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Anonymous #1

Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex
    #19100319 - 11/07/13 12:36 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

She was from Sweden and her father was Irish and lived with his elderly parents. He was a security guard at a hospital or something…I can’t recall. He always wore black clothes and had theses really dark shades on, even though; it was raining and cloudy outside, the usual weather in British Isles. He was hefty and rough looking too, and smoked, a lot. He cycled his bike to and from work. Anyway this girl, my childhood friend, had blondish hair and a ridiculously mature body for a 12-13 year old. She was sweet talking and soft featured and butter couldn’t melt in her mouth. She used to love playing in the rat infested river near my house behind the factory, I don’t know why but I always thought she was a bit fucking crazy. She would sit in the water and even swim and didn’t care what people thought. I usually bought her sweets and drinks and we talked about teenage stuff and family problems. She came to Ireland every two years, her parents were divorced and I assume the mother won custody of the child and probably took half of the father’s wealth with her and moved to Sweden or something. I don’t fucking know, but this girl had some serious problems, daddy problems. I guess she was a lonely child and I pity her to some extent. She wanted a friend to talk with and vent her emotions etc. I am dark skinned (Arab Muslim, I am half Yemenis, half European). But my parents aren’t religious nor forced me to engage in anything religious, thankfully. I can hide my Muslim roots. I am very westernized.

One day I invited her to my house to watch TV and hang out around my room, which I shared with my three brothers. She got all moany and touchy all of a sudden and asked me inappropriate questions like “Do black guys really have big willies?” and I shrugged and ignored her. Then I remember her going into the bathroom for a while and came back out and barricaded my bedroom door with a chair and a few pillows. It got super fucking awkward and she told me she hadn’t kissed a boy and asked me if I kissed a girl or know how to and I said “No” and then she proposed we should learn together. I was so fucking nervous, but deep down very curious to see where this would eventually go. It started with a peck on the lips and gradually we kissed for longer and longer. I didn’t love her. I liked her as a friend, but like all of us, we were at that ‘curious/experimental stage’. She asked me if I had sex before and I replied “No” and she asked if I wanted to and I said “No” and she got a bit angry and I told her why I didn’t want to have sex with her. It didn’t feel right. I felt dirty and wondered what my mother would think if I brought this girl to my house and had sex under her nose. My mother was in the living room watching TV. We stopped kissing and talking for a while and just sat down in silence and watched TV. She asked me again why I didn’t want to have sex with her and accused me of thinking she was ugly, fat and unattractive. I tried to explain everything and told her she was pretty and all, but she didn’t listen and then out of nowhere she says “Do you think I am ugly?” and went hysterical and I told her to keep her fucking voice down and then she said “I’ll tell my fucking dad you had sex with me if you don’t have sex with me now. He will be pissed!” and then she pretended to fucking cry at that moment and made up a convincing story of how I manipulated her into having sex with me. I was like WTF! No fucking way. You can’t do that. Nobody will believe you. Then I thought for a moment of getting into a lot trouble with my parents and getting beaten by her dad if they believed her story. Think about it, who’d believe a Black looking guy like me over a sweet little innocent looking Scandinavian girl. I fucking pleaded with her that I wasn’t fucking ready and all that.
I forgot the rest but all I remember is being completely naked with her on the floor, giving her a rimjob and eating her pussy and biting her nipples, which she insisted. Then I had sex with her, awkwardly…very awkwardly…it was the worst experience of my life. She stroked my cock and played with it and commented how “Nice looking it is”…but she never sucked it.
I know this sounds strange or gay since you males would be like “Dude, you’re fucking fagget for not boning that wench with glee!” but you just don’t understand. I felt like an object, a sex slave, a fucking toy. We continued to do this for a week or so, in the bushes or wherever convenient like damn animals. We tried to do it at her house once, but her granny kept coming upstairs to check on us every 10mins. Her daddy never really liked me, always giving me the cold shoulder, but then again, he did that with everyone.
When she finally went back to Sweden, I felt very relieved for some reason and from that day on, whenever a white girl tried to kiss me or hit on me, I feel greatly repulsed and remember the time I was used like a sex toy and politely reject them. Now I can’t find any white girls attractive at all. People think I am gay because I’ve denied hot looking girls. I just don’t know why I feel this way…it’s so frustrating since I am surrounded by Europeans. I only find exotic foreign girls attractive like Filiponos, Spanish, Arabs, Blacks or anyone else who isn’t European. I am not racist…I’ve tried to find this girl on facebook but she is nowhere to be found and I found out yesterday that the house her granny use to live in is now owned by someone else, a young couple. It is as if this girl hadn’t existed at all…like some kind of nightmarish dream. I don’t understand. A few years ago, the girl did come back one time, but she was so different, slutty, gothic and rebellious, we were 15 at the time and she was smoking and basically trying to be the “Bad girl” to try and impress me, I assume. She was hanging with these five lads from up the road who did nothing but play football all day. From the corner of my eye, I could see her looking at me…I had a feeling she wanted to talk or something, but I ignored her and went home and that was the last time I ever saw her. Should I tell my psychiatrist about this?
I feel so frustrated, angry and lost as if my manhood, dignity and self-esteem had been stripped away. I don’t want my family to find out…I’ve only told a handful of friends. This makes me very sad.

