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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: Endure]
#19203106 - 11/28/13 11:30 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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If you're silly like me and keep going back and also hit the MDMA pills you'll be in for it. 7 years of my life are a black hole due mainly to negative symptoms, but plenty of conspiracy thinking / positive symptoms were there too. The disease seems to be erratic but this last month has been positive, especially this last week. I think it's because they have me on an injection and an antidepressant as of late, so there's no skipping doses.
It's funny, memories come back of how I was before it all hit. And I feel like I'm on the road back there. A great feeling. What a load of shit this illness is...
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: circastes]
#19203120 - 11/28/13 11:33 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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circastes said: If you're silly like me and keep going back and also hit the MDMA pills you'll be in for it. 7 years of my life are a black hole due mainly to negative symptoms, but plenty of conspiracy thinking / positive symptoms were there too. The disease seems to be erratic but this last month has been positive, especially this last week. I think it's because they have me on an injection and an antidepressant as of late, so there's no skipping doses.
It's funny, memories come back of how I was before it all hit. And I feel like I'm on the road back there. A great feeling. What a load of shit this illness is...
the biggest difference between me now, and before, is that now i cant get comfortable in the presence of people on a 100percent level, anyone for that matter, its like im somewhere else, its terrible, i use to be the life of the party. whenever people see me now who i used to talk to before this there all excited and im just like what the fuck do i say to this guy i feel awkward and need to peace, terrible feeling
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: Endure]
#19203534 - 11/29/13 03:43 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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That sucks man. Sorry.
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: circastes]
#19204439 - 11/29/13 10:56 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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i still hang with people. i just feel a terrible aura around people. n no im not a median or whatever, this is a anxiety thing, i can feel n understand peoples egos tho i feel like n they weigh in on on me at times. terrible n weird feeling, just bad anxiety
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: Endure]
#19205016 - 11/29/13 02:09 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Well don't feel too bad, schizophrenia has basically ruined my life. 7 years of crap and nothingness, and I'm still waiting for my old self to come back. Looking good these last few weeks though...
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: circastes]
#19205039 - 11/29/13 02:17 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Smoking cannabis can put you in a state of panic. Find comfort in the knowledge that you can't die from it haha.
Sounds to me like you've either experienced a panic attack, or a little too much tobacco.
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: circastes]
#19209179 - 11/30/13 04:19 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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circastes said: Well don't feel too bad, schizophrenia has basically ruined my life. 7 years of crap and nothingness, and I'm still waiting for my old self to come back. Looking good these last few weeks though...
Do you believe schizophrenia is a divine spiritual gift?
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: SycoNautix]
#19209358 - 11/30/13 05:24 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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No lol...
I don't get that. I think most people think schizophrenia is just positive symptoms; delusions and hallucinations, but there are negative symptoms that crush your spirit completely; amotivation (basically leading to nearly catatonic states) and inability to experience pleasure, it's also extremely difficult to think, concentrate and remember.
Some gift...
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: circastes]
#19209462 - 11/30/13 05:54 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Interesting. You don't feel like a shaman at all?
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Re: weed made paranoid and sick [Re: SycoNautix]
#19209468 - 11/30/13 05:57 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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SycoNautix said: Interesting. You don't feel like a shaman at all?
Man if I was schizo a comment like that would set me off. You want schizophrenia then? Think it's all fun and games?
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I used to believe I was a shaman, and would go around telling people I had divine gifts. In hindsight this was mostly delusion. Shamanism is about healing and despite my best efforts I have been unable to heal a single person in my life.
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