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I'm just a fucking robot
    #19068816 - 11/01/13 08:27 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

I always had this image in my head that life doesn't get boring until the age of 30.

Wrong.

I used to be so happy, social, loving, appreciating everything in the world.. I was always at events meeting new people, sharing thoughts and ideas. I don't know what I am now.

I feel blank, I work during the week and attend classes. My little free time I have I use to think about death, and what happens when I die. I sleep, and smoke marijauan everyday to help me eat and sleep, and just.. to feel content with being alive. I feel like im programmed to get up early, go to my classes, pound down an energy drink, work until late hours into the night, and repeat. then I get a day every here n there where I can do what I want and I pick to be alone by myself and sleep.

What the fuck is wrong with me, I want to feel alive again..

I was dating the love of my life for over 2 years and now I can't even hold a conversation with her, our relationship is coming to an end because I feel blank, and nothing she does or says makes me feel happy anymore.

Idk, Maybe drugs fucked me up. Not the drugs themselves, but them allowing me to realize things I might have been better not being opened up to. Being a sheep sounds ok right about now.. they seem oh so happy :/


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz] * 1
    #19069039 - 11/01/13 09:58 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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ShroomyBudz said:
Being a sheep sounds ok right about now.. they seem oh so happy :/





That's mostly an illusion, a front.  Everyone suffers man.

You need to break this cycle.  Do something different on your down time.  Join a club or something.  Get some time off and go on a trip with your girl.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: Sleepwalker]
    #19069187 - 11/01/13 10:35 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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ShroomyBudz said:
Being a sheep sounds ok right about now.. they seem oh so happy :/





That's mostly an illusion, a front.  Everyone suffers man.

You need to break this cycle.  Do something different on your down time.  Join a club or something.  Get some time off and go on a trip with your girl.




I guess it's true, everyone suffers in their own way. Hopefully with time, my mind, my body, and my soul will heal. I miss being the energetic bundle of good vibes!


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz]
    #19069232 - 11/01/13 10:45 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

Niacin.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: FishOilTheKid]
    #19069359 - 11/01/13 11:10 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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FishOilTheKid said:
Niacin.




Are you suggesting I intake more Niacin?


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz] * 1
    #19069361 - 11/01/13 11:10 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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ShroomyBudz said:
I always had this image in my head that life doesn't get boring until the age of 30.

Wrong.

I used to be so happy, social, loving, appreciating everything in the world.. I was always at events meeting new people, sharing thoughts and ideas. I don't know what I am now.

I feel blank, I work during the week and attend classes. My little free time I have I use to think about death, and what happens when I die. I sleep, and smoke marijauan everyday to help me eat and sleep, and just.. to feel content with being alive. I feel like im programmed to get up early, go to my classes, pound down an energy drink, work until late hours into the night, and repeat. then I get a day every here n there where I can do what I want and I pick to be alone by myself and sleep.

What the fuck is wrong with me, I want to feel alive again..

I was dating the love of my life for over 2 years and now I can't even hold a conversation with her, our relationship is coming to an end because I feel blank, and nothing she does or says makes me feel happy anymore.

Idk, Maybe drugs fucked me up. Not the drugs themselves, but them allowing me to realize things I might have been better not being opened up to. Being a sheep sounds ok right about now.. they seem oh so happy :/




stop smoking weed and jackin off,  report back in 2 weeks


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz]
    #19069362 - 11/01/13 11:10 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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ShroomyBudz said:
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FishOilTheKid said:
Niacin.




Are you suggesting I intake more Niacin?




I'm not too familiar with it.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz]
    #19069377 - 11/01/13 11:13 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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ShroomyBudz said:
Quote:

ShroomyBudz said:
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FishOilTheKid said:
Niacin.




Are you suggesting I intake more Niacin?




I'm not too familiar with it.




i agree with anon, quit smoking weed and doing drugs. stop smoking cigarettes also. your burnin out all your happy thought receptors.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: Endure]
    #19069409 - 11/01/13 11:20 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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Endure said:
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ShroomyBudz said:
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ShroomyBudz said:
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FishOilTheKid said:
Niacin.




Are you suggesting I intake more Niacin?




I'm not too familiar with it.




i agree with anon, quit smoking weed and doing drugs. stop smoking cigarettes also. your burnin out all your happy thought receptors.




I don't do drugs often anymore. I trip about once a month. Do you really think smoking weed is the cause? I'v found it's been nothing but  beneficial for me..