For those of you don’t want to read this long emotional post…my childhood friend basically tricked me into having sex with her basically because I am black looking. She used me and I hate being used. I don’t think about sex all the time…I am an emotional person…I want to connect with people rather than bone every animated pulse out there. I don’t think I can ever have a relationship with a white girl…ever…it just won’t happen. I always find ways to drive them off or insult them in order to make them go away.


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Anonymous #2

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1] * 4
    #19101472 - 11/07/13 04:03 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

:whacker:


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Anonymous #1

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #2]
    #19101602 - 11/07/13 04:31 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

This is serious. I can't get a hard on for white girls anymore...that's why I am currently hunting Asians and Indians girls.


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Anonymous #2

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19101666 - 11/07/13 04:44 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Neither can I :nodofunderstanding:


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Anonymous #1

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #2]
    #19101720 - 11/07/13 04:56 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Sorry to hear that :hug:
I really want to talk with this girl and tell her how I feel about this...it's always at the back of my mind. I have so much to say


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Anonymous #3

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19101789 - 11/07/13 05:13 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Dude thats some good writing skillz.
Anyways yeah tell a therapist. The shroomery can't help much in these matters. But yeah thats a fucked up story.


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Anonymous #4

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19103933 - 11/08/13 03:19 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

actually Im not sure


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Anonymous #5

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #4]
    #19104199 - 11/08/13 07:09 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

that is a wonderful story and thank you for sharing.


Kind of different in a way, you would think that most guys would be all over a beautiful girl wanting to have sex with them.

My guess is that you have deep rooted sexual orientation issues and you are possibly a closet homosexual and are angry towards women.

DO you ever have any desires were you want to engage other men or animals in sex?

Do you fantasize about having sex with your mother or perhaps family pet?

When you masturbate, do you ever take objects such as a rolling pin and try and shove it in your rectum?

Do you fantasize having sex with your mother or father?


Have you ever masturbated into the goldfish tank?

Do you like to wear your mother's cloths or do you enjoy sniffing your father's dirty soiled underwear?




I am just trying to help go deeper into discussing your sexual problem.
Perhaps with a bit of digging we can get to the root of the problem.

Have you ever been ass fucked? :drysmash: If not, do you fantasize about it constantly??


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Anonymous #3

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #5] * 1
    #19104204 - 11/08/13 07:12 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

ignore number 5. that is super trolling! goddamn.
my jimmies are severly rustled:canthelpbutlaugh:


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Anonymous #6

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19104277 - 11/08/13 07:59 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

White chicks definitely feel more entitled it seems like. If she was cute I would look at it like I did her a favor and go about my day.


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Anonymous #7

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19104398 - 11/08/13 08:45 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

It sounds like you are a very sensitive person.  It would probably do you good to talk it out with someone.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #7]
    #19105262 - 11/08/13 11:53 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

White chicks definitely feel more entitled it seems like. If she was cute I would look at it like I did her a favor and go about my day.



