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Do you cry?
    #19017058 - 10/22/13 11:45 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I find myself crying a lot nowadays.
I'm not ashamed of it, I feel like its natural to weep when I have the feeling to weep...But I wonder if im mentally stable I guess.

My life situation isn't ideal at this point but I know it will pass and I keep working to improve the areas of my life that I believe will improve my future.

But in doing so, I seem to be falling into a bigger hole because I've created a whole new persona in the past couple years and I'm dealing with the baggage of my old self which I imagine would be living pretty well from a societal standpoint if I stuck with it.

Ultimately I felt like I wasn't living life my way, so I rerouted and now I'm dealing with the repercussions.

I feel like I'm content with everything but I guess I don't know if I'm lying to myself or not.

So the thesis to this post...Do you think it's better to have a stable life and not pursue your imaginative desires, or follow what you deem to be your "calling" even though you may never get it and completely fuck yourself from a societal perspective...Because to me that's important too.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19017075 - 10/22/13 11:51 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Ever since finding out about a year ago, that my mother has Cancer, I found myself breaking down quite a bit for the first 6 months or so, now it still happens, but I find it's other things that trigger it.

You know?
A note played a certain way, or something said...


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez] * 2
    #19017095 - 10/22/13 11:55 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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Do you cry?




How can I not with the level of intelligent posting here? I am winding down and want the next generation to be sci-fi super people and instead I get you guys.



Not to be insulting, but is this really the best your generation has to offer?

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Re: Do you cry? [Re: GrimTroll]
    #19017100 - 10/22/13 11:56 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I sometimes feel as if I'm about to during movies an tv shows. Not just sad stuff but also things that are inspiring or beautiful. Seriously came to tears a few weeks ago when I watched the futurama episode where fry finds his old dog and the last scen the dog is laying in front of panuccis waiting for him year after year. I seriously bawled over that shit.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: niteman]
    #19017106 - 10/22/13 11:58 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

:thumbup:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: GrimTroll]
    #19017108 - 10/22/13 11:58 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I feel ya on your whole post.
Some music really gets me..A Perfect Circles "Mer De Noms" CD makes me cry whenever I'm in a melancholy state.

It sucks that we have to watch people we care about go through hardships like cancer..:feelsbadman:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #19017127 - 10/23/13 12:02 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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Do you cry?




How can I not with the level of intelligent posting here? I am winding down and want the next generation to be sci-fi super people and instead I get you guys.



Not to be insulting, but is this really the best your generation has to offer?



:thehellwasthat:



:lol:

Its the beat I have to offer...I'm a mix of pathetic and delusional.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19017175 - 10/23/13 12:16 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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cez said:
I find myself crying a lot nowadays.
I'm not ashamed of it, I feel like its natural to weep when I have the feeling to weep...But I wonder if im mentally stable I guess.

My life situation isn't ideal at this point but I know it will pass and I keep working to improve the areas of my life that I believe will improve my future.

But in doing so, I seem to be falling into a bigger hole because I've created a whole new persona in the past couple years and I'm dealing with the baggage of my old self which I imagine would be living pretty well from a societal standpoint if I stuck with it.

Ultimately I felt like I wasn't living life my way, so I rerouted and now I'm dealing with the repercussions.

I feel like I'm content with everything but I guess I don't know if I'm lying to myself or not.

So the thesis to this post...Do you think it's better to have a stable life and not pursue your imaginative desires, or follow what you deem to be your "calling" even though you may never get it and completely fuck yourself from a societal perspective...Because to me that's important too.



Crying is just a bunch emotion you built up coming out all at once. I love crying because you feel better after its like purging.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19017176 - 10/23/13 12:17 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Goodstuff OP. I think crying is a great source of emotional release and we shouldn't be so ashamed of it. When i was young i taught not to cry so its a rare occurrence for me.

