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My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you?
    #18898571 - 09/27/13 12:51 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I am who I want to be.I am not crazy,I am just myself and everyone that I want to be.
I am rarely feeling any emotion,when I do so,I'm either depressed or laughing with no reason.
I feel followed,I feel like people know where I am,I feel like people can read my mind when I look into their eyes.
I want to mutilate myself and,actually,I do so periodically by cutting my veins or other forms of self-mutilation.
I feel the uncontrollable urge of killing and raping people,I feel the urge of stealing and burning things.
I have near 0 confidence in myself and I trust no one,not even myself,sometimes.
What is wrong with me? hm,nothing is wrong with me,but most people think that I have a problem,everybody has problems,what do you think about me? Am I crazy?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898592 - 09/27/13 12:56 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

at least I can understand this post. So you are improving.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898597 - 09/27/13 12:57 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

IMO you have too strong a desire for sympathy and attention, I believe that's your only problem. You seem intelligent enough to overcome this. Are you by any chance a millennium or 90's kid?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: EdibleStereos]
    #18898611 - 09/27/13 01:01 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I am starting to understand what is happening with me,maybe,the drug that my psychiatrist prescribed to me might improve my state of mind.(risperidone)


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: JamesSpawned]
    #18898619 - 09/27/13 01:03 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I don't have the desire to overcome this,I want to be insane but I'm not sure if I can intentionally become a crazy person,I'm not sure if I am a crazy person yet,the single thing that I know is that risperidone changed my way of thinking.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898628 - 09/27/13 01:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

These are not healthy thoughts or feelings. You should see a psychologist, for the sake of not only yourself but those around you


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898631 - 09/27/13 01:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

You're not crazy, just stupid.

Also you love begging this forum for any attention and you don't know how to properly use commas.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Sheekle]
    #18898635 - 09/27/13 01:07 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I'm forced by ''society'' to see a psychiatrist actually. (and I do so)


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Snotfish]
    #18898645 - 09/27/13 01:10 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

You seem to be that kind of person that enjoys making miserable people feel even more miserable,also,you enjoy judging me and you've never complimented me because you consider that there are no positive aspects about me.
What I want to say is...I can and will love you even if you hate me :grin:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898661 - 09/27/13 01:13 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I don't even know what to say in this kind of situations.

I mean you have to realize these thoughts are just plain strange. You want to hurt people and rape them and shit?

What the fuck?

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Grigore said:
You seem to be that kind of person that enjoys making miserable people feel even more miserable,also,you enjoy judging me and you've never complimented me because you consider that there are no positive aspects about me.
What I want to say is...I can and will love you even if you hate me :grin:




What you said in the main post is about the opposite of what you are saying now.

So what is it, you want to love people or kill and rape them?

I just don't get it.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898665 - 09/27/13 01:14 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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I'm forced by ''society'' to see a psychiatrist actually. (and I do so)





Does society mean your parents, or does it mean court ordered?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898667 - 09/27/13 01:14 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Yes I think you have issues, and I hope the Risperidone will help you get an edge in becoming more in charge of your impulses and your life.

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Am I crazy?




Crazy is such an emotional word. Do you have significant problems?  Well, if you a lot of the time dont feel much of anything and feel urges towards others and yourself, the latter resulting in you cutting yourself, then yes you have problems.

I think this is relevant for you to listen to, because here "being crazy" is being examined from a nonmedical point of view.



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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898673 - 09/27/13 01:15 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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Grigore said:
I am starting to understand what is happening with me,maybe,the drug that my psychiatrist prescribed to me might improve my state of mind.(risperidone)



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I am starting to understand what is happening with me,maybe,the drug that my psychiatrist prescribed to me might improve my state of mind.(risperidone)





I think its doing that.  I'm noticing, and dont take this as rude, that you're more lucid and coherent than before.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Uzziel]
    #18898675 - 09/27/13 01:15 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I feel like 2 opposite types of persons,sometimes,there's the good guy telling me what to do and say,sometimes,there's the bad guy that makes me want to kill,torture and rape people/animals.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898693 - 09/27/13 01:19 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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I feel like 2 opposite types of persons,sometimes,there's the good guy telling me what to do and say,sometimes,there's the bad guy that makes me want to kill,torture and rape people/animals.





