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EternalCowabunga
Being of Great Significance



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You owe me one, Universe.
#19103287 - 11/07/13 10:34 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Come fly with me, come fly with me! To the edges of the Universe We’ll fly past the edge of time And unravel the mysteries of space Find new colours and bathe in new aromas and textures
When all was said and done, we ended up in the same place as before. It was an interesting experience, but it was not real. The only real thing that has ever happened is gone. But fuck, the words are coming out all wrong. I want to write something meaningful and profound so I can convince myself that life is meaningful and profound. But I was here before the Universe even began. I was at the very beginning, I must have been if I’m at the very end too…
And I know it is… and I know it’s not. But I really know it’s not. It’s not. And I know this because I don’t accept it. I don’t accept you, Universe. I don’t accept what is happening right now.
And I’m bored. I’m so fucking bored. Blah blah blah, sitting here typing away like it was actually fucking important to write something. Why do I write? To express. I want money for this. I want fame. I want happiness cause I gave you something Universe. I gave you my energy and my time to write this piece of shit.
Do you understand? You owe me for this one. I’m doing you a huge favour because you would not know how frustrated I am sometimes if I did not write this. You talking to me? You talking to me? Yeah I’m fucking talking to you.
You tell me that my purpose is to love and then you fuck my mind up by making me paranoid and defensive. Why are you trying to kill me, Universe? I’m not scared of you! I’m not scared at all! Come on! FUCKING COME ON!
I’m running out of breathe now, I want to shout at you and hurt you. Why would I say that? Why would I do that to you? Because I feel like I have been treated unfair. Why is that? Because I feel emotional and physical pain. Why is that? You and me are one so we did it together. So I can’t blame you. But if I can’t blame you and it’s both our faults, why not work it out together? Are we doing that? Ok, I’m taking responsibility now. I’m happy! I’m happy! I’m happy! I’m happy! Life is beautiful! There is no suffering! It’s all a game! And I’m winning!
I’m winning! I’m winning! I’m winning! I’m winning! I’m winning! I’m winning! I’m winning! I’m winning!
I need to go see a therapist. FUCK THOUGHTS. Nah, fuck that. Thoughts are nothing, don’t even bug me.
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Kickle
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That was tough for me to read but at the same time I appreciate the flowing rawness of it. I don't think the universe is going to pay up but you never know. I'm there too, although my paranoia has more masks I suspect.
-------------------- Why shouldn't the truth be stranger than fiction? Fiction, after all, has to make sense. -- Mark Twain
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Icelander
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Yeah something like that.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Cognitive_Shift
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Re: You owe me one, Universe. [Re: Icelander]
#19107926 - 11/08/13 09:36 PM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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The universe owes you nothing.
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EternalCowabunga
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I wrote this years ago, and I'm not even sure what the fuck I was talking about.
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EternalCowabunga
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The universe does not owe me anything.
The best thing I can do is work with the knowledge I have to live happily and healthily. I am extremely lucky to be born where I was, to have the supporting nurturing enviroment I had growing up, and very lucky in a lot of other ways.
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EternalCowabunga
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Instead of demanding things from the universe, be grateful for what you have.
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FishOilTheKid
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You might get slapped the fuck down.
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Ferdinando


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is a idiotic attempt at making a profound ultra-ultimate statement about the super-ultimate truth that even space is good?
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Eric573

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Re: You owe me one, Universe. [Re: Ferdinando]
#19108993 - 11/09/13 04:01 AM (10 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hey thanks for sharing. I was feeling like this yesterday. Life can sure get frustrating.
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