Hi Shroomery. First off, great site, I have lurked it for a long time.
I am interested in taking LSD while on vacation from my freshman year at college. I plan to take one hit (the guy I got it from wouldn't even give me two after he heard it was my first time.)
I have tripped on shrooms twice, and taken small doses twice. I didn't necessarily enjoy my first trip but spent my second trip outside around my most comfortable friends and enjoyed 90% of the experience.
I am someone who has some anxiety issues (most entirely come from insecurity and social anxieties) I am a master of obsessive self analysis and overthinking.
What do you think of the idea of me taking LSD for the first time by myself on vacation? I will be near my house, the town is extremely quiet around this time of year (so no dealing with people in public) and have a friend whos tripped 20+ times on speed dial.
Do you think trying acid for the first time in solitude is a good idea? Do you think it will be a productive trip that will help me with my anxiety? I am really socially anxious so I think being alone might actually be better, but am looking for an experienced opinion. I am way more anxious while smoking marijuana with friends than I am while alone. Although I experience less anxiety in solitude, I obviously still THINK about my social anxiety.
I guess an important question is that I learned a lot about my anxiety from tripping on shrooms WITH friends. Do you think I can learn a lot about feeling a sense of belonging socially and feeling socially confident by tripping on LSD in solitude? This means that although the goal is to fix social problems, i will not actually encounter any social situations while tripping. Is this a good idea or do you think an introverted setting would be detrimental? For a while I believed that tripping IN the settings and situations which one struggles in is one of the best ways to face and solve problems, but I've only tripped twice so I don't know with confidence that this is true. Will tripping LSD on my own, not interacting with anyone for 8+ hours, help me deal with personal insecurity and social problems, or will it be very detrimental as it is so polar from what I am trying to fix?
I think psilocybin has helped me a bit with anxiety - I was really outspoken while tripping and had more social confidence toward the comedown and following days than I ever have in my entire life. While I didn't hold onto this permanently, it was an inspiration that I continue to remember.
I am going to be spending the next day or so before the trip being by myself and trying to meditate a lot, avoiding technology and staying really mindful in order to avoid rapid, stressful thinking while tripping.
Anyway, I would love some opinions from experienced trippers on this matter. I pursue psychedelics solely out of the desire for guidance and solutions to my insecurity, lack of inner confidence and contentness, and general social and self-appreciation issues. I think my experience on mushrooms hasn't been 100% perfect but it really has helped me make a lot of effort in the right direction, the only concern being that I often think mushrooms made me hyper-aware of my problems to the point where it can become extremely overwhelming. Not that I didnt already have this issue.
Sorry for the big post but I am looking for some solid insights and those can best be found by providing lots of detail.
Thanks shroomery!!!!!!!!
If I end up tripping I will definitely update with some post-experience insights and observations
edit: also sometimes think Marijuana consumption plays a huge role in my social anxieties. Even though I only smoke once or twice a week, it is almost always a miserable experience. would love if anyone had input on this as well.
I know im asking for a lot for people to read this and input but id love to have someone to bounce ideas off of and karma, ill definitely spread the psychological assistance to others!! 
Edited by amk289 (11/23/13 09:33 PM)
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