I thought this was semi-normal though?

I've always lived this way, I secretly sometimes want to kill people, and have made plans when I was a teen.

Doesnt everyone have these feelings and they just learn to control them?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898761 - 09/27/13 01:37 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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Grigore said:
I am who I want to be.I am not crazy,I am just myself and everyone that I want to be.
I am rarely feeling any emotion,when I do so,I'm either depressed or laughing with no reason.
I feel followed,I feel like people know where I am,I feel like people can read my mind when I look into their eyes.
I want to mutilate myself and,actually,I do so periodically by cutting my veins or other forms of self-mutilation.
I feel the uncontrollable urge of killing and raping people,I feel the urge of stealing and burning things.
I have near 0 confidence in myself and I trust no one,not even myself,sometimes.
What is wrong with me? hm,nothing is wrong with me,but most people think that I have a problem,everybody has problems,what do you think about me? Am I crazy?





I'd say you're either slightly disturbed in some way (not meant offensively at all :highfive:) or more likely are just a little disjointed from humanity.

Next time you feel like raping a girl, why don't you just talk to her and find out about what's special to her, what she wants for her future, etc.

Start doing something you can see measurable progress at. Confidence will come.


I was bulemic, suicidal, and a cutter for part of high school. I got back in touch with humanity as I won friends from Cross Country, etc. and was a hit/was very sought-after in college too (hopefully this holes true wehn I go back).

What was everyone's favorite part about me? That I'm one of the most normal SEEMING people they've ever met but that I'm definitely THE CRAAAZIEST person they've ever met.


Don't mistake the symptoms and downfalls being crazy exposes you to with actually being crazy. Crazy as a personality type can definitely be in a good way.






I'm NOT a fan of pharms but I've met people on Risperdol who've been on it for 30+ years who are fine, so you're at least not at any risk. And wouldn't it be great to get to be wonky but still have full control of your life and the influence and respect of and from other people that comes with it?


Would you guess it's more secondary to mood or psychiatric/psychotic?



It worries me your idea of torturing animals, but I've been vegetarian for 5 years and I want to go boar hunting. Many men when at their most candid will admit it's fun to kill shit. Look at human history... we at least have some tendency toward that. At LEAST.

That said, I think it'd be fun to kill a boar. I wouldn't want it to suffer though. Why do you think you want to torture people/animals?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: EdibleStereos]
    #18898780 - 09/27/13 01:42 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I would say that it sounds like you have some psychotic form of obsessive-compulsive personality disorder, but I'm no shrink. :freud:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898788 - 09/27/13 01:43 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)



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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: rulesq]
    #18898815 - 09/27/13 01:49 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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Don't worry... Everyone says that about people who open up their personal lives and problems on here.

Secondary to that is being called egotistical. Don't worry about that; worry about wanting to torture animals.



Risperidone was regarded as the most gentle antipsychotic that still had high efficacy until Invega, one of it's metabolites (paliperidone IIRC) came to market.

How are your side effects?

If Wiccan noticed you being more coherent thanks to some medicine, don't take that lightly. It may really help empower you.



I've self-mutilated (bit of a strong word tho) in the past, but not extensively. Twice at 16 and once at 23, more to try it and see if I'd feel better than anything else, although I tend to feel really bad about myself and feel like I deserve that kind of thing.

Is that why you do it? Why do you think you're doing it recurrently?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18898844 - 09/27/13 01:57 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Yeah I'm just busting OP's balls a bit.. :datass:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18898846 - 09/27/13 01:58 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

When I kill an animal,I feel like I help him get rid of all the problems and worries that he has,I feel like I help him release himself from this agonizing world.After that I rape him because I enjoy fucking dead things.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: rulesq]
    #18898853 - 09/27/13 01:59 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

You are kind of exaggerating at making fun of someone that needs help.
This is also not as wise as you might think.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898861 - 09/27/13 02:03 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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When I kill an animal,I feel like I help him get rid of all the problems and worries that he has,I feel like I help him release himself from this agonizing world.After that I rape him because I enjoy fucking dead things.





Forgive me as my trolldar exploded in my face when I read that.


