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Hobozen


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Re: When you're not strung out and using drugs all the time... [Re: st1llnox]
#18900799 - 09/27/13 09:30 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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st1llnox said: Life is a lot fucking better.
tl;dr: using drugs less really does improve your life a lot if you've been doing it excessively; you can now count me as a believer and thanks for pounding this into my head
I MOSTLY quit abusing drugs, particularly DXM (it's been over a month for the first time in a while, we'll just say that).
My parents, it turns out, are actually interesting and caring people. They're not perfect and we're still working on relating even better, but man they're cool.
I can never repay how grateful I am I was able to be there for my Grandpa in his final days. If I were strung out, traipsing the dextroverse or stoned, I might not have even made it up to see him.
But before his mind started leaving ahead of his body finally shutting down too, he said he loves me and gave me a "god bless", a tradition in that side of the family where we pat eachother twice on the head to the syllables of "God Bless" before we leave.
My mind is better too. I'm kicking ass at work; used to go in stoned sometimes and I felt guilty when the manager who hired me asked if I'm sick, or the really cool manager that thinks I can become a manager took time out of his shift to give me a pep talk about how I still have potential when he saw my, well... functioning/functionality declining.
I'm re-teaching myself some math and it's clicking. Now that I put drugs by the wayside, I asked my doctor if he'd want my help as a research assistant and he PRACTICALLY SOUNDED LIKE HE'D JUST BEEN WAITING ALL THIS TIME FOR ME TO GET BORED OF DRUGS, and he enthusiastically took me on board and I start early October 
Even drugs are better this way; I've smoked weed like 2-3 times in the last 5-6 weeks and it's not just relaxing and nice... it's wonderful.
Unfortunately, I started smoking again (tobacco) but this gives me more resolve to stop that shit. I've smoked about 5 cigars in the last few days after going on, and then taking off the patch, but I'm gonna figure out what it takes and I'm gonna go the distance.
Unfortunately, I've been on temazepam to sleep due to stress over what was then an *impending* death in the family. I've noticed I'm starting to have some working memory volatility so I'm not going to get my refill I decided. ALSO, I gave the bottle to my dad so I wouldn't abuse it. I've even skipped nights where even though I would have liked the buzz, I knew I'd be able to sleep.
It was almost bizarre turning down being handed 2 benzos by my dad.
I'm not perfect though; I've drank (and to excess) about 4 times the last month, but nothing turns off alcohol's appeal like hangovers and physical symptoms the next day, so I'm going to try to just drink socially, plus I want to respect that my parents don't want drinking in the house.
Far from perfect, but now I see what you guys were all trying to tell me I can have if I quit throwing myself away.
I'm starting to feel tempted to use DXM again for the first time since I started this 3 month break, but people have reminded me it's important I go through with this and I honestly think I'm going to make it.
My parents too are super happy I'm not robotripping. They knew/know about the drinking at home excessively, but just said they don't want to deal with the consequences, and that's enough for me.
/just pleeease, just do no, i repeat do not turn into some mad sobriety preacher of sobriety. channel your newfound energy into bigger-minded thangs like sexual kung fu.
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Re: When you're not strung out and using drugs all the time... [Re: Hobozen]
#18900807 - 09/27/13 09:32 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah, I swear if you fucking start posting "TRIPPING MASSIVE BALLS ON BEING SOBER PLEASE READ" or sanctimonious sobriety threads bi-daily, I'm going to have a stroke.
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Sheekle
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sVs said: I swear if you fucking start posting "TRIPPING MASSIVE BALLS ON BEING SOBER PLEASE READ"
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st1llnox
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Re: When you're not strung out and using drugs all the time... [Re: Sheekle]
#18900860 - 09/27/13 09:43 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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sVs said: Yeah, I swear if you fucking start posting "TRIPPING MASSIVE BALLS ON BEING SOBER PLEASE READ" or sanctimonious sobriety threads bi-daily, I'm going to have a stroke.
I'll only do that if it would give you a stroke of genius, k?
I'm far too logical (learned not to say smart ) to become a 12-step zealot or anything like that.
You could notice, if you were in the mood for a textwall, that is, that part of what I'm enjoying about this is that drugs are like 5 times more magical when you don't take them all the time.
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sVs said: I swear if you fucking start posting "TRIPPING MASSIVE BALLS ON BEING SOBER PLEASE READ"

The ONE TIME I got banned was for joking about submitting a masturbation trip report. This being a drugs forum, I'll bet that'd be even less well-recieved.
Then again, I bet a "HOLY SHIT I LOVE WORKING IN LAW ENFORCEMENT AND RUINING 19 YEAR OLD POTHEADS FUTURES" thread would be worse so who knows...
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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Re: When you're not strung out and using drugs all the time... [Re: st1llnox]
#18900978 - 09/27/13 10:33 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Life is a lot better when Im not strung out sitting on the computer. :/
Those are wholesome feelings you have. I had those once. Hang One on to them. I cant appreciate much anymore. LOL I need to escape from life rather than live it. Droogs are the solution to every issue, irritation, or problem. You can feel how you want, when you want. You can feel anything, but never feel genuinely good. Yay addiction! One thing i think is for sure, do drugs long enough and you'll wish you were dead. Drugs suck, why I love them?(why....???) cause I dont love myself.
damn.. boohoo..
ack.. time to switch to something uplifting.
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