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BWza
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wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while
#19125657 - 11/12/13 10:22 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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my girlfriend left me. she was my tripping buddy and now we go from speaking every single day to nothing at all now. i was absolutely in love with her too man. its crazy, no matter how perfect a situation may seem, theres a chance its not. i really thought we had an extremely strong bond considering our experiences together. but im sure i wont be tripping for a long while. and im hoping, im really hoping that she gives it some thought and comes back. she was my best friend, my partner in the spirit world as well as the love of my life. she was honestly too good to be true. i do love her. but im positive her love is gone. otherwise things wouldnt be this was. so you guys probably wont be hearing from me for a while. hope yall enjoy everything.
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funkerdslr
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: BWza]
#19125681 - 11/12/13 10:28 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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An old friend once told me "If you love someone let them go. If they stay away then they were never yours to begin with." during my first real breakup, those words are true OP.
Once your connection with them has faded, the draw of your deep mind will surely beckon again. Give it time.
-------------------- RIP Alice
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Edited by funkerdslr (11/12/13 10:29 AM)
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dutchfunkle
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: BWza]
#19125698 - 11/12/13 10:34 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Take this time to learn more about yourself and the direction you want to go in life. Whatever you do, be sure not to get stuck in the rut of depression, this cannot be an option if you want success in life! Learn from past mistakes and take everyday as an opportunity to learn new things and reinvent yourself. The path in life is a journey and we need to relish every moment as the future is naught, so be present in all that you do and fortune will come your way. Stay strong brother!
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: dutchfunkle]
#19125753 - 11/12/13 10:49 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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We've all been through it bud. Your first true love is always the hardest. Soon you will realize that it's necessary in life to have these experiences. It will make you a better stronger person. There are so many awesome girls out there. I know it's hard to believe now, but you are gonna be forced to meet some great people and gain more experiences that are good for you!
Love YOUR life brotha! keep on keepin on.
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BWza
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: toader123]
#19125829 - 11/12/13 11:08 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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thank you guys very much for all the kind words. i really needed it. im doing what i can to stay positive, she was my first true love. only girl ive ever drank the aya with which i blame for making me become so attached to her. but i am feeling better and yall are right. its time to focus on me, my music, and my path. im only 25 so i know this is the begining of finding myself and realizing that i dont need another to feel whole. i am whole. i am smart. i have my instruments. i should use this time to write a most romantic symphony and what is the romance without the tragedy to make it that much more powerful. thanks again.
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: BWza]
#19126096 - 11/12/13 12:27 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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You sound a lot like me. Me and my girlfriend of 5 years just broke up. She was the first person that I tried lsd with. It's extremely hard to let go but I think it will be for the better. Why does that mean you won't be able to trip again? Just wait a while until you aren't depressed about it. It could be just the experience you need to re assemble yourself as an individual. You are complete just by yourself.
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: searching]
#19126162 - 11/12/13 12:42 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Ive been there too bro. One week my wife was all.."ill love you forever and want to have your baby" then the next week.. "i dont love you anymore and dont want your baby"... after 7 years..
Point is... now im glad that fu king cunt bounced. I was better off
Things will get better.
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: thormaxim]
#19126387 - 11/12/13 01:32 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Fuck until you love again?
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: funkerdslr]
#19126449 - 11/12/13 01:44 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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funkerdslr said:"If you love someone let them go. If they stay away then they were never yours to begin with."
I first heard this on trailer park boys 
It is so true, you have to break contact with her and don't try to force anything. Chances are she found someone else, as gut wrenching as that is. Cut contact for a while and let time figure things out (the hardest part). Keep your dignity.
Best of luck OP
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: Pureless]
#19126465 - 11/12/13 01:47 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I agree, give it time. Unfortunately things don't always work out the way we want It sucks I know.
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: adastra80]
#19127084 - 11/12/13 03:50 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Don't act like a little girl, you were born without her, you will manage. She was your GF, not a wife with kids.
Be happy so now you have a chance to find a new, better girl.
