MY SOULS' WORN THIN LOST INSIDE, A LONG HALLWAY CAN'T LOOK BACK, FAR ENOUGH, TO FIGURE OUT, SINCE WHEN.
ALL THESE REVOLUTIONS EACH TIME THIS EARTH SPINS, ALL THE SELF TALK THE TIME SPENT IN THOUGHT SO FAR OFF FROM WHERE I STARTED OFF SO FAR AWAY FROM WHERE I THOUGHT I'D BE I DROVE MY CAR AWAY AND FORGOT ALL MY DREAMS
BROKEN.
LOST.
OFF.
SO DEPRESSED TO THE POINT WHERE SUICIDE IS A CHORE SO I GAVE UP DECIDED TO JUST LIVE NOT ALIVE ANYMORE JOINED THE REST OF THESE IGNORANT FUCKS GOIN' NO WHERE WITHIN THEIR OWN MINDS BESIDES THROUGH THEIR SCHEDULES FIGURING OUT HOW TO BUY TIME AT SOME POINT IN THEIR CONFINED LIVES THEY KNOW SUCK
KINDA FUNNY EVEN THOUGH, I AIN'T LAUGHIN. EVEN WHEN YOU LOSE YOUR INTENTION YOU STILL REMAIN IN YOUR MIND, TRAPPED IN
TAKING LIFE PLANS BEFORE THEY EVEN CAN UNFOLD AND HAPPEN MODIFYING THEM SELLING THEM TO PARENTS SO THEY CAN GIVE THEM TO THEIR CHILDREN PRE-PACKAGED MASS MURDER SOULS TORTURED SLAVE CORPSES FOLLOWING COURT ORDERED ORDER NO INDIVIDUAL CONTROL GOD IS DEAD IF YOU LIVE LOW THIS IS WHERE IM FROM THE MIDDLE OF A FUCKIN' CORN ROW
LOST AND FORGOTTEN, WHILE I STILL KNOW HOW WE'VE FORGOTTEN TO STAND STILL ON OUR OWN
SMALL TOWN MADE ME WHOLE LIFE I'VE SEEN SCRAPS BEING THROWN HEARD A WHOLE LOT OF MAYBES CAUSE WHEN EVERYONES BROKE YOU JUST NEVER KNOW AIMLESS STATES. INDECISION. WHAT MISTAKES WILL I MAKE NEXT I SEEM TO ALWAYS QUESTION WHAT ELSE WILL RESULT FROM ME NOT LISTENIN' DISREGARDING INTUITION.
SURROUNDED BY MISERY SURROUNDED BY STORIES OF HOPE THAT COULD OF ENDED WELL BUT STORIES THAT USUALLY DONT, AND MOST OF THE TIME IT'S HARD TO TELL JUST HOW MANY PEOPLE AROUND YOURSELF ARE STUCK IN THE SAME FUCKING HELL.
DEBATES IN THE BRAIN QUESTIONING MORALS IF I CAN GAIN MORE OF JUST A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING MAYBE THEN ILL FEEL A LITTLE MORE SANE MAYBE IT'S WORTH HAVING TO SAY FUCK THE WORLD GETTING MINE IS THE ONLY WAY.
