|
Anonymous #1
|
Birthday tomorrow
#19156797 - 11/18/13 09:03 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
|
|
birthday's tomorrow. had a pretty shitty year. turning 19. got kicked out of college. well, flunked out actually. spend at least half of my paycheck on drugs, can't help it, they make me enjoy reality more than i do when sober. living in a shitty little apartment. moved out this past summer, parents said they couldn't look at me anymore. moved out a couple states west. still dont know anyone in this knew town. dont know where i see myself in 10 years, or even 5 years. maybe a junkie depending on how the year goes. cheers.
|
Giggle_Grower
A lil less noob each day



Registered: 04/07/10
Posts: 1,598
Loc: Shroomery
Last seen: 1 year, 5 months
|
|
I had a shitty year too. One best friend died and another committed sucide in front of me. Been through 3 cars. Lost my career, a company i was about take over tanked from owner embezelment. My dog has had a broken leg twice this year. Havent known a woman touch in over a year. Moved to the middle of nowhere where i dont know anyone and the people are all pricks, for a job that i lost cuz i refused to work thru my unpaid lunch. Cant afford my anxiety meds so i have daily panic attacks. Lost my last apt over my dog and cant get a new one cuz im going the motions at a temp job. Got kicked out of my storage unit by the local PD and am currently living in the back of my car in walmart parking lot. And i cant afford drugs so ive been dealing with it all sober.
|
Anonymous #2
|
|
Man! Sorry to hear what had happened to you guys. I think you can dial 211 or some toll free number and find free local shelter with food.
So I highly recommend to set your priorities. You're in desperate situations. Granted maybe your situations are not as lucky as some other peers. Anyway, get any job and have an income. Then work on pursuing your goals/dreams/career passions 100%. You don't have the time nor luxury for drugs - sorry to be blunt. But you're in control of your life 100% after certain age, and I guess for some it's 19. Only when you decided that you're 100% responsible of your life, you're still living in someone else's shadow and holding someone else or something else as the causes of your situation.
Focus on what you need to do! Spending half of your paycheck on drugs to escape reality is totally wrong!!! Wake up!
|
aysen
Good Ole Boy



Registered: 09/21/09
Posts: 1,870
Loc: On the right path
|
|
Quote:
Giggle_Grower said: I had a shitty year too. One best friend died and another committed sucide in front of me. Been through 3 cars. Lost my career, a company i was about take over tanked from owner embezelment. My dog has had a broken leg twice this year. Havent known a woman touch in over a year. Moved to the middle of nowhere where i dont know anyone and the people are all pricks, for a job that i lost cuz i refused to work thru my unpaid lunch. Cant afford my anxiety meds so i have daily panic attacks. Lost my last apt over my dog and cant get a new one cuz im going the motions at a temp job. Got kicked out of my storage unit by the local PD and am currently living in the back of my car in walmart parking lot. And i cant afford drugs so ive been dealing with it all sober.
|
Giggle_Grower
A lil less noob each day



Registered: 04/07/10
Posts: 1,598
Loc: Shroomery
Last seen: 1 year, 5 months
|
Re: Birthday tomorrow [Re: aysen] 1
#19157710 - 11/18/13 11:53 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
|
|
Quote:
aysen said: 
Not a chance in the world id do that to my family. Whats left of them anyway. It will change. Change is what got me here and change will get me out. Or God or karma or fate. Whatever you prefer to call it. Just got to find the oppurtunity.
...i fucking hate change ATM, but it is what it is. And sorry anon 1 not trying to thread jack.
Edited by Giggle_Grower (11/19/13 12:07 AM)
|
Cyclohexylamine
Turn on, Tune in, Drop out


Registered: 09/08/10
Posts: 14,327
|
|
This thread was moved from Sexuality and Relationships.
Reason: Not really S&R related.
|
Cyclohexylamine
Turn on, Tune in, Drop out



Registered: 09/08/10
Posts: 14,327
|
|
BTW Happy Birthday OP
-------------------- Yes this is tymo - I just changed my name Have you ever had a dream that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to awake from that dream? How would you know the difference between that dream world and the real world? There is NOTHING better than feeling that warm dissociative fuzz creeping up your body from IM K Something abut that anaesthetic rush... Qualitative Research Chemical Effects and Experiences The Wonderful World of Methoxetamine The 3-Meo-PCP Chapters, Part One
|
The5thElement
Smile Friends :)



Registered: 07/01/12
Posts: 4,675
Loc: Canada
Last seen: 7 years, 2 months
|
|
The best part of a tragic story is when the main character gets back up and completely remakes who they are, getting back up after being knocked down is fucking glorious and empowering and the best part is that it's not impossible to do. It's easy to just sit in the shit life brings you sometimes, easier then getting back up that's for sure.
Annon #1 and Giggle somethings in life can't be avoided, and some people get shit on more then others but every single person has the power to react the way they choose to what life throws at them, You choose what to do next. I wish you luck and I hope you choose to live your life gloriously.
|
Psychotria
Acaciagrapher


Registered: 05/28/13
Posts: 532
Last seen: 2 years, 5 months
|
|
happy birthday mate!
--------------------
|
Giggle_Grower
A lil less noob each day



Registered: 04/07/10
Posts: 1,598
Loc: Shroomery
Last seen: 1 year, 5 months
|
|
Yeah im dealing with it. I know i have to rise above it. Im still gonna bitch about it the whole way to the top.
|
The5thElement
Smile Friends :)



Registered: 07/01/12
Posts: 4,675
Loc: Canada
Last seen: 7 years, 2 months
|
|
Quote:
Giggle_Grower said: Yeah im dealing with it. I know i have to rise above it. Im still gonna bitch about it the whole way to the top.
Fair enough
|
|