If you've ever stuck your dick in a dead animal, I think you know the answer to your questions.



And that's coming from someone who doesn't have anything against bestiality itself (but who does think it's gross and would never do it).


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898878 - 09/27/13 02:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

:shrug:

What can I say.. Your previous threads have been somewhat non-sensical IMO, and I'm still having a hard time trying to decide whether or not to take you seriously..
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st1llnox said:
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Grigore said:
When I kill an animal,I feel like I help him get rid of all the problems and worries that he has,I feel like I help him release himself from this agonizing world.After that I rape him because I enjoy fucking dead things.





Forgive me as my trolldar exploded in my face when I read that.


If you've ever stuck your dick in a dead animal, I think you know the answer to your questions.



And that's coming from someone who doesn't have anything against bestiality itself (but who does think it's gross and would never do it).



Qft. OP is a :classictroll:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: rulesq]
    #18898882 - 09/27/13 02:08 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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rulesq said:
:shrug:

What can I say.. Your previous threads have been somewhat non-sensical IMO, and I'm still having a hard time trying to decide whether or not to take you seriously..
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st1llnox said:
Quote:

Grigore said:
When I kill an animal,I feel like I help him get rid of all the problems and worries that he has,I feel like I help him release himself from this agonizing world.After that I rape him because I enjoy fucking dead things.





Forgive me as my trolldar exploded in my face when I read that.


If you've ever stuck your dick in a dead animal, I think you know the answer to your questions.



And that's coming from someone who doesn't have anything against bestiality itself (but who does think it's gross and would never do it).



Qft. OP is a :classictroll:





I've never heard of anyone who self-harms going for a vein unless it's a suicide attempt, or more like suicidal gesture: wrist slitting, etc. has < 17% success rate.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18898887 - 09/27/13 02:09 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I don't know..everyone has its own fetishes,I don't feel crazy because I do what I do,maybe others,just like you,think that I'm quite sick,it is your opinion.
I just want to know what mental problem I might have.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18898895 - 09/27/13 02:11 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I've cut my veins 3 times until now and once ended in hospital because I lost too much blood as well as my conscious and a random person that was walking in the park saw me lying on the ground in a pile of blood(when this happened,I was also drunk) and called the ambulance.
I cut my veins because I'm addicted to the risk of ending up in hospital or losing my life.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898907 - 09/27/13 02:13 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

You sound unwell and have alot of symptoms (minus wanting to hurt animals and shit)  I had and I'm schizophrenic . I'm on Clozapine now (after trying 3 other failed anti-psychotics) and it's helping massively.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898910 - 09/27/13 02:14 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

:awedisgust:

You're one sick fuck, dude.

But still, I think you're full of shit :shrug:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18898912 - 09/27/13 02:15 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Quote:

st1llnox said:
Quote:

rulesq said:
:shrug:

What can I say.. Your previous threads have been somewhat non-sensical IMO, and I'm still having a hard time trying to decide whether or not to take you seriously..
Quote:

st1llnox said:
Quote:

Grigore said:
When I kill an animal,I feel like I help him get rid of all the problems and worries that he has,I feel like I help him release himself from this agonizing world.After that I rape him because I enjoy fucking dead things.





Forgive me as my trolldar exploded in my face when I read that.


If you've ever stuck your dick in a dead animal, I think you know the answer to your questions.



And that's coming from someone who doesn't have anything against bestiality itself (but who does think it's gross and would never do it).



Qft. OP is a :classictroll:





I've never heard of anyone who self-harms going for a vein unless it's a suicide attempt, or more like suicidal gesture: wrist slitting, etc. has < 17% success rate.




I had a stint of pretty bad self harm, mostly burning though. In the hospital though I dug at the vein in my wrist with some foil and a pin I found. I wasn't suicidal exactly, I just wanted to see the blood.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: daz01]
    #18898925 - 09/27/13 02:18 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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Grigore said:
I don't know..everyone has its own fetishes,I don't feel crazy because I do what I do,maybe others,just like you,think that I'm quite sick,it is your opinion.
I just want to know what mental problem I might have.





Crazy/sane/sick(in it's psychological sense) are relative terms to one's place in the collective.

