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Anonymous #1
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Lied about heroin
#19042865 - 10/27/13 09:29 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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My girl was in my bedroom when I didn't think she'd end up in there. She went over to check out this cool plant I have and see's my big glob of black tar on a mirror.
She inspects it closely, and the cocaine thats near it on the mirror.(while I'm internally going oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck) she doesn't care about coke though
After she plays with it since its all goopy she finally asks "is that hash oil?" And I just lied to her face like an asshole and said yes.
I did this because it's a new relationship an I'm scared to tell her that I have a problem with H. I'm embarrassed of my problem. However I really really like being with her.
I know the only solution is to tell the truth. I'm just venting and looking for advice I guess
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Anonymous #2
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Get it out there quick buddy. The longer you wait the worse it will most likely be. Get some rehab in if you have a problem and if she is worth it she'll stick around to help you out. Hope it all works out.
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Anonymous #3
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Tell her the truth don't be a secret keeping douchebag
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Anonymous #1
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Anonymous #3 said: Tell her the truth don't be a secret keeping douchebag
Thanks, honestly.
I want to. She can be my heroine
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Anonymous #4
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Yah man dont hide it get it out in the open.
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Anonymous #5
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If you actually have a problem with it, she's going to find out sooner or later anyways.
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Anonymous #3
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Secrets destroy
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Anonymous #6
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Seriously you NEED to tell her ASAP. I started to lie to my now wife when I was use Ketamine and Methoxetamine everyday. With MXE I use to try get in a hole between the time when I got home to when she got home. When I was still fucked I would just say I got really stoned (even though I was struggling to put words together).
It took a long time to get the trust back as while I was only lying about drugs I think it gives them other doubts like "well he lies about that, what about cheating". I would never as when I out without her Im usually too busy getting mashed to even think about other women but once you start lying about one thing, it destroys the trust.
We are fine now but I have told her about some it, not yet about the 100g+ of MXE I had to flush to stop taking it (never touched it since and never would, man that stuff fucked me up!)
Edited by Anonymous (10/28/13 04:29 AM)
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Anonymous #7
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Tell her immediately, keeping a secret like this is not fair on her in the slightest. She deserves to know if she's getting into a relationship with a heroin addict and if she feels the same way about you as you do her, she'll be there for you to support you while you quit. If you really care about her at all, do something about it. Decide to stop using and tell her the truth. She'll be disappointed that you lied, but glad that you're doing something about it.
The longer you keep the truth from her, and the longer you go without dealing with your habit, the worse it will be when you tell her, or when she finds out. God forbid, she decides to try some of your "hash oil" and gets a taste for it herself.
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Anonymous #8
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I'd try and quit.
Unless of course, "Hey baby, I do heroin" is a pickup line that's worked for you in the past.
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Anonymous #1
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Anonymous #7 said: Tell her immediately, keeping a secret like this is not fair on her in the slightest. She deserves to know if she's getting into a relationship with a heroin addict and if she feels the same way about you as you do her, she'll be there for you to support you while you quit. If you really care about her at all, do something about it. Decide to stop using and tell her the truth. She'll be disappointed that you lied, but glad that you're doing something about it.
The longer you keep the truth from her, and the longer you go without dealing with your habit, the worse it will be when you tell her, or when she finds out. God forbid, she decides to try some of your "hash oil" and gets a taste for it herself.
I would really like to quit for her. It's too lame to be like "oh i can't hang out today. Withdrawals."
Is there any "good way" to tell her this?
I just hope I can do it. Last time I got into my first week of being clean I got super depressed.
Was totally over the worst of the physical symptoms. But just felt I needed it to be happy.
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Anonymous #9
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She is going to think it is hash oil and smoke it all and OD.
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Anonymous #1
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Anonymous #9 said: She is going to think it is hash oil and smoke it all and OD.

ha, I wonder if she even believed me that it was hash.
Luckily she's never alone in my house so she'd have no time to just decide to smoke it
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Anonymous #9
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I learned that one from pulp fiction.
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Anonymous #10
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Just tell her. You'll save everyone a lot of pain
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Anonymous #11
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I was shooting heroin and lying about it to my girl. Multiple times I relapsed and tried to hide it but it never worked. It always just caused a rift between us and more distrust.
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Anonymous #12
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A woman that isn't worth lying to is a woman you don't deserve to have.
