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Giggle_Grower
A lil less noob each day



Registered: 04/07/10
Posts: 1,598
Loc: Shroomery
Last seen: 1 year, 5 months
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The moment you run out...
#19012344 - 10/22/13 06:49 AM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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For me , i ran out of whiskey. Drank half a fifth. Went and got another one. And now im almost out of that one. Been out of other intoxicants for a couplr mths, by choice. Been out of of bud for a few weeks to get a job. Now i have one, a.d still cant find any. Nothing but booze. Im upset about so manythings and ive always coped, sober or.otherwise. but tonight was a liquor nite and it not.cutting it. Ivd had a lot of shit to.br pissed about I lost my career, thru no.fault of my.own. My best friend and closest brother commited sucide in.front of me. 2nd time such a thing has happened and with creepy similar cirucumstances. I was the last human to speak to both of them. And both were my beat friends at the time. I havent had a girl worth loving in 5+ yrs. Been betrayed by all who i thought my close friends I moved for the 50tb time in my life. Ugh! I got diagnosed with a severe Vitamin D deffecientsy and aacute anxeity disorder at once. Completly blocked and banned from my famkly ts hard to keep going. J do, cuz i have no.choice. but damn itz hard. Id hope to find others who havr been tbrough this and worse. Just so i dont feel so damn alone.
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Bodhi of Ankou
*alternate opinion blocks path*


Registered: 06/02/09
Posts: 24,778
Loc: Soviet Canukistan
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I havent been through half the shit you have but we share pretty similar circumstances. Cant say I got a family, though I got a few relatives I still got a relationship with. Doesnt make me feel any less isolated in my current situation. My advice, just be grateful for what you got instead of longing for what you dont have. It'll get you through. Stop and set down roots too, even if it is just a casual relationship with the cashier at the local convienence store down the street. It'll brighten the fuck out of your day having people recognize you.
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buest
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Registered: 11/17/12
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Loc: Further
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the moment you run out of love for yourself is the moment i'd start worrying!
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birdland

Registered: 07/24/11
Posts: 2,202
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most of those things are really fucked up. Except for the vitamin D deficiency; that can be easily fixed.
Get lots more sunlight or at least start taking supplements for it, they're pretty cheap I'm told.
I wish you only the best man, make the most of what you have right now and I'm sure you can build a life that where you find contentment.
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Giggle_Grower
A lil less noob each day



Registered: 04/07/10
Posts: 1,598
Loc: Shroomery
Last seen: 1 year, 5 months
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I thank yku for the replies. It all been happening through the past 6 mths. Minus the gal.she is old yet heartbreakin news. Ive gkt.past her if nofhing else. The vitamin D prob is cuz my body cant process it. In soluble or natural form. I have a script to help,but ita my body that simply has a problem absorbing it. Drs.say they cant fix it but i ehould take yada yada. Which i do, ti no avail. Its only vitamin supplements, but they dont help accordin to the drs. But keep with it they say. I have recently began to devlope a relationship with mynmother, tho the.rest of my family still wont acknolwedge.me. and to hell with " friends". They all fycked me.over. i dont. Take 2nd chances. Which could be why i have no friends. But better safe than sorry. Really shroomery is all.i have left for socization. And its a sketchy place, sorry to say. Many bunk people. Many good ones too.
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Edited by Giggle_Grower (10/22/13 05:36 PM)
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