You wanted to know our opinions. Killing something and fucking it indicates an alarming disconnection with the most basic of norms at best man. You asked for opinions and you're getting em, that's all man.


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I've cut my veins 3 times until now and once ended in hospital because I lost too much blood as well as my conscious and a random person that was walking in the park saw me lying on the ground in a pile of blood(when this happened,I was also drunk) and called the ambulance.
I cut my veins because I'm addicted to the risk of ending up in hospital or losing my life.





When my parents were running (read: ruining) my life by staying at a hotel in college with me and using finances and hospitalization as leverage, I did this with pills sort of kind of.



You can get and feel so much better. Take the steps man. Own your life. Own your mind. Get in control and become vigorous instead of transient. :vibin: :awesomenod:
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You sound unwell and have alot of symptoms (minus wanting to hurt animals and shit)  I had and I'm schizophrenic . I'm on Clozapine now (after trying 3 other failed anti-psychotics) and it's helping massively.






Dangerous drug, but I'm glad you're doing better. You tried anything unconventional? I can't remember the name of it right now but there's another that starts with a C that's probably the dirtiest drug I've ever seen in a medical textbook. That might be/probably is it though.

Is that the one they won't dispense Stateside if they haven't gotten that month's blood test back?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: daz01]
    #18898927 - 09/27/13 02:19 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

So,do you think that I'm schizophrenic?
I don't have the delusions that a schizophrenic has,I think.
Also,I don't hear voices but I desperately want to.


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    #18898948 - 09/27/13 02:26 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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I am who I want to be.I am not crazy,I am just myself and everyone that I want to be.
I am rarely feeling any emotion,when I do so,I'm either depressed or laughing with no reason.
I feel followed,I feel like people know where I am,I feel like people can read my mind when I look into their eyes.
I want to mutilate myself and,actually,I do so periodically by cutting my veins or other forms of self-mutilation.
I feel the uncontrollable urge of killing and raping people,I feel the urge of stealing and burning things.
I have near 0 confidence in myself and I trust no one,not even myself,sometimes.
What is wrong with me? hm,nothing is wrong with me,but most people think that I have a problem,everybody has problems,what do you think about me? Am I crazy?




Yes sounds crazy...

you should stop all drug use for a while(several months) if what you just wrote is true, it might not be reversible  if you continue

those thoughts can control your whole life , if you let them be you

and see a doc too

from your other posts I would say you are either looking for attention, or crazy, or both


btw .. yourself isn't everyone else that you want to be
yourself is yourself, your inner being, and you're not yourself if you are what you described above, you're something else (your thoughts)
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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18898954 - 09/27/13 02:27 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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So,do you think that I'm schizophrenic?
I don't have the delusions that a schizophrenic has,I think.
Also,I don't hear voices but I desperately want to.




I think you're more on the personality side, in my amateur opinion, than on the psychiatric side.

These labels are simply categories, and represent oversimplifications, but you might have an extreme case of Borderline Personality.

Some of your symptoms are congruent with Sociopathy or Antisocial Personality too, but personality "disorders" are not my area of specialty.



What I can tell you though that is almost certain to turn your life around if you let it is DBT. Dialectical Behavioral Therapy.

It helps you understand and realize how to deal with those dualities in life, such as that the animal may suffer but that killing it to prevent it from suffering is making it suffer.


That said, I've had a very hard time not lashing out at you for that. You realize how off-base that is, right? I've had a shitty couple years but I start an awesome new job soon and am going back to college soon after, but my grandpa just died and I'm sad.

Would killing me do ANY sort of good whatsoever?



Look up "utilitarian ethics".


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18898978 - 09/27/13 02:33 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Killing an animal calms me,few seconds of pain are much more worth than a lifetime of suffering,hunting or being hunted and eventually dying of a disease or age.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18898983 - 09/27/13 02:35 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

You sound unwell and have alot of symptoms I had and I'm schizophrenic. I'm on Clozapine now (after trying 3 other failed anti-psychotics) and it's helping massively. 
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I don't know..everyone has its own fetishes,I don't feel crazy because I do what I do,maybe others,just like you,think that I'm quite sick,it is your opinion.
I just want to know what mental problem I might have.





Crazy/sane/sick(in it's psychological sense) are relative terms to one's place in the collective.

