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Roflspammer
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My microdosing experience over the course of 3ish weeks
#18986387 - 10/16/13 02:13 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I posted this as a reply to a users post, and I went off. I wrote so much I decided that it should be its own thread. Here it is.
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I wanted to do a little experiment myself because I too suffer from bouts of depression and social anxiety. I did my research on microdosing, read all the threads possible, might have made my own I'm not sure. I knew the only true data though would be through personal experience. So at first I did .15 every other day for a week (this was from August 30th (roughly) to september 25-26. At first I was like woah shit this is awesome. I was motivated, I was creative, I could feel it doing its work. I thought maybe it was a little bit of a placebo but I was really social in schoool so I was like "fuck it, if it is placebo idgaf because its making me more outgoing! it works."
That was week one. I took the weekend off free of microdosing and decided that that would be my schedule. Mon, Off, Wed, off, Fri, off, off, repeat. Week 2 was strange. At first I was like fuck yeah this is working but about midway through I was starting to over analyze everything, and I got really bad hppd. If I spaced out and just stared off into space, things would start patterning and everything would start shifting around. And it was constant. My tracers are still really apparent. I started to over analyze and critisize myself. I felt as though I was fake, my life was pointless etc. My school grades slipped very quickly. I went from straight A's to straight B's in a week. That is EXTREMELY uncharacteristic of me. I started to hate myself little by little. I began slipping into depression. Week 3 (final week I think) I broke up with my GF because I felt that what I had wasn't real. I started heavily smoking again, which augmented my depression and made me really distant. People would tell me I looked really sad and depressed, and to cheer up. I started to hate my job, and I called off an entire week. I skipped school an entire week and just played GTA and smoked constantly. I had the most ridiculous mood swings, noticed by exgf, mother, and numerous friends. I went downhill really quick and attribute it to the microdose because before that I was absolutely fine and sane, and that was the only difference I consciously changed.
Thankfully I stopped and for the last 2 weeks have been in the same state of mind. Really self destructive, I hated myself, I became extremely pessimistic. Last weekend I dosed about 3 grams. I had no visuals which may be from the microdosing tolerance, or 9-month-old shrooms lost some potency 
Point is that that 3 g trip fixed my mind. I feel like I'm me again. Its the best feeling ever. I had a really up lifting trip. The mushrooms told me that I need to feel more confident in myself, that I can do anything I can set my mind too. Mushrooms healed me.
Basically, A big trip will be more beneficial to you (regardless if it is good or bad because it will teach you). It is now my belief that microdosing is abusing mushrooms. You do not need that kind of power to be inside of you all the time. It can destroy you. Now, your experience may be amazingly different and extremely beneficial, but I want to advise you to avoid microdosing. Mushrooms can completely change your mind for better or worse. No matter how small the dose; set and setting always impact you, even below your conscious awareness. Mushrooms are not meant to be taken everyday, or even every other day. Or even once a week. I strongly advise against microdosing. You have one brain and you can't get a new one. You are stuck with it the rest of your life. You do not want to fuck around with it.
  
END NOTE: Anyone ever realize that in every microdose experiment, the OP suddenly vanishes after a month or so, never to return again? I'm glad I didn't get that far. Luckily I think I caught the damage in time to fix it. And thanks to shrooms, I can.
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What do you all think? I do not support microdosing (obviously ) but anyone else with some similar observations/experiences? This was only 3 weeks, but I was afraid to keep going.
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Re: My microdosing experience over the course of 3ish weeks [Re: Roflspammer]
#18986479 - 10/16/13 02:42 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I did sub- threshold doses that after a week or so leveled off at 2g only giving me a buzz I could just barely feel unless I focused.
I did 2g every morning before work and didnt dose on my days off. it was great, I had lots of energy and was usually in a very good mood.
the only reason I stopped is because there was a management change and I hate my new boss and everyone is always complaining and on the verge of quitting..
-------------------- "If you're not worried that you took way to much, you didn't take enough" - Terrence McKenna There is no soul, only the ego dies. The body was never yours.
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Re: My microdosing experience over the course of 3ish weeks [Re: Roflspammer]
#18986497 - 10/16/13 02:46 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I agree, though some people might still benefit from a period of time micro dosing. No one really knows for sure, but I think larger trips are more beneficial and allowing time for things to sink in is also beneficial, though I have tripped really close together and I have also tripped really far apart. It always depends on the circumstances for me, how much free time I had and how awesome my life is at the moment.
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Re: My microdosing experience over the course of 3ish weeks [Re: bishlap]
#18986716 - 10/16/13 03:37 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Ineresting read
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