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245willow19

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Unrequited Love?
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This has likely happened to at least everyone here? How did you cope? This has happened more than once to me. I am seriously giving up now…I respect her choice and happiness and all…but leading me on this whole time and flirting and basically making me feel very special for a brief moment and we have the same problems (family issues and loneliness) and then this damn avoidance thing and everything…ugh…I should just become a bitter solitary man and start loving myself and meticulously plan world domination and force people to love me…it would fill this yawning void in my darkening heart. I receive so little love…neglected as a child…angry…bitter, confused and basically insecure and shy 
Perhaps I should mimic other charismatic, articulate people with an eerie sibilant speech and put a comforting smile and pretend to be joyful and sway the masses and make people fear me and become undisputed, respected and saluted. Maybe I should goad people to do my bidding and portray myself as a polite, ambitious, reassuring, benevolent and resourceful…people always want a father to look up to and aspire to become alike or at least fulfill their wishes. I regard myself as handsome, polite, well mannered but often awkward, shy and obviously weird and crazy and this could explain why girls are put off...and consider 'stupid' or 'idiotic, immature, intolerant and childish' .
I confess to being manipulative to some extent…for example, I fancied this Muslim girl and made sure nobody else would talk with her but me …I made very sure of that…but then our friendship eventually failed and she distanced herself from me and refused to talk…perhaps she sensed something afoot, eh? I’ll admit, I am quite touchy, charming and selective though and this was probably a turn off or at least a reason for her to look at me with suspicion. She probably knew something was up and assumed I was the precise cause of why nobody else would talk with her and basically disregarded her. All the teachers praised me for becoming her friend (her only friend at that time) and showing her around the school and making her feel happy and special and making sure she understand everything and caught up on notes. I walked her home from school to make sure nobody else dared to try and talk with her. I used her somewhat …I am not a monster, don’t get look at me wrong…I am just a bit scheming and pragmatic as this is the only way to attain the bliss of a thrill. I actually cared and felt a lot of affection for her. She was so innocent and young and one could say I loved her. I have failed now and again…girls aren’t interested in me. I probably show my true colours…I know girls hate control freaks. I have other examples…but if I tell you Shroomites…ehmmm…you’d probably think I am narcissistic sadistic sociopath and borderline psychopath.
Anyway I do come across as dim-witted and awkward…but don’t ever underestimate me…it’s just a disguise to hide my sadistic personality. I was quite a violent scheming child…still am…but I am slowly growing out of it. Did anyone else here undergo the same thing or experience a similar scenario? I seem to make everyone around me miserable…I don’t know why…I can’t help it…but they don't hate me...they just don't understand why everything turned to shit. I am what I am…someone has to be

I think my true colours are starting to show now...people mistrust me
Edited by 245willow19 (10/02/13 05:24 PM)
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Bodhi of Ankou
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You're far from charming.
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245willow19

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Bodhi of Ankou said: You're far from charming.
You don't even know me, blud ...you make silly assumptions and believe everything about me from shit I post on here . You haven't even met me face to face...I bet I could convince you to sleep with me or rob a bank or even kill someone...wanna bet? When you met me, the first thing to come to your cloddish mind is a shy, polite, young boy, who is very sensitive and weak and in need of aid and a friend . I could guilt trip you in such a way to help me steal my mother's cookies from top cupboard ...I can't fucking entice you through a damn computer though.
Edited by 245willow19 (10/02/13 05:22 PM)
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unrequited love's a bore, yeah and i've got it pretty bad but for someone you adore it's a pleasure, to be sad
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Esekon Kelly said:
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Bodhi of Ankou said: You're far from charming.
You don't even know me, blud ...you make silly assumptions and believe everything about me from shit I post on here . You haven't even met me face to face...I bet I could convince you to sleep with me or rob a bank or even kill someone...wanna bet? When you met me, the first thing to come to your mind is a shy, polite, young boy, who is very sensitive and weak . I could guilt trip you in such a way to help me steal my mother's cookies from top cupboard
How attractive.
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245willow19

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Esekon Kelly said:
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Bodhi of Ankou said: You're far from charming.
You don't even know me, blud ...you make silly assumptions and believe everything about me from shit I post on here . You haven't even met me face to face...I bet I could convince you to sleep with me or rob a bank or even kill someone...wanna bet? When you met me, the first thing to come to your mind is a shy, polite, young boy, who is very sensitive and weak . I could guilt trip you in such a way to help me steal my mother's cookies from top cupboard
How attractive. I love you, man
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i wanna know what you look like so bad.
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Esekon Kelly said:
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Bodhi of Ankou said: You're far from charming.
You don't even know me, blud ...you make silly assumptions and believe everything about me from shit I post on here . You haven't even met me face to face...I bet I could convince you to sleep with me or rob a bank or even kill someone...wanna bet? When you met me, the first thing to come to your cloddish mind is a shy, polite, young boy, who is very sensitive and weak and in need of aid and a friend . I could guilt trip you in such a way to help me steal my mother's cookies from top cupboard ...I can't fucking entice you through a damn computer though.
So your idea of "charming" is guilt-tripping people? On the (hopefully) rare occasion that you manage to guilt trip a girl into sex with you, do you think it would be any sort of fun for anyone involved?
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245willow19

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xanderofpella said: i wanna know what you look like so bad.
If gay guys think I am very attractive and handsome and wanna hook up with me...I won't doubt their word...they seem quite honest and blunt . Girls are instantly attracted to me and love me...but after a while they seem to have some level of mistrust...I should probably change or at least pretend to care and show respect toward them until ...BOOM! Poke my rod in their yawning gap or shit box...Bingo! I have gotten a lot of compliments about my 'nice features' particularly from Indian and other exotic girls. I just love brown chicks 
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So your idea of "charming" is guilt-tripping people? On the (hopefully) rare occasion that you manage to guilt trip a girl into sex with you, do you think it would be any sort of fun for anyone involved?
What? Jaysus, I am sick...not that fucking sick...that's just pathetic. Only a desperate douchebag asshole would do that. I would never guilt trip a girl into having sex with me...there are other more enjoyable complex ways to do so...I want to have fun and plan things ahead...my impeccable charms and arts of seduction and other things make girls squirt...maybe I should just make them feel special and loved for a moment...that seemed to work...a lot.
Edited by 245willow19 (10/02/13 05:37 PM)
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