You wanted to know our opinions. Killing something and fucking it indicates an alarming disconnection with the most basic of norms at best man. You asked for opinions and you're getting em, that's all man.


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I've cut my veins 3 times until now and once ended in hospital because I lost too much blood as well as my conscious and a random person that was walking in the park saw me lying on the ground in a pile of blood(when this happened,I was also drunk) and called the ambulance.
I cut my veins because I'm addicted to the risk of ending up in hospital or losing my life.





When my parents were running (read: ruining) my life by staying at a hotel in college with me and using finances and hospitalization as leverage, I did this with pills sort of kind of.



You can get and feel so much better. Take the steps man. Own your life. Own your mind. Get in control and become vigorous instead of transient. :vibin: :awesomenod:
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You sound unwell and have alot of symptoms (minus wanting to hurt animals and shit)  I had and I'm schizophrenic . I'm on Clozapine now (after trying 3 other failed anti-psychotics) and it's helping massively.






Dangerous drug, but I'm glad you're doing better. You tried anything unconventional? I can't remember the name of it right now but there's another that starts with a C that's probably the dirtiest drug I've ever seen in a medical textbook. That might be/probably is it though.

Is that the one they won't dispense Stateside if they haven't gotten that month's blood test back?




Yeah, you need weekly/fortnightly/monthly (depending on how long you've been on it for) blood test because Agranulocytosis may develop


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: lessismore]
    #18898985 - 09/27/13 02:35 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I don't understand but I don't even want to understand the reason that determines me to want not to get better,I want to be even more crazy than I am/might be right now.Is this a symptom of a disease or I'm an unique case?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: daz01]
    #18898998 - 09/27/13 02:38 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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Killing an animal calms me,few seconds of pain are much more worth than a lifetime of suffering,hunting or being hunted and eventually dying of a disease or age.




You're extrapolating; life is not at all like that for most people or entities.

You're making it that way and robbing them of the job the future may have brought them.



If life was really, by and large, like that AT ALL, wouldn't we just have collectively committed suicide at some point?




Therapy man. Stay on that medicine and see if therapy helps you.

People who do and act like you do end up sometimes spending their lives in State Psychiatric Asylums and then group homes (if they're lucky) if they don't do something about it. It's not inevitable, but it's a possibility.
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You sound unwell and have alot of symptoms I had and I'm schizophrenic. I'm on Clozapine now (after trying 3 other failed anti-psychotics) and it's helping massively. 
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Grigore said:
I don't know..everyone has its own fetishes,I don't feel crazy because I do what I do,maybe others,just like you,think that I'm quite sick,it is your opinion.
I just want to know what mental problem I might have.





Crazy/sane/sick(in it's psychological sense) are relative terms to one's place in the collective.

You wanted to know our opinions. Killing something and fucking it indicates an alarming disconnection with the most basic of norms at best man. You asked for opinions and you're getting em, that's all man.


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Grigore said:
I've cut my veins 3 times until now and once ended in hospital because I lost too much blood as well as my conscious and a random person that was walking in the park saw me lying on the ground in a pile of blood(when this happened,I was also drunk) and called the ambulance.
I cut my veins because I'm addicted to the risk of ending up in hospital or losing my life.





When my parents were running (read: ruining) my life by staying at a hotel in college with me and using finances and hospitalization as leverage, I did this with pills sort of kind of.



You can get and feel so much better. Take the steps man. Own your life. Own your mind. Get in control and become vigorous instead of transient. :vibin: :awesomenod:
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You sound unwell and have alot of symptoms (minus wanting to hurt animals and shit)  I had and I'm schizophrenic . I'm on Clozapine now (after trying 3 other failed anti-psychotics) and it's helping massively.






Dangerous drug, but I'm glad you're doing better. You tried anything unconventional? I can't remember the name of it right now but there's another that starts with a C that's probably the dirtiest drug I've ever seen in a medical textbook. That might be/probably is it though.

Is that the one they won't dispense Stateside if they haven't gotten that month's blood test back?




Yeah, you need weekly/fortnightly/monthly (depending on how long you've been on it for) blood test because Agranulocytosis may develop





Okay, that's the one; chemical name chlorazepam or some sort of benzo-deceptive title, right?