-------------------- Formerly known as Psycho4ctive To Fathom Hell or Soar Angelic, Just Take a Pinch of Psychedelic
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BWza
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: Fungi]
#19130252 - 11/13/13 07:40 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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i really felt as though she was my dream girl/soul mate as corny as that sounds. i had many many trips where i visioned us growing old together and all this came out left feild. i didnt see it coming at all. she just fucked me 7 times on friday. she came a bunch. she said she loved me and now how many days later, she doesnt want me. she even had the audacity to call me yesterday and i told her to leave me alone and she said, is that really what you want, i replied, no i want you. i love you please dont leave me. she said ok, im sorry baby, i was just in a bad mood. well later on, about 3 hours later, i call her. she said im sorry for what i said earlier, i was really stoned and didnt think about what it was i was saying. she said i still stand by what i say. i dont want to be with you anymore. so for a whole 3 hours i felt as though the world was returned to the universe and my life was back on the right track. but when i called again she completely destroyed that and because she did that, i realized that shes not the one for me. shes been doing this to me for a while now. the last year she has left me, but the second i meet another girl, she comes running back and i always take her back. i just thought we had put a lot of stuff behind us but i guess she hasnt. shes the type to hold onto grudges. as imperfect as she is, she is still perfect in my eyes. she even broke up with me for a while a little while back and slept with one of my best friends while she was still fucking me. so all i gotta do is remember shit like that, it will make it easier the longer i think about it. she really wants that nice to me. all her kindness faded the first 2 months. im just real hurt right now and wish i could snap my fingers and get out of this.
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: searching]
#19130281 - 11/13/13 07:59 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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searching said: You sound a lot like me. Me and my girlfriend of 5 years just broke up. She was the first person that I tried lsd with. It's extremely hard to let go but I think it will be for the better. Why does that mean you won't be able to trip again? Just wait a while until you aren't depressed about it. It could be just the experience you need to re assemble yourself as an individual. You are complete just by yourself.
We only lose what we cling to, buddha said
sometimes giving something up is hard, but we have to realize we don't need it to begin with
everything we get is just a bonus
no coincidences
love is a connection of spirit and body, if spirit changes the connection does too
we are on level consciously with everyone we know, and when our consciousness changes who we know changes too
there will be some for us when it is right
women are predictable sometimes.. we must love in the moment but dont try to hold on to the love
peace
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: BWza]
#19130334 - 11/13/13 08:33 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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BWza said: i really felt as though she was my dream girl/soul mate as corny as that sounds. i had many many trips where i visioned us growing old together and all this came out left feild. i didnt see it coming at all. she just fucked me 7 times on friday. she came a bunch. she said she loved me and now how many days later, she doesnt want me. she even had the audacity to call me yesterday and i told her to leave me alone and she said, is that really what you want, i replied, no i want you. i love you please dont leave me. she said ok, im sorry baby, i was just in a bad mood. well later on, about 3 hours later, i call her. she said im sorry for what i said earlier, i was really stoned and didnt think about what it was i was saying. she said i still stand by what i say. i dont want to be with you anymore. so for a whole 3 hours i felt as though the world was returned to the universe and my life was back on the right track. but when i called again she completely destroyed that and because she did that, i realized that shes not the one for me. shes been doing this to me for a while now. the last year she has left me, but the second i meet another girl, she comes running back and i always take her back. i just thought we had put a lot of stuff behind us but i guess she hasnt. shes the type to hold onto grudges. as imperfect as she is, she is still perfect in my eyes. she even broke up with me for a while a little while back and slept with one of my best friends while she was still fucking me. so all i gotta do is remember shit like that, it will make it easier the longer i think about it. she really wants that nice to me. all her kindness faded the first 2 months. im just real hurt right now and wish i could snap my fingers and get out of this.
My friend, your GF has much bigger issues than you. Something is not right in her head...my advice...Distance yourself from her....don't answer the phone...no contact period. She needs this because she has no fucking idea what she wants right now....she needs to explore things because if she doesn't now....she will later on. My bet is.....that she will want you back after she looks at the greener grass. If you love her....which I thing you do....give her that space. If you meet someone in the mean time....good for you! Don't stop living. 
