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Dr.Dankhead
Uhh...doctor gonzo?



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I'm so sorry czar.
#18904705 - 09/28/13 09:43 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yesterday... The very cat in my signature pic.. The best cat in the world that wouldn't harm a fly, went insane and viciously attacked me and my step dad.. He go the brunt of it, getting mauled n the face and arms gushing blood, me not be scratch.
This has happened once before, much worse the last time, she went insane, my cat must of still had un domestic instincts or something because another male cat outside meaowed and idk what the hell that cat said, but my little czar wet nuts scratching the screen out to get to that other cat. Step dad screamed stop, startled little czar, and she gave him the look of the deal and pounced on him.. I've never seen any cat as determined to attack as my little kitty.. We promised each other, no matter how much we loved that kitty if it happened again we had to kill it, before it attacked a young child or women. Now this wasn't your average kitty attack, this fucking cat had the eyes of satan and razors for claws. Step dad lost SOOO much blood last time, that he had to go to the hospital
.. She's never ever never done anything like that, but explaining this supporting details, I can now explain what happened yesterday.
I went outside to smoke a cig, step dad comes out with me, and my kitty walked out while we weren't looking, she's normally an outside cat, so he tells her to get back in, nudging the back of her butt, and she did it again...
She lunged for his face, trying to gouge out his eyes, luckily she missed but still fucked up his face. He kicked her off the deck and she just kept coming back attacking my step dad.. The way this cat attacked was more vicious and gruesome then a dog attack.. We trained this cat everyday with a laser pointer, ruin g up and down the house hours everyday, so she was a very lean, muscle machine.. She continued to attack him, his blood pouring everywhere we managed to getin the house... We both looked at each other and we knew what had to be done, and I wasn't about to let police or some lady kill my cat.. He handed me the 25 cal. .. I looked outside and she was on the deck hissing at our neighbors.. The only thing running through my mind was what if a little kid got attacked, i couldn't let anyone else suffer..
For sme reason, even in her violent rages, kitty still listened to me.. I called her name this time and she hissed, i didn't budge at all.. I held my hand up, told kitty i loved her, fired one shot and i missed.. I clipped her in the stomach..Nothing on earth could express how guilty i felt for not taking her out of her misery..
She continued to scream bloody murder, the kitty i took informative coldwinter and raised as a puppy, since it was a kitten.. I was hearing her screams of pain.. She crawled under a three wheeled motorcycle and waited to die.. I couldn't let her suffer, so i put i leather gloves and picked her up. By this time, someone called the police because i fired my gun in city limits, and they were the gating to do something if i didn't, i just sat there holding her in my arms, all the fight in her slowly leaving and for a brief moment, i held her like i used to when she was just a little squirt.. Looked up at me with those big be beautiful green eyes, and she knew what she had done. And she knew what was going on.. As stupid as it sounds, i feel like she forgave me, while we looked into each others eyes. She put her chin up and i rubbed her chin and told her everything's just fine kitty, I'm so sorry, I'm sooo sorry kitty, I'm just so sorry.. Please kitty I'm sorry..
And she looked up, with the same cute eyes that won me over from the beggining, and I could tell she just wanted it to be over with. I put her in the kennel with a big blanket, took her out to a nice place the woods.. Lit my cig and talked to her.. I explained how sorry i was and how she had been the only person i could TRUELY discuss every detail of life with.. I looked at her, she looked at me.. Put the pistol to her head, closed my eyes said i was sorry and pulled the trigger.. I saw her body start flopping so i shot again. And again.. Brought her back to her home, wrapped her in my sweatshirt, and held her like i did when she was a baby.. Held her in my arms crying.
The weird thing is, I've had humans die all around me and I've never once cried at a funeral, but this cat death devastated me more then my parents death.. This cat wasn't just a cat.. It was family. It was my best friend, my sister my pet, my little baby,my little cutie..
Rest in peace kitty, i look forward to the day i deserve to suffer like you, and when my time comes well be together again, playing like we used to everyday.
Czar Chavez premethious
Born-?-died September 27 2013.
I love you kitty..

And i know it may be too soon, but i got 2 grams of mushies.. I'm deciding weather or not i should spirit journey tomoro..
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pcplease
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Cats get spooked. Just part of having a cat. Their brains are somewhat naturally schizophrenic. I would not have done what you did. I am very sad reading that you had to use multiple shots. That poor cat.
As for the shrooms, You'll do what you want. There's no right or wrong time.
That poor cat.
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Dr.Dankhead
Uhh...doctor gonzo?



