a tutor (many colleges hire students to tutor other students as a full-time service). It can be very rewarding, intellectually, financially, emotionally, and professionally.
I know it's silly of me to be making all these diagnoses over the internet, but we both use this website a lot, and I think we have experienced similar things, and this is my assessment.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: 28064212]
#19183102 - 11/24/13 03:14 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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28064212 said: I've been on prescriptions amphetmaines for a long time.
Beside that I use psychedelics every once in a while. Benzos occasionally. Use my everyday, and smoke s
Amps do really, really bad things for anxiety. I stopped taking them for that reason.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: morrowasted]
#19183105 - 11/24/13 03:15 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Pot isn't my probably. I need it medically to function. I just need to get my emotional shot together. Pot actually helps that.
Much better than being addicted to Xanax.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: Gumby]
#19183110 - 11/24/13 03:16 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Amphetamines on the other hand, could be a good thing to cut out or slow down.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: 28064212] 2
#19183115 - 11/24/13 03:17 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Amphetamines... slow down now there's an unlikely combo
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: abltsandwich]
#19183126 - 11/24/13 03:19 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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I love the band Fun.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: 28064212] 2
#19183197 - 11/24/13 03:35 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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28064212 said: Pot isn't my probably. I need it medically to function. I just need to get my emotional shot together. Pot actually helps that.
Much better than being addicted to Xanax.
Yeah I used to think the same thing man. Whatever, you'll grow up.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: morrowasted]
#19183212 - 11/24/13 03:38 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm pretty grown up, my friend. Isn't it possibly we just have different body chemistry?
I know what I have to do to get my shit together, I have many less outbreaks than I did a year or two ago.
I can use my medicine and be successful.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: morrowasted]
#19183218 - 11/24/13 03:39 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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one drug at a time
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: morrowasted]
#19183269 - 11/24/13 03:50 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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morrowasted said:
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28064212 said: Pot isn't my probably. I need it medically to function. I just need to get my emotional shot together. Pot actually helps that.
Much better than being addicted to Xanax.
Yeah I used to think the same thing man. Whatever, you'll grow up.
Just recently did i realize just how much weed was fucking my shit up, after many years of carefree smoking. Stopped it for the most part, unfortunately its too late to have an impact on the fuckup of a situation im currently in. Im addicted to mxe tho, and thats a real fucking bitch to kick.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: The_Ghost]
#19183277 - 11/24/13 03:52 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Just recently did i realize just how much weed was fucking my shit up, after many years of carefree smoking. Stopped it for the most part, unfortunately its too late to have an impact on the fuckup of a situation im currently in. Im addicted to mxe tho, and thats a real fucking bitch to kick.
marijuana can be the subtlest of foes
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: morrowasted]
#19183287 - 11/24/13 03:54 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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most good drugs are very tricky.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: morrowasted]
#19183295 - 11/24/13 03:57 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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morrowasted said:
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Just recently did i realize just how much weed was fucking my shit up, after many years of carefree smoking. Stopped it for the most part, unfortunately its too late to have an impact on the fuckup of a situation im currently in. Im addicted to mxe tho, and thats a real fucking bitch to kick.
marijuana can be the subtlest of foes
Right? What had me fooled good is thinking im unimpaired if i don't smoke that day and only smoke at night, and thinking my ADD is unrelated. Not thinking how i haven't really taken more than a few days break for many years, and how long thc stays in your system. Suddenly after 4 days of not smoking i felt like i was on coke all day.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: The_Ghost]
#19183357 - 11/24/13 04:11 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Ghost I've heard all the same things about nofap.
I wanna be on coke all day.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: abltsandwich] 2
#19183512 - 11/24/13 04:47 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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damn, i was going to start a thread like this, but... eh, tomorrow.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: 28064212] 2
#19183528 - 11/24/13 04:50 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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28064212 said: For sure. 
Ive been feeling real down lately, too. A lot of all of a sudden stress and anxiety at one time can be too much to handle, you really just gotta sit down, take a few deep breaths and try to calm your inner self down.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: VivaLaMushie] 1
#19183541 - 11/24/13 04:54 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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I think we're all freaking out because winter is coming.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: abltsandwich]
#19183545 - 11/24/13 04:55 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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abltsandwich said: Ghost I've heard all the same things about nofap.
I wanna be on coke all day.
No fap is a double edged sword.
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Lynnch said: I think we're all freaking out because winter is coming.
This too. fuck the cold.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: 28064212] 2
#19184042 - 11/24/13 06:54 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm sure that whatever is going on, you'll make it through just fine. It helps to have people you can talk to about things. That's one of the many great things about a community like this.
When I did amphetamines back in the day, my brain chemistry was all fucked up. It took a few months for it to get back to some form of "normal". Like others said, the amphetamines can cause problems like this. For some people, pot can too from what I hear.
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Re: Right now I feel like killing myself [Re: 28064212]
#19184135 - 11/24/13 07:15 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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28064212 said: No one worry I would never harm myself, I never have and never will, I am smarter/happier than that.
I just let my anxiety and indicisions take ahold of me and cause me to act like a retarded pathetic fool.
I can never make decisions and end up freaking out
my mother successfully took her life in april...been to a lot of loss meetings and one thing is apparent and that is they are caught in a moment of weakness
i applaud you for talking about it...but its the ones that say they would never do it...
well...never say never...
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