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seekeroftruth
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Have you successfully changed yourself for the better?
#19173049 - 11/21/13 11:17 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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During a very introspective Mescaline trip I came to the realization of several personality flaws and things about myself that I'd really like to change, but I don't even know where to start.
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eve69
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Re: Have you successfully changed yourself for the better? [Re: seekeroftruth]
#19173606 - 11/22/13 04:25 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Reinvented myself many times. I am almost 50 and happier now then ever before. Much of it has to do with your outlook. I have spent at least fifteen solid years in Eastern spiritual search for coming to understand thing in a way where I could function in day to day life. I never went to the East though I always believed that the teachings must work in the here and now. Often they didn't work, like when I was cooking under tremendous pressure. Eventually I changed my lifestyle and left the industrial kitchen and gave up hard drugs. Went back to light stuff like beer and weed, and spent a small amount of time in spiritual pursuit several times a week. engaged myself as a student again (in music), got over not having money
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The5thElement
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Re: Have you successfully changed yourself for the better? [Re: eve69]
#19174914 - 11/22/13 01:43 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm working on it, day by day... little steps at a time.
I'm much better now compared to the last 2 years of my life, physically and mentally.
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Have you successfully changed yourself for the better? [Re: The5thElement]
#19175486 - 11/22/13 04:19 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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For a while but then I kinda slipped back into old habits again. So I guess no. I just found that I felt the same no matter what, the things that really bother me deep down are always there. I can escape them in the short term but that certainly doesn't make me "better", just temporarily distracted.
I had a pretty strong experience with a hugh rush of realization, but that has only happened once in recent life, hedonistic and self-destructive urges are much more common.
What happened was I prayed and asked for help, and then suddenly I got a rush better than any drug (I was dopesick and took a gravity bong hit, so it was probably the drugs ). Sometimes I just get random little rushes where I will feel good for no reason, but this time I realized how important the people around me were and I really wanted to help whatever good force there is heal the ills of the planet. I'd say if you are ever really desperate to make a change give praying a try.
For some reason I can't honestly pray for help most of the time. I am too weirded out by the whole God thing and also I have this "bring it on motherfucker" attitude where I always want to see how bad things can get and how much I can handle. Now I feel like the world is an unmanageable clusterfuck and we just gotta do what we can to get by as individuals. I'm not so sure there is a "better".
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