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Anonymous #1

First day off
    #19099373 - 11/07/13 08:41 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I'm on my first day of recovery. I feel like I have a long way to go. I grew up in a addicted home. Beatings, and use was a everyday thing. When I was 5 the State came and took away my Sister, the only light I had in the World. Left me in that house to rot. She was disabled though. She had MD, and needed more care then I. At school I was an outcast of coarse. I would beat people up for making fun of others. That is something I admire about myself though. I was always fighting for the underdog. Things where never okay at home until my Dad went to rehab. A few times to get the job done right. My poor Mom tried and tried but could not win the battle.
Just as I graduated from high school. My sister died. It took mt breath out from under me. I went off the deep end into a swirl of depression and anger. Then 5 months later my Mom died. She couldn't live with the fact that me Sister wasn't on this earth anymore.
Things only got worse. My family's pretended I was dead too. So I moved on my own. At first I didn't get into much trouble.
Over the years I have become very addicted to stuff, and have tried to quit quite a few times. I like to believe that if Mom and my Sister where here I would be okay. I feel like they felt me behind.
And now I'm stuck in this horrid addiction. With no help.
I understand these first few days are the worse. BUT damn it I want my MOMMY.


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Re: First day off [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19099934 - 11/07/13 11:16 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I'm sorry bud. Loosing your mom is a tough one. I lost mine when I was 16. It was really tough. She got sick from immunizations from the gulf war. 10 years of utter hell till she passed away. I lost everything. You can't give up though. You gotta learn how to embrace it. Turn it into pride and confidence. I like to remember my mother before she got sick and do what would make her proud. It's the only healthy thing to do. It has taken 9 years to figure this out. Life is the perfect question. It is full of beauty and love. Also destruction and hate. We are lucky to experience such tragic life lessons. You wouldnt know what a good day was if ya didn't have a bad one. Find some passion and roll with it. You can do it. I was in the same headspace and dwelling doesn't help. You have the gift of a special life. Not some boring given to you life. But a life full of story and experiance. You can do it brother. Don't give up.


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