As for your other dilemma its all dependent on how much of a risk you are willing to take, whatever you chose i would advise to brace yourself for any possibility that may come with it including a downfall. The amount of sacrifice we are willing to make is subjective so don't know man you really have to figure it out for yourself.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19017182 - 10/23/13 12:19 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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Its the beat I have to offer...I'm a mix of pathetic and delusional.




I would say you offer a lot in self-deprecation, honesty and humor.

That is pretty damned good! :thumbup:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #19017188 - 10/23/13 12:19 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Agree:thumbup:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #19017235 - 10/23/13 12:39 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Awe schucks thanks guys :feelsjohngoodman:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19017241 - 10/23/13 12:42 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Icelander blackmailed me into saying that so don't get too puffed up. :nono:



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Re: Do you cry? [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #19017254 - 10/23/13 12:45 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I should fall down rather quickly..Thanks for blackmailing OC and making me feel good for a moment Ice :thumbup:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19017290 - 10/23/13 01:03 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Lesson learned, grasshopper. :congrats:



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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19017702 - 10/23/13 05:55 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

at the beginning of this year i used to cry every morning on the way to work.. now i am an empty shell of a human being. a deadend and docile drone, a perfect corporate slave...

how may i help?


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: quinn]
    #19017708 - 10/23/13 05:57 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

lol jk/ im just a stupidly privileged idiot. i did cry on the way to work tho


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: quinn]
    #19017892 - 10/23/13 08:14 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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quinn said:
at the beginning of this year i used to cry every morning on the way to work.. now i am an empty shell of a human being. a deadend and docile drone, a perfect corporate slave...

how may i help?





Can you reach me some of that expensive whisky on the top shelf. That's a good lad. :thumbup:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Icelander]
    #19018249 - 10/23/13 10:08 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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Do you cry?




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Re: Do you cry? [Re: FishOilTheKid]
    #19018307 - 10/23/13 10:19 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

No, never. I'm far too tough and manly to ever cry.

...Except at the ending of Cat's Cradle. :feelssadman:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19019743 - 10/23/13 02:46 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

January 5, 2001 was the last time I cried. It was the only time my Lady has seen me cry in the almost 17 years she's known me. I had my dog Ben's corpse in my arms after having put him to sleep.



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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Icelander]
    #19020104 - 10/23/13 03:56 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

only if i get an invite to your christmas gathering, pls, sir. :sad:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: quinn]
    #19020851 - 10/23/13 06:23 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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I am winding down and want the next generation to be sci-fi super people and instead I get you guys.



C'mon dude we are on the brink of using electron spins for information processing and just created a bloody cyborg. Why do you got to be that overly high expectation asian father?

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Not to be insulting, but is this really the best your generation has to offer?



Don't forget who raised us...
Weren't you the guys that were busy fucking the man, dropping loads of acid :mushroom2:, singing about krishna and having unprotected sex in public parks? :shrug:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Cactilove]
    #19020888 - 10/23/13 06:28 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

:haha:

I knew enough not to make babies.  What a mess my generation made. Almost as bad as our parents. :boring:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Icelander]
    #19021043 - 10/23/13 06:54 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I cry a bit as a kind of surrender to what I've been through with panic attacks and schizophrenia.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: circastes]
    #19021096 - 10/23/13 07:00 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Same here.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: FishOilTheKid]
    #19022471 - 10/23/13 10:33 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Last time I cried was several years ago at my uncle's funeral - I shed 1 tear.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: EternalCowabunga]
    #19022653 - 10/23/13 11:01 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

A single tear? :makesmecry:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Cactilove] * 2
    #19022689 - 10/23/13 11:07 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

But, but - it was ginormous!


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #19023178 - 10/24/13 01:16 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

:lol:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: niteman]
    #19023474 - 10/24/13 03:28 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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niteman said:
I sometimes feel as if I'm about to during movies an tv shows. Not just sad stuff but also things that are inspiring or beautiful. Seriously came to tears a few weeks ago when I watched the futurama episode where fry finds his old dog and the last scen the dog is laying in front of panuccis waiting for him year after year. I seriously bawled over that shit.