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz] * 1
    #19069450 - 11/01/13 11:34 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)






I don't do drugs often anymore. I trip about once a month. Do you really think smoking weed is the cause? I'v found it's been nothing but  beneficial for me..




i think you'd be suprised, right now it sounds like you've lost a 'set of feelings and thoughts' that everyone else has, feelings that produce  'warmth inside, like things are right', but this goes away when i smoke weed daily. my attention is focused on my night ritual of smokin weed. and then i feel like i didn't get as much done as i could of during the day. everything seems plain and dull. not even interested in talking to people/girls/guys


some common things people experience on weed: i notice a few things, i dont dream, i appreciate the small things a fuckload less, i appreciate things in general a fuckload less, i eat more (fastfood), i do alot less, i have a less energy, my vocabulary when talking to people is decreased, my eye contact is decreased, and i become Depersonalized, i dont have a great 'sense' of the moment and my own 'wealth' at all compared to other people who do/don't smoke weed. i become a pussy. i always think negative thoughts that are irrelevant, and i honestly wake up feelin 'cloudy' and that used to feel good but is now a total bummer. im taking quitting weed apon myself.

one similiar thing i think about is death, the universe, god, perhaps to much, it becomes depressing. im on youtube looking up 'god debates' with richard dawkins and christopher hitchens, even though i know the answer -.-, i won't know till i die!

thats just me, but this whole notion' that weed 'can't' be the problem, is gods gift, me and my friends love it, is just ignorant talk. a drug, is a drug. period, it has the ability to be used in ways it wasn't meant for, in my case, because i was depressed, i would smoke more, feel good temporarily and then need to smoke more because i felt 10x worse, live in this cycle of shame and drug abuse, along with real problems in life, your heading down a shitty path!


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: Endure]
    #19069567 - 11/01/13 11:57 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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Endure said:





I don't do drugs often anymore. I trip about once a month. Do you really think smoking weed is the cause? I'v found it's been nothing but  beneficial for me..




i think you'd be suprised, right now it sounds like you've lost a 'set of feelings and thoughts' that everyone else has, feelings that produce  'warmth inside, like things are right', but this goes away when i smoke weed daily. my attention is focused on my night ritual of smokin weed. and then i feel like i didn't get as much done as i could of during the day. everything seems plain and dull. not even interested in talking to people/girls/guys


some common things people experience on weed: i notice a few things, i dont dream, i appreciate the small things a fuckload less, i appreciate things in general a fuckload less, i eat more (fastfood), i do alot less, i have a less energy, my vocabulary when talking to people is decreased, my eye contact is decreased, and i become Depersonalized, i dont have a great 'sense' of the moment and my own 'wealth' at all compared to other people who do/don't smoke weed. i become a pussy. i always think negative thoughts that are irrelevant, and i honestly wake up feelin 'cloudy' and that used to feel good but is now a total bummer. im taking quitting weed apon myself.

one similiar thing i think about is death, the universe, god, perhaps to much, it becomes depressing. im on youtube looking up 'god debates' with richard dawkins and christopher hitchens, even though i know the answer -.-, i won't know till i die!

thats just me, but this whole notion' that weed 'can't' be the problem, is gods gift, me and my friends love it, is just ignorant talk. a drug, is a drug. period, it has the ability to be used in ways it wasn't meant for, in my case, because i was depressed, i would smoke more, feel good temporarily and then need to smoke more because i felt 10x worse, live in this cycle of shame and drug abuse, along with real problems in life, your heading down a shitty path!




I respect your opinion, and I see where your coming from.. But I don't think your hitting the nail on the head here.
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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz] * 1
    #19069769 - 11/01/13 12:43 PM (10 years, 2 months ago)

of course you don't:wink:

"smoke marijauan everyday to help me eat and sleep, and just.. to feel content with being alive."

thats what you just said, i personally think from what i've read, your wordchoice, sounds typical of someone in denial and your justifying your pot usage, and you would benefit from completely quitting weed entirely, but you won't see that until your not 2 feet in the ground but 10 feet in the ground.

weed shouldnt be helping you eat and sleep everyday, i already tried this, your doing more harm then good to your appetite and sleep in the long run, nowadays i believe weed is a truly a recreational drug and really shouldn't be used everyday. people who say theres nothing wrong with it have lowered there standards for living and and feelings for feeling alive, thats all, there living in a fog. everyone but YOU can see this, trust me.

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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: Endure]
    #19070211 - 11/01/13 02:31 PM (10 years, 2 months ago)

hey shroomybudz,

sounds like you're feeling a bit of existential angst man, I was in a similar position myself for most of this year. I know it's not practical for everyone, but what really seemed to help me was some traveling. I'd been on the road for a few weeks, still feeling pretty bummed out, until I met a handful of really great people, all just passing through the same town. We sat up all night talking, took a drunken late night bike ride through the city and got up to all kinds of madness. The key was that it was an opportunity to forget about what 'I should be doing', and just have fun. I woke up one day and had a sense of anticipation for the day ahead that i had not felt since school. It reminded me of how beautiful life can be. All the other issues I had been obsessing about weeks before paled into existence.

I know we all have obligations and taking time out can be difficult, but sometimes we need to remind ourselves that these obligations are nothing more than the manifestation of our own personal choices, and if your current circumstances are not reminding you of how beautiful life can be often enough, perhaps its time for a change, or at least a break.