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Anonymous #2
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Anonymous #12 said: A woman that isn't worth lying to is a woman you don't deserve to have.
Oh snap, I love this.
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Anonymous #13
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Anonymous #12 said: A woman that isn't worth lying to is a woman you don't deserve to have.
You sound like someone who doesn't get laid often
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Anonymous #14
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Anonymous #12 said: A woman that isn't worth lying to is a woman you don't deserve to have.
You sound like someone who doesn't get laid often
And you sound like a neck beard basement-dwelling beta male. Perhaps untrustworthy homosexual.
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Anonymous #13
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Anonymous #12 said: A woman that isn't worth lying to is a woman you don't deserve to have.
You sound like someone who doesn't get laid often
And you sound like a neck beard basement-dwelling beta male. Perhaps untrustworthy homosexual.
LOL beta male, okay mister sensitive, don't have to get butthurt and project yourself now
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Anonymous #15
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Ok I'll admit I didn't read every post here, but.......
how in the hell do you, as a legitimate dopefiend, honestly expect to keep a regular dope habit from somebody you're in a relationship with? (unless you're just a chipper or something, idk). i've been through years of heroin addiction, and when you're in that state, the only "proper" partner for you is another junkie, because no normal rational person would put up with that shit. how would you explain being dopesick to her? the nodding out? trust me, even though you don't think it is, it is SUPER FUCKING OBVIOUS to regular people when you are a junkie, even though it feels normal to you, it really stands out. if she's spent any serious amount of time with you already, i'm surprised she hasn't noticed something is up. we junkies operate on a whole different frequency...........
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Anonymous #1
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Anonymous #15 said: Ok I'll admit I didn't read every post here, but.......
how in the hell do you, as a legitimate dopefiend, honestly expect to keep a regular dope habit from somebody you're in a relationship with? (unless you're just a chipper or something, idk). i've been through years of heroin addiction, and when you're in that state, the only "proper" partner for you is another junkie, because no normal rational person would put up with that shit. how would you explain being dopesick to her? the nodding out? trust me, even though you don't think it is, it is SUPER FUCKING OBVIOUS to regular people when you are a junkie, even though it feels normal to you, it really stands out. if she's spent any serious amount of time with you already, i'm surprised she hasn't noticed something is up. we junkies operate on a whole different frequency...........
you make some good points.
I'm worried she does know something is up.
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Anonymous #15
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off-topic a little bit, but on the subject of two dopefiends in a relationship together........
my bf and i would have the most HORRID fights over who got to do more dope that day, and we were so paranoid about it we were always fighting accusing the other person of doing drugs behind the other person's back (not because we were mad about them doing drugs, we were mad that the other person was doing drugs alone and NOT SHARING everything 50/50 lol, we were each so drug-hungry!!) i really don't miss those arguments AT ALL. you'd do well to cut that shit out & get with a non-opiate using girl (but i know that is easier said than done, it literally took us about 2 years to get "back to normal" after quitting the junkie lifestyle, and not like our first few tries were successful, it takes a while to "get it right")......dopefiend relationship problems are the worst
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Anonymous #16
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Damn, makes me feel totally thankful that I've never seen any heroin, nor ever met any addicts to get fucked up ideas about trying it.
OP, I don't know if you should tell her or not, and if you tell her I don't know if now is the best time or gradually after she knows you better. In any case I hope you kick the habit and find more positive things to share with this girl.
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Anonymous #16 said: Damn, makes me feel totally thankful that I've never seen any heroin, nor ever met any addicts to get fucked up ideas about trying it.
OP, I don't know if you should tell her or not, and if you tell her I don't know if now is the best time or gradually after she knows you better. In any case I hope you kick the habit and find more positive things to share with this girl.
Knowing a few heroin addicts has had the opposite effect on me. Makes me never want to touch the stuff.
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Anonymous #1
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Anonymous #16 said: Damn, makes me feel totally thankful that I've never seen any heroin, nor ever met any addicts to get fucked up ideas about trying it.
OP, I don't know if you should tell her or not, and if you tell her I don't know if now is the best time or gradually after she knows you better. In any case I hope you kick the habit and find more positive things to share with this girl.
Knowing a few heroin addicts has had the opposite effect on me. Makes me never want to touch the stuff.
Yeah let me just say, NEVER get started. 
