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Questions Questions many I ask
#19039392 - 10/27/13 05:03 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Projection? Sometimes I'm assuming everything or something is all a certain way, then I remember that I don't have a fecking clue how anything is, but there was this defined image that naturally occurred to in my mind and I bought it. Is this illusion projection? Is there more to it?
Transference? I have unconsciously sold myself out for women in the past, as in forget about anything I ever wanted to do and just assist them in their lives with what they were doing. Of course this made me very boring and unattractive to them so they are gone. So I was looking for a mothers love where it can never be found. This love is never found anywhere else, it only exists between a child and its own mother and then only for the fortunate. This is transference right?
I may remember the rest of my questions later.
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-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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That's an interesting thought, and yes it does sound like unconscious redirection of feelings (transference) which is quite common and can manifest itself in numerous ways depending on the initial relationship between the mother and child.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Withinity]
#19044560 - 10/28/13 07:09 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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So transference and projection are 2 very boring subjects that no one wants to talk about. How about repression? Would anyone talk to me about repression? I can get so very uninterested in women and sex right when they become available. Adrenaline is sometimes very unpleasant for me. I can't say anything good about myself. I really don't know what love is. These fun issues have something to do with repression right? The other thing. I know so much more than I can communicate. The keyboard or a conversation causes reduced intelligence for expression. Does anyone else here like talking psychology? Perhaps I'm writing unintelligible delusional rantings.
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Brother I'll talk to you about any of this stuff. IMO it's real life we're talking about. I can think of nothing I'm more interested in. You're one of my very favorite posters here btw. 
Also feel free to PM me anytime you want to chat.
I think the reason that you become uninterested in women when they become available may be that sex isn't really the main thing you're interested in and or you find that the work of becoming intimate with another living human fraught with conflict. It's easier to see them as sex objects and blow them off as uninteresting etc.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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The subjects you bring up are very interesting and real , these things I'm pretty sure most of us deal with whether we are conscious or it or not. We are all trying figure this stuff out but to do so we have to dive deeper into ourselves or conditioning as it were so perhaps this is related to the lack of response.
Wish i could offer you more but I'm a bit lost for words and thoughts at this point in time, i have had a lifetime of disinterest in sex when opportunities come to light and most of the time i become blinded and don't even notice them this could be due to self esteem issues when dealing with the opposite sex in 'that way'. I'm still trying to figure this stuff out myself.
I don't think your delusional you probably just hit some nerves.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Icelander]
#19049759 - 10/28/13 11:46 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Narcissus/Narcissism. Negative inner dialogue is some form of self obsession. Narcissus cannot respond to Echo. Does this relate to disinterest in sex? Narcissus is punished for his insensitivity. The tides of my emotions punish me for my insensitivity. Narcissus turns into a flower. Hell I want to be that flower. Uncomplicated, simple, attractive and completely innocent. But I am not that flower, I am still a creep.
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We are what we are made.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Icelander]
#19050509 - 10/29/13 05:45 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Archetypes I think are the comparison of human behaviour patterns to mythical objects and beings. When diseased there is not much else to do than contemplate how the pain affects being. The stories that enchant also affect the being. The disease state of depression affects being through and as a part of a process. Bringing melancholic culture into the disease experience enriches the affect. The difference can be informed suffering as opposed to lost and confused suffering. Though the intelligent diseased individual must still become lost and confused.
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My question is aways, to what end? I keep telling myself there is some relief at some stage in the process and a gradual bettering of conditions. Often I suspect that is bs.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Icelander]
#19068731 - 11/01/13 07:25 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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The motivation is from disease. The pain causes attention. The end that is what, awareness of the most petty illusions, that I might fall for a slightly more complex illusion. A sense of my place in the labyrinth. A lantern perhaps. I'm utterly lost in an infinite labyrinth but now I have this lantern.