-------------------- Look Deep Into Nature,and Then You Will Understand Everything Better. Albert Einstein
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: Thayendanegea]
#19130375 - 11/13/13 08:53 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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^^ That's good advice.. As hard as it is to cut off all connection, you MUST do it. Trust me, you talking to her and telling her how much you love and miss her isn't gonna do shit. Your best bet is to go out and meet new people and better yourself. Exercise daily, eat well, get some new clothes, new haircut. Build some confidence! I promise in a month or two you will be happier than you have ever been.
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: toader123]
#19130766 - 11/13/13 11:11 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Time to think about yourself. If she doesn't come back it isn't the end of the world. When you start thinking it is too good to be true you get into a tough situation. Honestly tripping by yourself might work out some stuff. Instead of focusing on how much you love her you could focus on how much you love yourself instead. My first girlfriend I broke up with and went over the falls completely. A few months later I decided to take mushrooms and I had a amazing time. When I looked in the mirror it made me almost want to cry because of how much I loved myself. Just looking at my own reflection made me realize in that moment that I wasn't giving myself enough attention. Maybe give it a month and see how you feel. In my experience I did mushrooms and realized there was nothing to worry about because I wasn't the one that had the weight on my conscious of breaking up. She forced me to break up with her and she didn't know what she wanted. The way I looked at it was I got laid by a hot chick who liked me because I was a thinker rather than a talker.
-------------------- "As I walk on through troubled times my spirit gets so downhearted sometimes so where are the strong and who are the trusted? And where is the harmony? Sweet harmony. Cause each time I feel it slippin' away, just makes me wanna cry. What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?" - Nick Lowe "Psychedelic drugs don't change you - they don't change your character - unless you want to be changed. They enable change; they can't impose it...” - Sasha Shulgin
Edited by mindgnome (11/13/13 11:15 AM)
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BWza
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: mindgnome]
#19141022 - 11/15/13 01:47 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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i feel ya completely. its only been about a week now since she left. shes completely ignoring my everything. my phone calls, my messages on facebook and every other attempt i try. i call from random number and she hangs up in my face. but i know this is one of the thing that time has to heal. im coping now. its nuts how losing a g\f is a lot like someone close to you dying. i know ill be alright. i just thought she was "that one" ya know. but im sure ill have many more of those fore i am only 25. thank you guys for all the great advice. just knowing others deal with this and hearing what they did to cope has been helping me a lot to realize this is a normal part of life. and i better get used to it and find a better way to deal with it. i know i got to stop calling her. its only going to kill me more and make it take longer to get over. its just real hard to not want to talk to her.
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: BWza]
#19141338 - 11/15/13 03:29 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Your tripping made you think she was the one. It was just the universe bluffing you. It was just a big trip. When you meet the person who really is the one, you won't have to trip on ayahuasca to think she's the one, and you won't call her your "dream girl"..that's just deep down inside, liking the idea of someone.
-------------------- On the ground you lay, with your dogs you pray, at a neon hieroglyph sky you gaze Hugging your mind, praying to survive, feeling the love of the hieroglyphs in the sky We all need more love, and mainly less hate Hate is the blind that covers the heart's eye That makes the heart's eye cry Locked deep away in the skies of our minds It's all in the mind
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: MagicalOrangutan]
#19141391 - 11/15/13 03:40 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I recommend getting drunk. And then go to a place drunk females hang out. Then find another new one. I would rather have a hotter girl who just tolerates my tripping than a less hot trip buddy. Whether or not someone will trip with me is very low on list of things I look for. If she hates it or whatever that's a red flag but that's it..
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Re: wont be able to trip ever again. or atleast for a long while [Re: Yogi1]
#19141510 - 11/15/13 04:16 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yogi1 said: Fuck until you love again?
This is the best advice. Do it. A lot.
-------------------- PrimalSoup's Tea Tek
   "I always say the tea is like eating a burning tire covered in dog shit while someone steps on your nuts. Good luck!" "Hell, shrooms have blown up from under me and kicked my ass on 2 grams once." "I think ill eat some shrooms right about now, and ill continue to until it doesnt feel like the right thing to do."
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