TRIP LOG 10/25/2013
3:45pm(approx.): 420mg DXM consumed
Thoughts before trip-- scared to trip too hard because anxiety from roommates or other people being around. Want to take higher dosage, maybe take a little more in a while but not sure that's a great idea. Hoping to clear my thoughts out and find a better perspective and direction in life, just understand things again from a higher consciousness and then be able to retain the wisdom when sober and apply it and feel a bit reinvigorated. If nothing else I'll just have a good time trying to play cards online or do anything for that matter. well pre-trip thoughts are lame, enough of this shit.
Oh just remembered, drunk a bunch of green tea before consumption, maybe that will potentiate it...doubtful though. It hasn't kickedin yet but i feel like this is going to be a good smooth trip, cuz it feels like nothing at all is going to happen and it's a dud. In my experiencethose are the best trips. Going to write down questions to ponder:
The universe..how do i feel about time Getting old Death How do I feel like my life is best lived, How should i change my life and who i am People I love illusion Smoking $500 of crack and watching cars go by to enhance the trip
While doing this i took a piss and i normally don't flush becuz i consume a lot of liquids and piss a lot and want to conserve water, but i was like..what if i start tripping any second n hafta throw up then my throw up may splash pee all over me or something, have to be prepared.
Mathematics The code..atomic level..molecular..cellular.. Be compassionate to all others, they are programmed to be how they are. Be understanding and have sympathy for those who do evil because they are incapable of feeling selfless love, one of the world's greatest joys. Love yourself, who you are, everything about you Why do i feel like i am better than everyone else
Also while typing this i am getting a crazy niacin flush from taking niacin before the dxm hahaha, wack.
4:52pm: niacin flush irritating the fuck out of me. 5:08pm: i feel it startin to kickin now, hopefully it'll wait til jae gets back but from experience once u start to feel it it isn't long after that you're tripping balls. Gonna try to play some yahoo hearts and keep my mind steady. 5:14pm: this shit is really comin on hard, i don't have much time left, trying to type and talk to people n whatever while still having the dexterity and ability to type or articulate. Was really impressed with my ability to condure up the word dexterity. 5:19pm:becoming very hard to breathe, feel like if i got up ima start the trip hardcore, here it comes, going to go outside...the throwing up is ocming. dam dawg 5:24pm: Okay threw up, feel sober now, might take some more dxm. just had a cool dxm scalp itch session, felt good. 5:29pm: due to the fact I am feeling relatively sober n like i culd do a pull ups workout, and also due to the fact it's been like 2 hours since dosing, i am going to take more gel tabs 5:32pm:okay so i took..all but 60mgs of the second bottle, so that's 540mg total, that's kinda high, maybe i'll wait till jae gets home and see wuts good with him before i take the last 60mg. I don't think 30 minutes will make a huge difference. I feel the dxm but i'm not really tripping, it feels like i won't trip which would be crazy. 5:37pm: took the last 60mg. 600mg. i dont think i was really thinking come to think of it. really hope jae gets home soon. 5:43pm:went into spare bedroom with laptop n cut tv on. it's not really any source of substantial entertainment. actually kind of annoying. 5:45pm:well u know, if im not gonna actually trip, i'll enjoy my high, gonna start a game of yahooo hearts. closing eyes feeling the vibration of body. 5:50pm:How the fuck do they expect someone to type in the captchas correctly while they're tripping? 6:08pm:i played a game and lost, wasn't really aware of what i was doing, short term memory sucked so didin't know if i should stop moon shoot or not. Opeth - Damnation. 6:19pm: found the mute button on the remote. judge judy on tv. 6:25pm: i dont kno wtf im doing, im watching tv laying in bed in spare room watching judge judy listnin to music, internet, idk..Really glad panthers hav winning record. 6:27pm:really hard to interprept incoming stimuli. can''t comprehend what jduge judy is talking about. music sounds alright. jae just got home? six thirty seven: idk, tired, going to close eyes, .listen to music, six fifty one: crazy closed eye visuals seemed to last forever, like an amazingdream,i am anywhere i want to be. very comfortable. very happy. the color red i seee a lot, as if this is a red laptop. it feels so beautiful} closin eyes again, weird geommetric shapes. when the jae gets here itll be really trippy. 708pm seems like eternity dreaming with cevs. same granite laptop, meshing in with wall/bed/rest of room.. feeling really happy and good mood. want jae to get home to play twisted metal.coming to. this is 7:10pm, 600mg dxm. trippy day, met the asian, the cops, it all seems unreal. the tv is still on, let's go in that room. dam it's hard to do shit. tv in this room though. brings me closer to reality. also, bad smell. wish jae wuld get home so i can play twisted metal. how the hell did this day happen? trying to find something to do. 7:19pm: feel like im jus now coming to reality, confusedont know what the fuck happened or whats going on.
Post Trip Notes/Revelations:
Well that didn't work. I guess I'll have to find direction in life another way.
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