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Re: My CRAZY dreams [Re: xfsketch]
#18902393 - 09/28/13 11:20 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I was saying about the lab-rat thing.
I dont understand the whole concept of treating a mental disorder entirely. I dont drink at all hardly and when i got evaluated I used to smoke weed to calm the hypomania A.K.A. Self medicating with street drugs. Im more anti drug now then I was before due to the many different medicines Ive been on. The place I went for help only would let me in if I told them I was addicted to a substance. I think they tricked me. Either way i had no income so I told them what they needed to hear. I said I self medicated with mary and rarely drank. My psychologist later wouldnt believe me when I said I quit after I had started taking my meds. I would tell them constantly how much bullshit it is that mary was illegal for medicinal use here when it is legal in colorado (and other places) for even personal use and said to help with the symptoms of many illnesses yet its illegal here and I would go to jail id they catch a fair amount of it on me or buying it! The psych. Said then move to Colorado! Its been said that mary helps with bipolar disorder but may increase anxiety and depression which is why I stopped smoking it. However I still believe most docs are full of shit! I mean isnt it in common knowledge that the first doctors were indian medicine men and shamans? Its said that the Amanita Muscaria is actually the reason we have an easter bunny, popes dress like a mushroom, flying reindeer and santa claus. I believe a doctor is just a person who studies and tells. They dont know from experience that often. They just google that shit or look it up in their college books/notebooks and then tell you about it. Its said that psychedelic mushrooms may help people with mental illness yet I would go to jail if I got caught trying to do this! Everything has gone backwards in the medical profession as far as a shaman, medicine man or Wiccan is concerned.
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Re: My CRAZY dreams [Re: xfsketch]
#18902415 - 09/28/13 11:25 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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TY thats very kind of you to say. I hope as well you find some happiness before the end!
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Re: My CRAZY dreams [Re: xfsketch]
#18902664 - 09/28/13 12:36 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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xfsketch said: I was saying about the lab-rat thing.
I dont understand the whole concept of treating a mental disorder entirely. I dont drink at all hardly and when i got evaluated I used to smoke weed to calm the hypomania A.K.A. Self medicating with street drugs. Im more anti drug now then I was before due to the many different medicines Ive been on. The place I went for help only would let me in if I told them I was addicted to a substance. I think they tricked me. Either way i had no income so I told them what they needed to hear. I said I self medicated with mary and rarely drank. My psychologist later wouldnt believe me when I said I quit after I had started taking my meds. I would tell them constantly how much bullshit it is that mary was illegal for medicinal use here when it is legal in colorado (and other places) for even personal use and said to help with the symptoms of many illnesses yet its illegal here and I would go to jail id they catch a fair amount of it on me or buying it! The psych. Said then move to Colorado! Its been said that mary helps with bipolar disorder but may increase anxiety and depression which is why I stopped smoking it. However I still believe most docs are full of shit! I mean isnt it in common knowledge that the first doctors were indian medicine men and shamans? Its said that the Amanita Muscaria is actually the reason we have an easter bunny, popes dress like a mushroom, flying reindeer and santa claus. I believe a doctor is just a person who studies and tells. They dont know from experience that often. They just google that shit or look it up in their college books/notebooks and then tell you about it. Its said that psychedelic mushrooms may help people with mental illness yet I would go to jail if I got caught trying to do this! Everything has gone backwards in the medical profession as far as a shaman, medicine man or Wiccan is concerned.
When I came to Shroomery I was full on enthnobotanicals, but after Katrina I lost my long collected peyote pot and lost a bit of interest. They used to have cool weird growers here like Una in Amsterdam who grew peyotes in agar in glass cases. You can still search his threads. While you're at it read Chinacat72s piece on getting fingerprinted. And Maurice at Shaman stuff is full on knowledgeable. And you'll know that the brain can have too much neurotransmitters as too little, and how those neurotransmitter fire off is all important. Caapi helps make stomach enzymes allow neuroactive chems and some other things work on every element of the brain. Shamans knew how to treat mental states. Things like muscaria also are more empty states like caapi and aya which clear the mind, sometimes leaving one depleted for days or weeks yet clean and balanced. Not all biochemical are for euphoric states. So yes the knowledge is rare but it's there.
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Re: My CRAZY dreams [Re: eve69]
#18903191 - 09/28/13 03:16 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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TY fir the info eve69 I appreciate your reply I will look into una and others you mentioned
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Re: My CRAZY dreams [Re: xfsketch]
#18905910 - 09/29/13 06:03 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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They were just for your fun. You shouldn't have deleted your post. That makes the rest of this meaningless. Nobody on Earth knows who you are and that you wrote that. Don't be shy.
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Re: My CRAZY dreams [Re: xfsketch]
#18906398 - 09/29/13 09:59 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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xfsketch said: Ive been having suicidal thoughts even before taking zoloft for 6 years so it doesnt bother me as much. [...]
Thinking about suicide objectively -- why is it that people think to do it? It's because they're thinking suicide is going to take them out of the suffering they're feeling. But why do they think that? They don't have any evidence that that belief is true. In fact, people who have had near death experiences from trying to commit suicide have reported just the opposite -- they went to a place where their suffering was worse. They said that violence against others, or against yourself, ended up in a worse situation, after death, than what you were trying to get away from.
Who wouldn't kill themselves if it was certain that you'd end up in a better place afterwards?
It seems that we have to find a non-violent way to solve our problems or they're not going to get solved.
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Its a symptom of severe depression. like i dont want to kill myself but I want to die. " Everybody wants to go to heaven, Nobody wants to go to hell! " I have been thinking of ways out that I have no part in. Either way I want out sometimes so point taken. I always fear i will meet our creator and it will be mad at me for all the times I wanted to give up.
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Re: My CRAZY dreams [Re: xfsketch]
#18906580 - 09/29/13 10:54 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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your rigt if heaven was guaranteed people would kill themselves to go on vacation so to speak lol.
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