That's what I was going to suggest as afar as "unconventional" (not to be confused with atypical) if everything else really failed, but it seems like it's doing you some good. Happy for you :highfive:. Just be sooooper careful :wink:  You may explore other, more benign antipsychs that have some of the same actions as that but that don't carry as much risk. Just my 2 cents :awesomenod:

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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: st1llnox]
    #18899007 - 09/27/13 02:40 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

What is making me not want to get therapy? I'm getting curious.
I feel like everything is fine,but in the same time I know that something might be wrong,but I want it to be even more ''wrong'' than it is already,I want the situation to get worse not better,why do I feel the urge of thinking this way and wanting this?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899012 - 09/27/13 02:43 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Find a Therapist who will administer a psychological test scantron style, that will show what disorder you have.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899017 - 09/27/13 02:44 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

i now call semi-troll/attention whore on this. I've tried PMing this user and have watched his threads.

I believe he is disturbed. But at this point wants the attention his problems bring, not the help.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899021 - 09/27/13 02:47 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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When I kill an animal,I feel like I help him get rid of all the problems and worries that he has,I feel like I help him release himself from this agonizing world.After that I rape him because I enjoy fucking dead things.




Ah, so we are dealing with an internet troll.

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    #18899025 - 09/27/13 02:48 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I smell a wannabe Jeffrey Dahmer






















Or a lameass troll..


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    #18899028 - 09/27/13 02:48 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I've answered your PM that I haven't read because I forgot about it until you reminded me of it in this post.
I don't want the attention,as I said,I want the help to become worse and I'm feeling worried that I'm actually getting better,maybe,because of risperdal.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Uzziel]
    #18899040 - 09/27/13 02:51 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Where's :Prisoner1: when you need him :crankey:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: rulesq]
    #18899047 - 09/27/13 02:52 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

are you talking about mellowparty or..what do you mean?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899058 - 09/27/13 02:54 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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I've answered your PM that I haven't read because I forgot about it until you reminded me of it in this post.
I don't want the attention,as I said,I want the help to become worse and I'm feeling worried that I'm actually getting better,maybe,because of risperdal.





But if you don't want the attention, why make so many threads?

If you aren't trolling, then I think you need to consider the attention seeking aspect of your disorder and see how that plays into your actions.

But as it stands, if you arent a troll, then you seem unaware of how your behaviours appear and you need to spend more time actually thinking of the root of these feelings.

I'd be willing to say there is a 95% chance that you have been severely emotionally or physically abused, or you have been sexually abused.

However, everyone I've met that has even approached the feelings you have described has been sexually abused as a child.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899059 - 09/27/13 02:54 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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    #18899092 - 09/27/13 03:02 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

You are right...I've been severely psychically and emotionally abused by my father,lucky me I wasn't sexually abused.
I know that something inside me craves for attention,I want to feel loved,I'm scared of losing my close friends,the problem is that I don't even have them,I talk with myself,I imagine myself being a specific person and talking with who I think I am while being that person.I am in a desperate situation,but,the single thing that I want to know is why I want to suffer even more,why I want to be in an even worse situation,what makes me want that?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899123 - 09/27/13 03:10 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

GO ASK A FUCKING DOCTOR :crankey:

You really think you're going to find an answer here?



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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: rulesq]
    #18899133 - 09/27/13 03:13 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I don't have money to go to a doctor and...by the way,I like talking with you :smile: (with all of you :laugh:)


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899144 - 09/27/13 03:15 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

It's normal not to want to get better when you're living with your delusions

but suddenly those delusions take over your life and your mind
and you might start to get voices in your head too that never silence
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You are right...I've been severely psychically and emotionally abused by my father,lucky me I wasn't sexually abused.
I know that something inside me craves for attention,I want to feel loved,I'm scared of losing my close friends,the problem is that I don't even have them,I talk with myself,I imagine myself being a specific person and talking with who I think I am while being that person.I am in a desperate situation,but,the single thing that I want to know is why I want to suffer even more,why I want to be in an even worse situation,what makes me want that?