Wow, same thing happened to me when I watched that episode years ago. My mom came in the room afterwords and asked me why my eyes were so red (she was always trying to catch me stoned). I had to try and explain to her why a cartoon had such an emotional impact on me. She probably just thought I was ripped:lol:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19024131 - 10/24/13 06:32 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I cry for all of you, souls lost in ignorance. :hissyfit:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: CavemanJohnson]
    #19024137 - 10/24/13 06:35 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

saddest cartoon moment since mufasa dies... srsly wtf futurama? :nonono:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: quinn]
    #19024212 - 10/24/13 06:59 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

The last time I cried was earlier this week actually.

I was watching The music video for Alice in Chains "Rooster" which is about the Vietnam war. The video show a guy get his leg blown off, and him writhing around in the dirt clutching a branch hanging on for dear life. Also shows some young Viet Cong all bloodied and injured staring down the barrel of the gun that's about to kill him.

The video itself was nothing special, just some cheesy reenactments, but it still brought to mind the immense suffering untold numbers of living beings (humans and otherwise) have experienced. Thinking about this leaves me awestruck and fills me with an emotion I cannot describe

I should note though that my brain chemistry was pretty scrambled as I was coming off a bender. I notice Im prone to getting all sappy for a few days after hard drug use.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19024362 - 10/24/13 07:53 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I seem to go through periods where I'll cry quite regularly (once a week or more, sometimes daily) and then go without for months. Sometimes I feel great afterwards, like it really brings me back to the moment and gives me grounding clarity. Usually though it's just a reflection of my headspace at that time so I will remain empty/depressed. Sometimes I'll cry because something feels beautiful too. Or from laughing really hard, now that's the shit!

When I was a teenager my room was next to my mother's and I'd hear her crying herself to sleep almost every night. That was really disturbing. :puke:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: birdland]
    #19024510 - 10/24/13 08:59 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

crying is one of the most therapeutic forms of release known to mankind and it is a damn shame that it is largely looked down upon in our society or seen as a sign of weakness.

i also find it ridiculous that crying is *only* associated with depression or sadness...there are times when i cry in the presence of beauty, or simply gratitude for life itself.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: resonant111]
    #19024545 - 10/24/13 09:09 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Gratitude to whom?


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #19024704 - 10/24/13 09:58 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Icelander. :satansmoking:


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Icelander]
    #19024714 - 10/24/13 10:00 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)



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Re: Do you cry? [Re: OrgoneConclusion]
    #19024835 - 10/24/13 10:29 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I was certainly a precocious child


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Icelander]
    #19027323 - 10/24/13 06:26 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

hah! (the poor mother :nonono:)


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19027460 - 10/24/13 06:48 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I don't cry much but about 6 weeks after I started meditating I went through a period where I cried a lot. Lasted about a month or so. It felt like there was a backlog of shit I needed to deal with in that way. Haven't cried much since.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19029128 - 10/25/13 12:17 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Haven't cried in a long time


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Repertoire89]
    #19029158 - 10/25/13 12:23 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

What's a long time?


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19029196 - 10/25/13 12:33 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Eh, years I don't know how many. Got to the emotional point where one should probably cry but nothing comes out you know

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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Repertoire89]
    #19029204 - 10/25/13 12:35 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

How would you define that emotional point?
I'm just curious..


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: cez]
    #19029238 - 10/25/13 12:52 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

Past the point where I would have cried years past, some time ago the physical reaction just stopped


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Repertoire89]
    #19032501 - 10/25/13 06:42 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

I had two cats, both of whom were feral before they adopted me, and I loved the both deeply.

Felix, a small, regular grey, neutered male stripped tabby joined me in June, '79, 6 weeks after I moved into my then new home in a forest outside Annapolis.  He was only 6 months old and had been abandoned by his previous owners when they split and moved away.

Spike, an impressively large, muscular, intact feral Tom that the vet swore was at least 10, was solid red with only a white ring near the end of his tail, arrived in March, '81.  Alas, his nuts were the price of admission to the house, but after 6 months, he never noticed the loss.

