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Thuglife
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Overcoming addiction
#19173982 - 11/22/13 08:10 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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So I am back. After a few years of experimenting with cannabis, shrooms, eventually leading to pills and cocaine, and finally IV heroin, I have made it out the other side.
This whole thing has been truly humbling. I remember I posted my first trip report on here back in 2010. Wow... how things have REALLY spiraled out of control since then.
That was when it was all still very innocent. Then once the percocets came into the picture, it was a wrap. The heroin just took it to a whole new level of insanity.
Several rehabs and life beating me down, I decided to use that desperation to my advantage.
I am now 60 days clean. I attend Narcotics Anonymous daily, I am starting my Masters Degree, I have amazing job opportunities, and not only that, I am extremely grateful and happy... for once in my life.
When i think back on my shroom experience, I really owe a lot to it. It really was trying to tell me a lot, but I just wasn't ready to deal with it. I had a lot more growing up to do... which is also what the shroom told me.
To this day, I feel as though I will one day eat some mushrooms again because even though i have sworn off drugs, I don't consider mushrooms a drug. They are tools to life. And to sparingly have a psychedelic experience actually does a lot of good.
I just wanted to touch base with the community again. I have been doing a lot of work on myself and self-identification. Understanding that you are alive and being grateful is the key to overcoming this battle with the devil. Believing in a higher power is key as well.
But i still think Jesus was a mushroom lol
Peace everyone
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Re: Overcoming addiction [Re: Thuglife]
#19180412 - 11/23/13 08:27 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Damn, you really ran down that road fast didn't you? Did you just do whatever came your way or what? I have been doing drugs for about 5 years now, first trip was probably almost 5 years ago.
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Re: Overcoming addiction [Re: Thuglife]
#19183912 - 11/24/13 06:19 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm really happy for you dude. I never tried any of the infamously addicting drugs like heroin because I knew I'd be a goner, but I have a nasty weed habit and have dabbled in enough other drugs to know some of the emotions involved. Glad everythings looking up, please don't stop now.
If you can pull it together I sure as hell can!
I mean that with no disrespect btw
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Thuglife
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Honestly, since I never hung out in high school and most of college, once i discovered drugs they completely took care of my social anxiety and I heard opiates just alleviate all worry and anxiety so I ACTIVELY sought it out. I SEARCHED for percocets because I knew they would do the trick. And once i found them it was love at first sight. I got a nasty pill habit and heroin was cheaper than pills so I just made the logical step to that.
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Re: Overcoming addiction [Re: jimboob]
#19477942 - 01/26/14 05:59 PM (10 years, 4 days ago) |
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jimboob said: I'm really happy for you dude. I never tried any of the infamously addicting drugs like heroin because I knew I'd be a goner, but I have a nasty weed habit and have dabbled in enough other drugs to know some of the emotions involved. Glad everythings looking up, please don't stop now.
If you can pull it together I sure as hell can!
I mean that with no disrespect btw
None taken bro. Heroin is too good. That's the problem. The transcendental level of RELAXATION, calmness, literally NO worry, no anxiety, confidence and energy, bliss, comforting feeling, loving embrace, and God-like embrace of its heavenly warmth is like nothing any human can ever experience EVER.
Once you do it, you will love it. Anyone would. It's not like other drugs that make you all fucked up and have no control. It allows you to have PERFECT control. No one can tell you are fucked up. You WANT to do things that you normally wouldn't. Like go to work, do school work, or do a challenging thing because it just makes you feel SO relaxed and comfortable in ANY situation and it gives you such motivation and happiness.
It lasts HOURS too. Especially to a new user.
These are all things that lure you in. You don't get withdrawals for MONTHS. You think "Wow, this spooky drug HEROIN that people told me to never do really isn't that bad at all! They lied to me about this like they lied to me about weed! This stuff is amazing! IT MAKES YOU WHO YOU ALWAYS WANTED TO BE"
Just so in control and calm.
I swear it was everything I always wanted.
Then one day you wake up and you are sick. And you don't even attribute it to the drugs. You think you just feel off. And you know what would take that discomfort away. It starts off as a slight anxiety that you just don't understand. Then the insomnia or restlessness in bed at night. You wake up in the middle of the night with ferocious muscle aches. And you don't get it. You don't know wtf is going on. So you do more. At that point, you are physically addicted.
I only sniffed it for most of my time using it. The psychological and physical addiction led me to steal from everyone I loved. Then once my girl left me because of it, I started shooting because I said what's the point? My heart was broken so much that I didn't care to get track marks on my arms. I had no one to impress anymore. No girlfriend meant I don't care about my arms looking shitty.
Rehab. Came out, 5 days later, shot up again. Went on another few months. I hit the point where i would shoot 4 bags at once and i wouldn't feel ANYTHING. That's how high my tolerance was. I went from sniffing half a bag to shooting 5 bags at a time mixed with cocaine in 1 year.
You need it to feel normal. You can't even eat or get out of bed. You need it to feel love in the world. It is hell.
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Re: Overcoming addiction [Re: jimboob]
#19477951 - 01/26/14 06:03 PM (10 years, 4 days ago) |
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jimboob said: I'm really happy for you dude. I never tried any of the infamously addicting drugs like heroin because I knew I'd be a goner, but I have a nasty weed habit and have dabbled in enough other drugs to know some of the emotions involved. Glad everythings looking up, please don't stop now.
If you can pull it together I sure as hell can!
I mean that with no disrespect btw
And as far as your weed habit. Honestly, if i had to pick one thing to be addicted to it would be weed lol. I see nothing wrong with smoking weed. I understand if you do it all the time it can have adverse effects. But if you don't have it it's not like you feel PHYSICALLY FUCKED! lol. But it deff can make you depressed and anxious.
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Re: Overcoming addiction [Re: Thuglife]
#19481375 - 01/27/14 01:30 PM (10 years, 3 days ago) |
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Hey man, congratulations on 60 days clean. I know from experience that kicking an opiate habit isn't a walk in the park. Keep up the good work and maintain your sobriety. It just takes time brotha! I too spiraled out of control and eventually found myself involved with IV heroin. Come this February I'll be 3 years clean from opiates! It's possible, just keep a positive outlook and mindset.
Best of luck!
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I've been clean for a month. First time in 5 years I've been clean
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Re: Overcoming addiction [Re: Endure]
#19490148 - 01/29/14 07:36 AM (10 years, 2 days ago) |
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After a few years of experimenting with cannabis, shrooms, eventually leading to pills and cocaine, and finally IV heroin
Umm... how and where is that a logical progression?
In my book at least, shrooms have nothing whatsoever to do with pills, cocaine and heroin. Could you explain a bit what happened back there? And BEFORE trying heroin, didn't you google and inform yourself about how these things tend to play out?
I don't mean to be insensitive or anything, I've never had any contact with heroin addicts in RL, so I don't know how these things even start. Especially in this information age, it seems surprising that people would actually start with it.
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For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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In my eexperience people are in denial over something so they want to waste there life away with these drugs while hoping someone interferes since they have no will power against there denial
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So were you in denial? Is that what you're saying?
Furthermore, were you in the kind of denial that shrooms DIDN'T help with? I still don't see how one makes the jump from shrooms to pills and heroin. Did you just keep dubious friends and company at that time, or decided for yourself to try them?
-------------------- Blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.
For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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