Simple

Not being yourself, but thinking you are yourself

If you are possessed, or living as your thoughts and thinking they are you, you will do anything they say to you

No matter what they say

If you are delusional it is normal to like your delusions,  until they suddenly become too scary, might not happen right away, but suddenly you might get voices in your head too that can be scary etc.
Schizophrenics usually don't enjoy it, I wouldn't recommend it to you, you have to live with it for your whole life.

It's better to be yourself, and that is only possible without drugs/pills/stress
you have to turn off all those thoughts to be yourself

Drugs give you more thoughts usually

Weed everyday gave me many of those thoughts you mention, but at the time I knew they weren't me
luckily I quit, haven't been depressed since I smoked everyday
and the thoughts disappeared... don't miss them

Life is easier/more enjoyable with a quiet mind than one with 100 thoughts a second and paranoia..


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899159 - 09/27/13 03:18 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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You are right...I've been severely psychically and emotionally abused by my father,lucky me I wasn't sexually abused.
I know that something inside me craves for attention,I want to feel loved,I'm scared of losing my close friends,the problem is that I don't even have them,I talk with myself,I imagine myself being a specific person and talking with who I think I am while being that person.I am in a desperate situation,but,the single thing that I want to know is why I want to suffer even more,why I want to be in an even worse situation,what makes me want that?





I cant speak for anyone else.

But for me, I felt like I deserved bad things because it was all I knew. I felt comfortable in it. And when I would feel bad, I'd do things to hurt myself because I just thought that was how things went.

If pain and suffering is what you grew up with, then that will be what you know. And leaves people feeling unworthy of love.

For me the first step in dealing with shit, was realizing the people who did evil things to me instilled their evil in me as well. And if I didnt recognize that trait in myself and avoid letting it get control, then I was bound to continue the cycle by hurting others and putting my evil in them.

You sound real lost though. What non destructive things make you happy?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: lessismore]
    #18899168 - 09/27/13 03:20 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

How close am I to hearing voices in my head?

I must mention that tonight I took a dump in the central park,behind a tree and a group of people were walking in the park and they were talking and I was hearing that they were saying something like:''He is still there'' and ''You can see him'' but they weren't even walking towards me,they were walking in the opposite direction,it was really confusing,how could they see me or..how could have I hallucinate that they saw me there and talked about me,I also became paranoid.What do you think about this?


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    #18899180 - 09/27/13 03:23 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

When I'm sad in the ''good way'' I like helping others,but when I'm sad in the ''bad way'' I want to hurt others.
I'm either depressed,have no emotion or burst into laughter with no reason,being relaxed and things like that until I get depressed again and then the cycle repeats.
No non-destructive thing makes me happy.
Things that consist in risking my life,health make me feel good,activities that cause adrenaline also make me feel good.


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    #18899197 - 09/27/13 03:26 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Meanwhile in southern Louisiana...



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    #18899221 - 09/27/13 03:31 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Check your PM grigore.


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    #18899266 - 09/27/13 03:41 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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I'm forced by ''society'' to see a psychiatrist actually. (and I do so)



Society can't make you do shit, and when someone is judging you and you get angry is kinda dumb especially since you said you wanted to be crazy in the first place and pass on judgment to yourself. 

People say I have no emotional reaction in my eyes buI don't put a second of thought into it like you are.

Human nature seems to judge others.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: dark3st]
    #18899280 - 09/27/13 03:44 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I was embarrassed by the fact that I'm still financially dependent to my parents,being financially dependent to them obliges me to do what they tell me to do...
I almost never get mad.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899285 - 09/27/13 03:46 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

You have contradicted almost everything you have said

You almost never get angry yet you still want to kill people and set things on fire?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: dark3st]
    #18899295 - 09/27/13 03:49 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Yes,I almost never get angry but sometimes I have the unexplained urge to kill people and set things on fire because it makes me feel very good.(never killed a person,just set many things on fire)
When I get mad,I get mad inside me,I never unleash my anger.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: dark3st]
    #18899297 - 09/27/13 03:49 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Obvious troll is obvious :shrug:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: rulesq]
    #18899310 - 09/27/13 03:52 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Your strong beliefs that consist in ME,being a troll,are getting mainstream and puerile.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: dark3st]
    #18899312 - 09/27/13 03:53 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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You have contradicted almost everything you have said

You almost never get angry yet you still want to kill people and set things on fire?