Shake things up a bit, take a trip, try something new or different, or something that's been on your to do list for too long. You'll find that the best of these things are at the edge of your courage, but not past it  :psychsplit:

If you have some time you might also want to think about your purpose here on this planet, regardless of your spiritual belief. Here's a great video that introduced and inspired me to evolve my own cultural mythology. I hope you enjoy


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: Endure]
    #19072262 - 11/01/13 09:16 PM (10 years, 2 months ago)

I second what Endure is saying about weed potentially being the cause of, or at the very least exacerbating the problem.  I have similar issues with regards to smoking weed everyday.  I notice that I become less social and outgoing, and my mood in general becomes rather dull and grey, among other things. 

After a week or so of not smoking, I find I return to my usual expressive self.  However, I still love weed, and my housemates smoke weed nearly every day, so when I feel fine after a period of abstainance I tend to cycle back into a habit of smoking daily.  After five or so straight days, sure enough the feelings return.

I'd recommend not smoking weed for a month, at the very least about two weeks.  I think that you'll be suprised about how you feel after a few days.  And even if it doesn't aliviate your feelings, at least you'll get a tolerance break so the next time you smoke will be awesome. :grin:


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: Euphoric_rage]
    #19073823 - 11/02/13 07:06 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

OP, there's this book and audiobook called The Now Habit, by Neil Fiore. Read it or don't read it, depending on your time, or you may have time to listen to it on your player going to and from classes.

Basically it talks about the concept of Guilt Free Play, which is highly important to happiness. Schedule that shit. Massage with the lovely girl. Sleep over. Sports Sunday, whatever. When tired as fuck on a day off, don't just crash indoors. Go outside crash in a tent somewhere, backpacking in a forest. Actively relax, don't crash indoors.

Take your Omega 3, supplements, maybe try running 10-15 mins first thing in the morning, it goes a LONG way.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz]
    #19074772 - 11/02/13 11:47 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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ShroomyBudz said:
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FishOilTheKid said:
Niacin.




Are you suggesting I intake more Niacin?




Yep.

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Niacin (Nicotinic Acid)

Niacinamide (Nicotinamide)



Niacin functions in the body as a component in the coenzymes NAD and NADP which are involved in over 50 chemical reactions in the body.

Niacin containing enzymes play an important role in energy production; fat, cholesterol, and carbohydrate metabolism; and the manufacture of many body compounds including sex and adrenal hormones.

Niacin is essential in the production of energy.  It is also involved in blood sugar regulation, antioxidant mechanisms, and detoxification reactions.  Niacin supplementation exerts a favorable effect on several health conditions, especially high cholesterol levels.
http://www.orthomolecular.com/?ctr=supplement&act=show&id=15



 

I currently take 3000 to 9000mg everyday and I've noticed a difference in my overall vitality.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: FishOilTheKid]
    #19078595 - 11/03/13 01:36 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

Endure is right on.

Op just try giving up weed for a week or two (or 3 if you can)

It really can fog your light if your a habitual smoker.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz]
    #19078802 - 11/03/13 04:27 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

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ShroomyBudz said:
I always had this image in my head that life doesn't get boring until the age of 30.

Wrong.

I used to be so happy, social, loving, appreciating everything in the world.. I was always at events meeting new people, sharing thoughts and ideas. I don't know what I am now.

I feel blank, I work during the week and attend classes. My little free time I have I use to think about death, and what happens when I die. I sleep, and smoke marijauan everyday to help me eat and sleep, and just.. to feel content with being alive. I feel like im programmed to get up early, go to my classes, pound down an energy drink, work until late hours into the night, and repeat. then I get a day every here n there where I can do what I want and I pick to be alone by myself and sleep.

What the fuck is wrong with me, I want to feel alive again..

I was dating the love of my life for over 2 years and now I can't even hold a conversation with her, our relationship is coming to an end because I feel blank, and nothing she does or says makes me feel happy anymore.

Idk, Maybe drugs fucked me up. Not the drugs themselves, but them allowing me to realize things I might have been better not being opened up to. Being a sheep sounds ok right about now.. they seem oh so happy :/





I know....

For some people 9 to 5 jobs are not the way.
I work a boring ass but stressful job with responsibility. It lacks creativity. And when I don't get it, life turns to hell.

Come home, tired as shit. Try to sleep but can't because of stress.


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: Simms]
    #19119470 - 11/11/13 08:55 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

I appreciate everyones opinion, I took what everyone had to say into consideration. :thumbup:


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Re: I'm just a fucking robot [Re: ShroomyBudz]
    #19120135 - 11/11/13 11:42 AM (10 years, 2 months ago)

I've watched my life go that way when I was working full time for a year. My relationship seemed to lose it's worth, I lost interest and hobbies and when I had some spare time I couldn't even use it.

Stopped working, it took me half a year to recover and now I'm back.

I know the answer for me: stupid work depresses the shit out of me.

I started going to a university.


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