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Re: I'm so sorry czar. [Re: pcplease]
#18904948 - 09/28/13 10:47 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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pcplease said: Cats get spooked. Just part of having a cat. Their brains are somewhat naturally schizophrenic. I would not have done what you did. I am very sad reading that you had to use multiple shots. That poor cat.
As for the shrooms, You'll do what you want. There's no right or wrong time.
Thanks for your nice words, I'd like to see you get viciously attacked, still with scars from the last time, children all over my neighborhood and a crazy cat outside?.. What the fuck would you do? Definitely not making me seem like an asshole for stepping up and taking responsibility for my cat attacking my step dad, and possibly kids playing outside that day.. Thank you for adding to the shit feeling i have.. I was hoping for some support, my last hope failed as well.
Thanks for your sympathy. For for flipping out. I had no other choice man, i loved that cat like it was family.. about the multiple shots... She was squirming like ... Like i didn't kill her, i know it was nerves but i couldn't let her suffer.. I tried to kill myself but, i survived 32g of dilaudid. .. I don't want to be here anymore, i deserve to feel the same suffering she did, and the same fate.. Who am i to judge who lives and dies?.. She was the only real family i had, and i killed her. I think i should just go die.
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nooneman


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Right now is a very bad time for you to trip. I would recommend putting a lot of time between euthanizing your cat, and your next trip. Maybe as much as a year.
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The Doobie Dude


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Re: I'm so sorry czar. [Re: nooneman]
#18905496 - 09/29/13 01:40 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I just want you to know man I cried from reading that and I haven't cried in ages. I'm sorry for your loss
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akira_akuma
Φύσις κρύπτεσθαι ὕψιστος φιλεῖ


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sorry, that happened.
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Dr.Dankhead
Uhh...doctor gonzo?



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I'm sorry it made you cry man, i cry everyday since.. I just miss my little puppy.. She was much more like a dog, then a cat.
Thank you for your sympathy,i needed to tell someone.
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Dr.Dankhead
Uhh...doctor gonzo?



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Re: I'm so sorry czar. [Re: nooneman]
#18907082 - 09/29/13 01:03 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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nooneman said: Right now is a very bad time for you to trip. I would recommend putting a lot of time between euthanizing your cat, and your next trip. Maybe as much as a year.
I wish i did euthanize her.... I shot her. In the head, and I'm tripping now and I'm okay..
I'm one insensitive, worthless being. I feel i should be gunned down, and shot in the face. Why didn't i just take the pain, and lock her irn the shower?.. I'm so sorry kitty.
I'm sorry.
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Into The Woods
Quarantine King


Registered: 04/20/13
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I'm sorry to hear this
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Cyclohexylamine
Turn on, Tune in, Drop out


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Re: I'm so sorry czar. (moved) [Re: Dr.Dankhead]
#18907949 - 09/29/13 05:08 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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This thread was moved from Ladies' Night.
Reason: Better suited here.
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setb
10th level beer nerd
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Could have sent it off to a good home. I'm seething reading your post, couldn't even kill it cleanly.
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Fox7
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Re: I'm so sorry czar. (moved) [Re: setb]
#18908887 - 09/29/13 08:43 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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You did the right thing killing it. It would have been fucked up if your cat was outside and hurt someone (especially a child). Using a gun like that was incredibly stupid though...
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nooneman


Registered: 04/24/09
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Loc: Utah
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Dr.Dankhead said: I'm one insensitive, worthless being. I feel i should be gunned down, and shot in the face.
This kind of thinking is exactly why I advised you not to trip so soon.
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Me_Roy
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Re: I'm so sorry czar. [Re: nooneman] 1
#18909036 - 09/29/13 09:14 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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OP, in my opinion you did the right thing. The cat was a liability and it had to go down. Perhaps a vet could have done the work a little more cleanly, but then again perhaps you wouldn't have been able to get your hands on the damned thing in the state it was in.
An animal that goes for peoples' eyes and will cause someone to lose enough blood that they have to go to the hospital is nothing to mess with. What if it snapped and went for a kid's eyes? This was an outdoor cat; it knows no other way to live; one simply can't supervise it all of the time.
And, pray tell, what would a good home for this animal have looked like?
As I see it, when pets go bad they get put down. There's no sense in passing on your problem to someone else. It's a losing situation for the animal and for any owner it might have.
My $0.02, nothing more. I just hate to see OP taking flack after he's made the tough decision and acted on it as deftly as possible, rather than pussy-footing around it.
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Dr.Dankhead
Uhh...doctor gonzo?



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Re: I'm so sorry czar. [Re: Me_Roy]
#18911187 - 09/30/13 12:48 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thank you people for your opinions, i did call the local police, they showed up and said... "We don't mess with cats, and i sure as hell ain't gunna grab it"
He gave me permission to shoot her in city limits, with neighbors all around? Weird huh.. There isn't even someone he could of called.
And i raised little kitty, I'll be dammed if the last thing she saw was some lady with a needle.
So i did it myself
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rulesq
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Damn bro , my condolences 
I really love cats, and reading your post hurt so much.. You did the right thing IMO, must have been a really hard decision to make though..
May she purr in now
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