It would have been perfectly okay, but she caught me at a bad moment and tricked and threatened me. I was very young. What the fuck was I meant to do or say? If I had more time to think about it, I would have had sex with her no doubt...but she caught me when I wasn't prepared, emotionally etc.

Quote:

It sounds like you are a very sensitive person.  It would probably do you good to talk it out with someone.



I am a very sensitive. Yes I have talked with a handful of people, but they brush it off as nothing

Quote:

that is a wonderful story and thank you for sharing.


Kind of different in a way, you would think that most guys would be all over a beautiful girl wanting to have sex with them.

My guess is that you have deep rooted sexual orientation issues and you are possibly a closet homosexual and are angry towards women.

DO you ever have any desires were you want to engage other men or animals in sex?

Do you fantasize about having sex with your mother or perhaps family pet?

When you masturbate, do you ever take objects such as a rolling pin and try and shove it in your rectum?

Do you fantasize having sex with your mother or father?


Have you ever masturbated into the goldfish tank?

Do you like to wear your mother's cloths or do you enjoy sniffing your father's dirty soiled underwear?




I am just trying to help go deeper into discussing your sexual problem.
Perhaps with a bit of digging we can get to the root of the problem.

Have you ever been ass fucked?  If not, do you fantasize about it constantly??



:awewtf:
To be honest, the only thing gay I have ever done in my life was showing my friends, both girls and boys, my big penis and comparing it with theirs. Does that count? I have homosexuals friends and they are the happiest people on earth, I envy them.


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Anonymous #6

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19105476 - 11/08/13 12:38 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

yeah dude. Well whatever you are into is no big deal as long as it isn't little kids. That does kind of suck that you were young. How young though? Because I was down for having sex in like seventh grade lol, but it sucked because I was only attracted to teachers haha.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #19105532 - 11/08/13 12:53 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

yeah dude. Well whatever you are into is no big deal as long as it isn't little kids. That does kind of suck that you were young. How young though? Because I was down for having sex in like seventh grade lol, but it sucked because I was only attracted to teachers haha.



I am not attracted to little kids in any way :shrug:. I am quite childish and playful and seem myself as a kid sometimes :lol:.
Even young teenage girls, 13 to 16, I am not attracted to at all, probably because they aren't mature and haven't fully developed yet. My friends love little girls, but I don't...they just don't possess what I am looking for in a woman. To be honest, I just like mature women who don't have annoying girly voices or boast about drinking and smoking weed, thinking they are cooler and more special than the next drunk teenage girl.


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Anonymous #2

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #19105584 - 11/08/13 01:02 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I have a fetish for wicker chairs. Well, the leg parts, but that should be obvious.


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Anonymous #6

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19105636 - 11/08/13 01:14 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

yeah definitely. I like my ladies with big booties. Sometimes I will be at the store and will think "I need to hit on this lady right now because her ass is huuuge" that actually happened today but it was at cvs so it probably wasn't a good time to do that.


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Anonymous #8

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #19105678 - 11/08/13 01:25 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

You should try living with the ability to decide peoples meanings because you so easily see which sction would lead to which reaction.. try being with basicly anyone and live with that guilt of basicly raping someone very you to try..


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Anonymous #1

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #8]
    #19105749 - 11/08/13 01:43 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

You should try living with the ability to decide peoples meanings because you so easily see which sction would lead to which reaction.. try being with basicly anyone and live with that guilt of basicly raping someone very you to try..



Huh?


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Anonymous #9

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #8] * 2
    #19106102 - 11/08/13 02:56 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #8 said:
You should try living with the ability to decide peoples meanings because you so easily see which sction would lead to which reaction.. try being with basicly anyone and live with that guilt of basicly raping someone very you to try..




This post has the kind of clarity that one could only expect from akira_akuma.


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Anonymous #10

Re: Childhood friend manipulated me into having sex [Re: Anonymous #9] * 1
    #19107145 - 11/08/13 06:48 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Damn man that' a messed up story.  She threatened you and used fear to control you and make you have sex with her.  I can see how this traumatized you.


BTW don't listen to the trolls.


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