MAYBE IT'S NOT AND DYING POOR IS THE ONLY WAY THROUGH A POSSIBLY NON EXISTENT DOOR MAYBE I SHOULDN'T BE OBSESSED WITH TRYING TO ALWAYS GET AHEAD IN THESE FUCKING GAMES THAT HAVE ME STRESSED FROM BUYING INTO THIS SYSTEMATIC DEATH TOO FUCKING INTELLIGENT, TOO FAR AHEAD TO DEAL WITH BEING SOMEONES ARTIFICIAL BITCH I ALREADY FEEL DEAD AS IT IS, THEN THEY TREAT ME AS IF I'M ADVANCED LIVESTOCK AND DUMB AS SHIT AND EVERY MINIMUM WAGE SLAVE PROBABLY FEELS LIKE THIS, I GUESS IT JUST COMES DOWN TO WHO HAS THE MOST PASSION TO MAKE BECOMING FREE REALLY HAPPEN. HOW BAD DO YOU WANT OUT OF THIS SHIT STEALING YOUR ABILITIES TO LEAVE YOUR MARK IN THIS IMPOSSIBLE FOR SOME AND THEY WILL NEVER SEE OR FEEL WHAT IT'S LIKE TO FEEL INFINITE LIKE THEIR TEN TIMES MORE ALIVE THAN ANYONE ELSE CAN BE
LOST IN LIFE LoST IN A LIE TO YOU I HOPE THIS HITS REAL SOFT SPOTS INSIDE..... ...CAUSE I'M TRIPPIN; IN SUCH,...UNFAMILIAR PLACES, I JUST NEED TO FIND, SOMEONE ELSE'S EYES, TO LOOK INSIDE. LET ME KNOW .. I'M NOT ALONE, IN THIS, PLACE FEW HIDE.. IN THIS PLANE IN MY , YOUR, OUR, MIND. SECRETS AND ANSWERS FROM OUTSIDE... OUT THERE. TAKE ME TO THE OTHER SIDE CLEANSE THESE WALLS, SO WE CAN SEE WHAT IT TAKES TO MAKE THEM ALL FALL MAKE IT TO THE DOORS, UNTAINTED... SEE THROUGH TO EVERYTHING WE NEVER SAW EVERYTHING OUR IMAGINATION CREATED INFINITE POSSIBILITIES SLOWLY LETTING GO OF THESE,... LIFE GAME WORRIES. DON'T HAVE TO FUCKIN' WORRY I'LL PUT DOWN MY VICES, WHEN I NO LONGER NEED EM, TO BE ABLE TO SEE THROUGH ALL THESE, SEAMLESS ILLUSIONS TRY AND ONLY USE EM TO MAKE THE VISIONS LESS BLURRY. TO HOLD ON TO SOMETHING I ENCOUNTERED EARLY BEGINNING OF THE HALL WAY, BACK WHEN I WOULD SAY "FUCK WHAT THEY ALL SAY" BUT I GUESS I CAME A LONG WAY, LIFES A PLAY AND I LOST MY SOUL ON STAGE FORGOT WHAT I KNOW, LOST MY PLACE, FORGOT MY ROLE FAKE FACE, FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT TO YOUR RESTING PLACE FROZEN IN PERMANENT MISTAKES, BECAME JUST WHO I SAID ID HATE TO BE ALWAYS LIFE ISN'T FAIR IS WHAT THEY'D ALL SAY TO ME THOUGHT YOU SAW YOURSELF TRAVELING A DIFFEReNT ROUTE, BETTER WAYS TO REACH WHAT YOU ALWAYS EXPECTED TO ONE DAY BECOME YOUR PERFECT REALITY, NOW STUCK IN WHAT YOU HATE ALL DAY CAUSE LIFE GIVES FEW CHANCES AND MISSED OPPORTUNITIES JUST FADE AWAY ALL THOSE SECOND GLANCES AND YOU JUST TURNED AWAY NEVER REALIZING THE URGENCY TO MAKE EVERY CONNECTION POSSIBLE TO be made CAUSE THIS LIFE IS NO LONGER A DREAM WHEN YOU WAKE UP WITH AGE WONDERING WHY YOU LET EVERYTHING THAT COULD OF BEEN REAL GO TO FUCKING WASTE.
NOW IT'S JUST SURREAL YOU CAN SEE IT ON MY FACE SO FUCKING DEAD INSIDE ITS EASIER TO KEEP THIS FAKE LIE ALIVE, EVERY MORNING WRITE CONTENT AND FINE ALL OVER MY FACE
SO WHEN I GO OUT IN PUBLIC I LOOK LIKE IM DOIN' OKAY.
NEVER EVER THOUGHT ID EVER END UP THIS WAY.
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