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hah! (the poor mother )
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Rahz
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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
#19027460 - 10/24/13 06:48 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don't cry much but about 6 weeks after I started meditating I went through a period where I cried a lot. Lasted about a month or so. It felt like there was a backlog of shit I needed to deal with in that way. Haven't cried much since.
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Repertoire89
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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
#19029128 - 10/25/13 12:17 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Haven't cried in a long time
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cez

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What's a long time?
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Repertoire89
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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
#19029196 - 10/25/13 12:33 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Eh, years I don't know how many. Got to the emotional point where one should probably cry but nothing comes out you know
Probably have to get a horrible injury to cry at this point
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cez

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How would you define that emotional point? I'm just curious..
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Repertoire89
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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
#19029238 - 10/25/13 12:52 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Past the point where I would have cried years past, some time ago the physical reaction just stopped
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Rool Kat
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I had two cats, both of whom were feral before they adopted me, and I loved the both deeply.
Felix, a small, regular grey, neutered male stripped tabby joined me in June, '79, 6 weeks after I moved into my then new home in a forest outside Annapolis. He was only 6 months old and had been abandoned by his previous owners when they split and moved away.
Spike, an impressively large, muscular, intact feral Tom that the vet swore was at least 10, was solid red with only a white ring near the end of his tail, arrived in March, '81. Alas, his nuts were the price of admission to the house, but after 6 months, he never noticed the loss.
Spike became an insulin-dependent diabetic when he was (est) 18, but was a real trooper about getting his daily insulin shot. Unfortunately, by the time he was (est) 23-1/2, neuropathy from his diabetes got the best of him and he lost the ability to move his bowels.
He was a character of such dignity that the only alternative, daily enemas, was unacceptable and I had our vet come out to the house and give him the final gift I had; death and an end to suffering. I held him while the vet gave him that shot.
Willie Nelson described it best in his song, "Time of the Preacher." I screamed like a panther, I cried like a baby in the middle of the night! It's probably the most painful memory I have.
Less than a year later, Felix' liver failed and he suddenly became unable to eat. He was literally starving, but when I put food down for him, he'd run to it only to be nauseated by the smell when he got close. After he was diagnosed as helpless, I called the vet again and held him for his final gift.
I cried for Felix too, and I probably shed a tear for my mom, and maybe for my sister, but I haven't cried since even though I ofter tear-up over meaningless but highly emotionally-charged scenes on the tube or the big screen.
I know, CSB.
But on topic, anyway.
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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Rool Kat]
#19032545 - 10/25/13 06:53 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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but I haven't cried since even though I ofter tear-up over meaningless but highly emotionally-charged scenes on the tube or the big screen.
Same here. I find this very strange.
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Rool Kat
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Quote:
Icelander said: but I haven't cried since even though I ofter tear-up over meaningless but highly emotionally-charged scenes on the tube or the big screen.
Same here. I find this very strange.
Yep. That's always my reaction as well. Strange indeed!
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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Rool Kat]
#19044028 - 10/28/13 02:20 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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i just dont...
i was raised in a family that represses emotions more often than not. last time i cried was in highschool after my first girlfriend effectively told me we were breaking up on phone. it was a really fucking intense one, and it felt literally like a spill of emotion, a spill allowed for by the tear of the immediate trauma.
but yeah, before that I prob havent cried since the age 10 or 11. i wish to open up emotionally to the point where i can cry naturally. i guess i'll consider it a goal? by that time ill certainly have overcome a lot of fear and have dealt with a lot of emotions i have neglected to as of now. i sort of see my lack of crying as a manifestation of my emotional being/heart not working properly/naturally, due to my emotional repressed-ness.
its funny that while i have trouble dealing with emotions, i experience them ever so intensely. i've realized how highly sensitive of a being i am a while ago, even though its so deeply buried
Edited by krishh (10/28/13 02:28 AM)
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cez

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Re: Do you cry? [Re: krishh]
#19045509 - 10/28/13 10:55 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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How do you handle your emotions if you have trouble expressing them?
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TheHerbalColorado
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Quote:
Repertoire89 said: ... some time ago the physical reaction just stopped
Yo first post.
Anyway, I haven't cried in years and I find it quite troubling, considering the immense amounts of shit (not to be self pitying, and I'm not trying to get pity from anyone else) 2013 has brought me. Burying two relatives, having a close friend commit suicide, being arrested twice and going to jail should bring someone to tears at some point in my opinion, but for me it just won't. My emotions are processed on such a mental level it's almost like I don't feel them as deeply as I should.
I actually get jealous of people who are able to cry, especially when my friend took his own life I just wished I could express on that same physical level as they were. I was almost angry with my good good friends because I felt like people thought I was some kind of cold bastard for not being able to shed a tear for Nikita, all the while I was envious of them for their expression.
It's tough, and I really hope I'll be able to experience crying again someday. Maybe through meditation I can have some kind of emotional opening, but for now my mind state just tells me to acknowledge the emotion and move on, doing what needs to be done.
To those who are able to cry, never be ashamed of it or think it makes you a lesser person. I'm studying what it means to be a human right now by examining some of the great books. Even Odysseus cries several times on his journey home and it makes me wonder what circumstances would have to be brought about that would make me shed tears.
Peace
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