The Maiden. Anticipation and certainty of natural life events from that place of non-experience. All these enthusiasms that remain about to be, they remain and remain about to be. A late bloomer may wonder about the 20 to 30 years of expectation and be solemn about beginning so late (20 years in a desert or drug abuse cycle, is there a difference? But this does not fit with the maiden). If I suddenly notice my potential at 37 years of age and then do what needs to be done to flesh out that potential, I played Maiden, what is my game now? This is a candle.
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disease is the end game and that bettering has to be an emotional thing. But will it be? In my case it seems to be a crap shoot. If my death happens in the right circumstances I might find myself in a good mood. Or not. That's the rub.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Icelander]
#19069217 - 11/01/13 10:42 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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something very much like that.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Icelander]
#19083860 - 11/04/13 01:24 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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All my obsession with psychology is displaced sexual frustration, and all the sexual frustration is displaced death anxiety. I wonder about food and drug cravings. DA is a cool subject around here, unlike archetypes and narcissism. We all inherit this dumb culture yet culture goes far beyond the capacity of my brain. I'm pissed that parents, preachers and teachers are so fucking dumb, that they withhold all the important information. Endlessly ranting about sports and jobs. I suspect everything flows, it does not stay death anxiety, it cycles through different areas of the map. Possibly DA is just one area of the labyrinth. But it is interesting to consider myth and DA. Odin's thirst for wisdom. Frigga spinning clouds. Thor's adventure hero antics, Sif making pleasure. The ascended masters have distractions too.
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Yeah I agree and would add it aways comes back to DA I think. Without psychological DA I think being a human would seriously rock. With it it seriously sucks.
Without DA the human world would be vastly different IMO.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Icelander]
#19088955 - 11/05/13 08:02 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I can't trust ascended masters that do not have distractions, if the speak to me then they are equally fallible. I've noticed that Jesus speaks to me, but God does not.
Denying that one has beliefs. Big error. One does not cease belief just because one decides that not believing in anything is a good idea and proceeds to state that one has no belief. There is also an emotion/feeling of non-belief. This may be confused with rejection on theologies and experience of a shrinking mind.
One believes that time is scarce. One has so much to do and there is no time for everything one wants to do. One believes this forum is a distraction/stagnation from doing important things like getting a life or living a life. One believes that all those years of staring into a bottle, beaten down and pussy whipped, controlled by the dumbest puppet master, distracted 100% of the time, just struggling to find a way out, this past is the fucking greatest tragedy in all of time and all of the multiverse.
Energy is a sadistic God. Where is ones energy? where does the energy go? how does one get some? why is energy never sustainable? How dare energy completely vanish leaving one to crawl home, to lay down and wish that one was dead, to seek healing from mother internet, to pray and read and to thirst and crave sickening habits. Pure creative genius trapped, incased, buried alive, starving, lonely, suffocating and masturbating. One did not even have the energy to get angry, to hate or even destroy. The utter repression of ones narcissism, violence and anger is simple minded and completely unnecessary. Perhaps people should stop knocking the high science of psychology, and humbly accept where we are at.
How to remain focussed. Can spend 1 hr a day on computer games. Struggling to spend a few minutes at ones alter, dishes and washing clothes steal so much time, it takes so long to achieve anything. Getting exercise can leave one wiped out, not pumped up. The energy is just not there.
The problem is not the problem, ones attitude about the problem is the problem - true or false? What the fuck is an attitude? Can an attitude be changed? Perhaps one is pretty much stuck with ones attitude. Perhaps an attitude changes with the tides of life.
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The problem is not the problem, ones attitude about the problem is the problem - true or false? What the fuck is an attitude? Can an attitude be changed? Perhaps one is pretty much stuck with ones attitude. Perhaps an attitude changes with the tides of life
All this.
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Re: Questions Questions many I ask [Re: Icelander]
#19089093 - 11/05/13 08:55 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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There is nothing like having a good old talk to myself.
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I just wish I could stop sometimes.
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