It literally grabs a hold of me. 'IT' has a personality
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Anonymous #16
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Anonymous #16 said: Damn, makes me feel totally thankful that I've never seen any heroin, nor ever met any addicts to get fucked up ideas about trying it.
OP, I don't know if you should tell her or not, and if you tell her I don't know if now is the best time or gradually after she knows you better. In any case I hope you kick the habit and find more positive things to share with this girl.
Knowing a few heroin addicts has had the opposite effect on me. Makes me never want to touch the stuff.
Knowing some heroin users/addicts gives one SOME chances of trying it out. Depends on the addicts.
Knowing none at all leaves it at 0% chances, which is probably best, especially when young and clueless. Glad I knew none growing up.
Good vibes OP, get your head in order. Please remember there's things you can try, that might offer genuine help. See peyote sweat lodge, ayahuasca ceremony, ibogaine. Google that stuff and travel and DO IT, don't just stay home hoping and kidding yourself, sending your funds to the same ol' dealer.
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Anonymous #17
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im so glad im done with heroin for the most part
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Anonymous #1
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Yeah yeah I would love to get my hands on some ibogaine.
I could save some money and go to an ibogaine clinic in mexico
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Anonymous #17
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dude.. seriously just tough it out...
went cold turkey and now im 73 days clean
cravings are almost gone
no desire to really bring myself back to that life
seriously just try it
60 days is when the cravings and feelings of need go away IME
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Anonymous #17 said: dude.. seriously just tough it out...
went cold turkey and now im 73 days clean
cravings are almost gone
no desire to really bring myself back to that life
seriously just try it
60 days is when the cravings and feelings of need go away IME
I've done week or 2 long breaks recently. Its easy enough to get through the physical withdrawals.
What got me was the depression afterward. I have a history with depression
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Anonymous #17
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so do i, and you get very depressed
do you smoke weed?
smoking weed and keeping myself really busy helped a lot
it was terrible sometimes tho
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Anonymous #1
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Anonymous #17 said: so do i, and you get very depressed
do you smoke weed?
smoking weed and keeping myself really busy helped a lot
it was terrible sometimes tho
Yeah, I was using weed pretty heavily when i was trying to quit.
I have some kratom laying around I could try too, if it gets too bad.
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Anonymous #1
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OH! I have access to suboxone. duhhh
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Anonymous #16
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Anonymous #17 said: dude.. seriously just tough it out...
went cold turkey and now im 73 days clean
cravings are almost gone
no desire to really bring myself back to that life
seriously just try it
60 days is when the cravings and feelings of need go away IME
I've done week or 2 long breaks recently. Its easy enough to get through the physical withdrawals.
What got me was the depression afterward. I have a history with depression
Yea dude, that's why you use the wisdom / medicine plants. Save up the cash, resolve to show up and take that stuff. I'd seriously try with aya first, or even a good peyote sweat lodge might go a long way. Ibogaine is quite expensive especially in a clinic. Also much more dangerous than Aya as far as I know. Do your research, that's free.
The cheapo fast solutions you'll get from pharma pills are just that, cheap, not real solutions. Show up for real plant medicine and you're much more likely to get real help. It's on you, do your own research.
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Anonymous #17
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Anonymous #1 said: OH! I have access to suboxone. duhhh
i wouldnt go down that road personally
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Anonymous #18
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Seriously I just gotta say fuck dope. It ruined the relationship of me and my bestie since kindergarten. I fucking miss that kid but honestly I can't put myself in that position anymore.
I sincerely hope you kick the junk man. I've never seen anything sink its teeth into somebody like a healthy dope habit.
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Anonymous #19
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I didnt read any of the above posts, but if you get HER involved in YOUR habit - I'll be disappointed. Its my opinion, but if someone wants to RUIN their life with herion, they should be the ones to figure it out, not have another person give them that opportunity.
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Anonymous #16
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Anonymous #1 said: OH! I have access to suboxone. duhhh
Are you for real dude? 
Fucking save up, get organized, get traveling and get to some proper medicine, how hard can it be?
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Anonymous #20
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She'll probably end up leaving with half your shit eventually anyway 
If you really want to stay with her, just go through the dope sick and be done with it. If she notices your WD's just say its from a nasty vicodin habit or something.
IME people tend to demonize those unfortunate enough to fall victim to heroin, without really understanding it.
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