just bored.. and writing.. and on adderall... so it kinda sucks. but thought id share it? 
Still on my downfall, Weed smell, all around... Used to be found, Now I'm just lost, Feelin' hell bound.
Ate a shroom, or 17 Can't explain what the fuck I seen Just really able to give you a glimpse But it aint enough The way these kids 'trip' Maybe they just weren't atheists Seeing colors, pretty shit, I lost my mind, writing reasons Reasons I deserve to live, Why I don't want to die. Maybe that's what dark minds get Never realized I was always connected, to it, Lost my connection, Now I'm chasin' visions cause I know it exits.
Hope I aint already too far out, But I know I don't know shit And I hope heaven don't count me out And I was never religious, But I heard the sound The one within this right brain transceiver, Intuition never leads you astray until you leave her, So I fucked up and didn't listen.. And I'm caught up, soul missin, in this sinners reverb.
I bet you didn't take all this so serious either But we gotta try another way, Now that we gained the wisdom, To know we aint supposed to be there.
Comin from the heart I just want to be prepared, I'm so fuckin blessed to have a job but I don't care. I ain't fuckin' comin' up Livin' for another man who's already there, Tryin' to find my own way Hard without the partners that aren't there I'm losin my drive, starin' at this paper thinkin I need some different feeling to put the ink there, so I know it came from the place where, I'm always thinkin how this life, ain't fair, So if you haven't already seen it I can take you there The deepest holes in my brain I've been diggin deeper since I became self aware I can make you more aware of how we're all the same.
Need more drugs, or rehab, I feel insane.
Either way, I need to find a way, to live in this place, where all the lives are fake And souls aren't acknowledged Just livestock with posture Gettin' brainwashed up and through college, Everyone feeling so fuckin' entitled It's childish, Teaching your children to get good grades, so one day, they'll be a high up personality, and you'll get rich never having to worry, But multiply this shit by 700 million same stories, this why we should be worried, But it just remains ignored The mass perception of reality blurred, This world's absurd And I can't believe I let All this pain occur Joined A society when I should of Just hit the curb, Walk the fuck away trust fate I'd make away, BBut it didn't happen that way, I guess no one said I can't start today Need to stop lookin' back Missin' opportunities in my path
Hope this ain't for nothin' Hope it means somethin' to someone one day, Need to get my shit together So I can say fuck hope Cause I'll know I'm gonna make these Dreams come true, even though You and everyone else may think I won't Just as good as these dudes sayin' their dope Well I don't give a fuck Cause when I hear em I don't hear shit I don't know how they get rich I guess they just aint independent Cause I know to make a statement You gotta go through some trouble, And these lame clean cut kids got no problems besides the ones they fictiously rap about to connect to a target audience, so they know it will just have to work out. and they know their consumers are ignorant stupid fucks buyin cds about gettin rich, Even though most will never get out, Live their life broke as shit.. Lifes a fuckin game, it's just knowin When to take it serious, at least, in my experience.
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