Spike became an insulin-dependent diabetic when he was (est) 18, but was a real trooper about getting his daily insulin shot.  Unfortunately, by the time he was (est) 23-1/2, neuropathy from his diabetes got the best of him and he lost the ability to move his bowels.

He was a character of such dignity that the only alternative, daily enemas, was unacceptable and I had our vet come out to the house and give him the final gift I had; death and an end to suffering.  I held him while the vet gave him that shot.

Willie Nelson described it best in his song, "Time of the Preacher."  I screamed like a panther, I cried like a baby in the middle of the night!  It's probably the most painful memory I have. 

Less than a year later, Felix' liver failed and he suddenly became unable to eat.  He was literally starving, but when I put food down for him, he'd run to it only to be nauseated by the smell when he got close.  After he was diagnosed as helpless, I called the vet again and held him for his final gift. 

I cried for Felix too, and I probably shed a tear for my mom, and maybe for my sister, but I haven't cried since even though I ofter tear-up over meaningless but highly emotionally-charged scenes on the tube or the big screen.

I know, CSB. 

But on topic, anyway.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Rool Kat]
    #19032545 - 10/25/13 06:53 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

but I haven't cried since even though I ofter tear-up over meaningless but highly emotionally-charged scenes on the tube or the big screen.


Same here. I find this very strange.


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Icelander]
    #19036697 - 10/26/13 05:26 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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Icelander said:
but I haven't cried since even though I ofter tear-up over meaningless but highly emotionally-charged scenes on the tube or the big screen.


Same here. I find this very strange.




Yep.  That's always my reaction as well.  Strange indeed!


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Rool Kat]
    #19044028 - 10/28/13 02:20 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

i just dont...

i was raised in a family that represses emotions more often than not. last time i cried was in highschool after my first girlfriend effectively  told me we were breaking up on phone. it was a really fucking intense one, and it felt literally like a spill of emotion, a spill allowed for by the tear of the immediate trauma.

but yeah, before that I prob havent cried since the age 10 or 11. i wish to open up emotionally to the point where i can cry naturally. i guess i'll consider it a goal? by that time ill certainly have overcome a lot of fear and have dealt with a lot of emotions i have neglected to as of now. i sort of see my lack of crying as a manifestation of my emotional being/heart not working properly/naturally, due to my emotional repressed-ness.

its funny that while i have trouble dealing with emotions, i experience them ever so intensely. i've realized how highly sensitive of a being i am a while ago, even though its so deeply buried


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: krishh]
    #19045509 - 10/28/13 10:55 AM (10 years, 3 months ago)

How do you handle your emotions if you have trouble expressing them?


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Re: Do you cry? [Re: Repertoire89]
    #19047378 - 10/28/13 05:26 PM (10 years, 3 months ago)

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... some time ago the physical reaction just stopped




Yo first post.

Anyway, I haven't cried in years and I find it quite troubling, considering the immense amounts of shit (not to be self pitying, and I'm not trying to get pity from anyone else) 2013 has brought me. Burying two relatives, having a close friend commit suicide, being arrested twice and going to jail should bring someone to tears at some point in my opinion, but for me it just won't. My emotions are processed on such a mental level it's almost like I don't feel them as deeply as I should.

I actually get jealous of people who are able to cry, especially when my friend took his own life I just wished I could express on that same physical level as they were. I was almost angry with my good good friends because I felt like people thought I was some kind of cold bastard for not being able to shed a tear for Nikita, all the while I was envious of them for their expression.

It's tough, and I really hope I'll be able to experience crying again someday. Maybe through meditation I can have some kind of emotional opening, but for now my mind state just tells me to acknowledge the emotion and move on, doing what needs to be done.

To those who are able to cry, never be ashamed of it or think it makes you a lesser person. I'm studying what it means to be a human right now by examining some of the great books. Even Odysseus cries several times on his journey home and it makes me wonder what circumstances would have to be brought about that would make me shed tears.

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