Yeah dude. You don't feel angry often when your average feelings are already on the negative end of the spectrum. For me anyways, maybe him too.


When I was younger I would destroy things and fuck with people because I just thought it was interesting.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: EdibleStereos]
    #18899317 - 09/27/13 03:54 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

exactly. xD


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899321 - 09/27/13 03:55 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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I am who I want to be.I am not crazy,I am just myself and everyone that I want to be.
I am rarely feeling any emotion,when I do so,I'm either depressed or laughing with no reason.
I feel followed,I feel like people know where I am,I feel like people can read my mind when I look into their eyes.
I want to mutilate myself and,actually,I do so periodically by cutting my veins or other forms of self-mutilation.
I feel the uncontrollable urge of killing and raping people,I feel the urge of stealing and burning things.
I have near 0 confidence in myself and I trust no one,not even myself,sometimes.
What is wrong with me? hm,nothing is wrong with me,but most people think that I have a problem,everybody has problems,what do you think about me? Am I crazy?




Ya it sounds a lot like BPD.


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    #18899328 - 09/27/13 03:57 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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Meanwhile in southern Louisiana...






Monroe is actually part of Northern Louisiana...


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18899358 - 09/27/13 04:05 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Meh, it was sweet til it lasted. I'm just going to ignore your posts from now on.

Not putting you on ignore though, just gonna skim thru and not post to your threads.

Buhh bye


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: rulesq]
    #18899375 - 09/27/13 04:10 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Sorry that I disappointed you for not being a troll.
After all,what it really matters,is that no matter what happens,I love you. :heart:


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: JamesSpawned]
    #18900380 - 09/27/13 07:59 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Touché.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18903068 - 09/28/13 02:40 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I knew someone that had a similar problem. He felt as if people were plotting against him without him knowing, that at each second there was someone else that was trying to destroy him before he destroyed them, he also did think that the CIA was trying to tap into his mind to discover who he was, they started to find out personal info about him and used it to try to screw with his head.

They also started planting information that he had never originally been born in Cuba, that he was originally born in New York, and not only that, but also that he was two years older than what the doctors told him. So he went through his entire life thinking he was someone other than who he was. He didn't know it, but there were people in high places that were working around the clock to make him forget who he was, changing everything that was really him and becoming someone else.

Only when he first enrolled in Harvard did he find out that his entire life was fabricated by scientists and he was the most wanted man in the entire world. So what I say is you aren't crazy, you just have been told that you are crazy by people, but this craziness doesn't seem apparent to those who know that they are trying to purposely push the label crazy on someone that might not be...Though the wanting to murder random people might correlate to some sort of inner madness which might put you along the sides of Ted Bundy in future dates. You might have pre serial killer syndrome. Its a real disease, its about how when we are younger some people can already predict that they will grow up to be serial killers, and thus, they feel as if other people are aware of this too.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18903116 - 09/28/13 02:52 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

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I've cut my veins 3 times until now and once ended in hospital because I lost too much blood as well as my conscious and a random person that was walking in the park saw me lying on the ground in a pile of blood(when this happened,I was also drunk) and called the ambulance.
I cut my veins because I'm addicted to the risk of ending up in hospital or losing my life.



How do you pile blood?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18903127 - 09/28/13 02:57 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)

Maybe you have issues from being picked on alot of your life, you sound like one of those weird as people that are crazy from lack of acceptance.


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Fire is Born]
    #18906541 - 09/29/13 10:43 AM (10 years, 4 months ago)

slop of blood* sorry


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Chowder963]
    #18906543 - 09/29/13 10:44 AM (10 years, 4 months ago)

hm,I can't negate the fact that the lack of acceptance is driving me crazy a bit..


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Grigore]
    #18906563 - 09/29/13 10:50 AM (10 years, 4 months ago)

take that love, and start loving yourself.

ok?


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Re: My friends say that I might have a mental problem,what about you? [Re: Legend]
    #18906582 - 09/29/13 10:54 AM (10 years, 4 months ago)

I was being sarcastic when I said that I love him,I haven't felt the ''love'' emotion since my precedent reincarnation,maybe.


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