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Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck 1
#19133546 - 11/13/13 09:45 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm a senior and this shit suckkkkks major dick. I am introverted and like to smoke a lot of pot and that is all I want to do. I want to chill out and fucking not do shit. Everyday I go to school go to work go to counseling go to community service and go to the shroomery. I am constantly stressed and am hating fucking life like this is some serious bs. I have a 3.7 unweighted GPA and a 1790 SAT and I am declaring myself as hispanic so I could get into any fucking state school but I don't want to. I don't want to party, I don't want to watch football like some assclown, I don't want to not party, I don't want to meet new people, I don't want to be alone... fuck god my mind is fucked. When I wake up I don't want to go to college, when I am at school I want to go to community college (but I don't because everyone that goes to my local CC is not... my type of person [all they do is rachet-ass shit {and I'm white and weird}]), when I am at work I want to go to a real college.
FUCKING GOD every thought I ever have is contradictory to the last one. I just want to honestly say fuck it, and fuck hot girls and give up on high school. I'm a prisoner to time and I don't like it. I had a mental breakdown at work on Monday, I had another smaller one at school tuesday... goddamn this is all so fucking stressful and I can't fucking deal with it anymore like I wish I could fast forward through college and just be fucking done. Fuck god I just fucking hate everything. Tomorrow morning I will wake up, look at this and be like "what in the actual fuck" but tomorrow night I will feel the exact same way. I have 3 AP essays due friday, work to attend, community service to do. I'm just so fucking lost and overwhelmed
fuck I'm sorry if this doesn't belong here I just need to post something somewhere so someone can tell me what to do. Honestly, I do not want to take charge of my life right now. I wish someone else would do it for me. I have been hard working since I have had to and I am fucking tired of it. 18 and ready to retire. FUCK college fuck it. But I still want to go because I want to meet people, but it seems like all anyone does is party. I hate parties. I hate social gatherings, I hate being social. I want a decent girl and I want ot dedicate my time to her and just be happy. But i am cursed with this fucking life. I hate this.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: Roflspammer]
#19133572 - 11/13/13 09:50 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Oh... and I have no other passion other than doing drugs 
I am: overwhelmed, lost, confused, unsatisfiable, lonely, tired, uncertain and going to bed
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: Roflspammer] 2
#19133580 - 11/13/13 09:52 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Sorry to hear about your current mindset. I would recommend you at least finish high school... if you don't your life will be severely limited with employment opportunities.
It sounds like you are having trouble growing up... I had trouble with that at one point, too.
It's really not that bad to grow up, once you know what you're doing.
I'd also recommend you stop smoking pot while in high school, that way you can graduate.
Weed will always be around for you to smoke once you graduate.
Get your priorities straight.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: Roflspammer] 3
#19133582 - 11/13/13 09:53 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Life is difficult. Just do what makes you happy. At least try out college for a semester, it's not going to be like you think it will. If you want to make it in this world, a college degree will help out immensely.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: lifeiswhatyoumake]
#19133592 - 11/13/13 09:55 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Dude I can't eat unless I smoke. I have no apetite and way 117 lbs at this point because I am that distressed. I cut back to weekends only now because I don't even have time to do what I enjoy. I hate how our society is centered around making money. Lame as fuck
straight A's the last 2 years. Its not even worth it. I am the furthest thing from fucking happy. Everything is such a struggle; even thinking just tears me apart
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: Roflspammer]
#19133601 - 11/13/13 09:58 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Roflspammer said: Dude I can't eat unless I smoke. I have no apetite and way 117 lbs at this point because I am that distressed. I cut back to weekends only now because I don't even have time to do what I enjoy. I hate how our society is centered around making money. Lame as fuck
I feel you. I, too, used to not be able to eat unless I was high on weed. I quit cold turkey for a while and had a pretty shitty 2 or 3 days after that. However, after those few days I started eating normally again.
And ya I agree... I don't like money. But it's the world we live in at this moment.
Have you talked to your parents about what's going to happen to your life after high school?
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: Roflspammer]
#19133614 - 11/13/13 10:01 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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relax dood, it's not the end of the world.. yet.. maybe a billions years from now or something 
anyway, chill out bro, do what you can right now, have a sit and think about what you really want to do. if this is too much for you there are always other alternatives. you have control of your life and no one is going to make you do anything you dont want to do, and if that is the case then i would take charge and pursue the things that make you happy.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: zZZz] 1
#19133641 - 11/13/13 10:07 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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who said going to college meant you had to party and watch football
jesus dude you're assuming there is nobody else out there like yourself 
a great part of college is realizing you aren't alone
also its easy as fuck to get into college.
why are you lying about your heritage to get in
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: zZZz]
#19133642 - 11/13/13 10:07 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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College is the biggest scam around. It's not what you know, it's who you know.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: dodgem]
#19133651 - 11/13/13 10:08 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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dodgem said: College is the biggest scam around. It's not what you know, it's who you know.
how is college a scam, thats childish nonsense
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: NWlight]
#19133680 - 11/13/13 10:17 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Pay $40,000-$120,000 for some kid that is 4 years older than you teach half of your classes to you. And the other half of your classes are taught by some one who doesn't give a shit. If 20% of your professors give a shit about teaching you are one lucking person. All the while 50% of your classes you HAVE to take are not in your major yet you still have to take them..
I then leave college with the same piece of paper as some turd who doesn't know shit.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: dodgem]
#19133681 - 11/13/13 10:18 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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you are a college graduate, I assume?
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: NWlight]
#19133711 - 11/13/13 10:24 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yes, and in grad school now getting paid to teach class I took 3 years ago. I am no where near qualified to teach this class, but I can read off a power point and answer some of the questions. So why not put me in front of a bunch of kids that are paying ~$3,000 over the course of 4 months for this class.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: dodgem] 1
#19133714 - 11/13/13 10:25 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don't understand how you are intelligent enough to be in grad school and yet you are that pessimistic about general education requirements.
don't you think a university has the responsibility to put out well-rounded minds?
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: NWlight]
#19133751 - 11/13/13 10:32 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Here's some suggestions:
Talk to a therapist, simply talking outloud about your problems seems to bring clarity and shed light on your problems.
Benzodiazepenes (mood stabilizers).
Finish high school and take a gap year, during this time you will find a part time job that is suitable for your basic needs. During your down time order lots of disassociatives, psychedelics, weed and potentiators, get absolutely loaded and explore the wilderness. I don't think you personally should use drugs for hedonistic purposes, instead focus on comming up with real world solutions with your 3.7 gpa.
Find people on the internet that you have things in common with that are also within a reasonable distance from you. Meet up but don't get killed by strange people, and explore the wilderness and partake on adventures.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: NWlight]
#19133756 - 11/13/13 10:33 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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General education requirements? I learned enough general education in junior high and high school to get by. Ancient chinese history, music theory, science fiction, social problems, rights and wrongs, intro into dramatic literature, intro into biblical studies.... these classes were definitely worth the $5,000 dollars per class I spent on them. (this is the first time I have actually looked at the gen ed classes I took in undergrad, can't believe I took all those worthless classes).
And no, the university has the responsibility to make money. If you think public schools give a shit about putting out well-rounded minds you are just wrong. Colleges are businesses first
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: dodgem] 1
#19133767 - 11/13/13 10:36 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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man how do you live life with that much angst 
5 grand a class? that is not relevant because you chose your school. but that's an obscene amount of money and clearly not a public school.
Why did you take gen ed classes you didnt care about then? There are hundreds upon hundreds of choices. Surely you could find some you found interesting.
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: Roflspammer] 2
#19133774 - 11/13/13 10:37 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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"wahh I have good grades and can gt into a good college but i dont want to have fun " Seriously bro?
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: volcomstoner] 1
#19133783 - 11/13/13 10:40 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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yeah i love these threads 
privileged people who don't even realize what an opportunity they've been given because they've never truly needed something and not gotten it
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Re: Fucking college fucking fuck fuck that fuck this fucking fuck shit fuck [Re: volcomstoner]
#19133791 - 11/13/13 10:43 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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volcomstoner said: "wahh I have good grades and can gt into a good college but i dont want to have fun " Seriously bro?
This! Get your shit together and stop being a whiny bitch. Certain aspects of college definitely suck but the benefits of being on your own outweigh most of the cons
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