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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: st1llnox]
#18886331 - 09/24/13 07:20 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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The rating you left me was bullshit. I wasn't trolling I was telling the truth. You can't have your little ego hurt so you give me a bad rating but here's NY proof.
http://m.livescience.com/11208-high-suicide-risk-prejudice-plague-transgender-people.html
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: dark3st]
#18886439 - 09/24/13 07:51 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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dark3st said: The rating you left me was bullshit. I wasn't trolling I was telling the truth. You can't have your little ego hurt so you give me a bad rating but here's NY proof.
http://m.livescience.com/11208-high-suicide-risk-prejudice-plague-transgender-people.html
I'm not transgender . I'm an appallingly masculine gay man. If you were genuinely mistaken, I'll actually be happy to fix your rating, believe it or not . That said, it goes without saying how that looked like you were implying I was a tranny. I can take shit, believe me (citation: go to my profile and click "main posts only" lol) but the jab at me AND the marginalization of a tremendously disadvantaged minority was downright infuriating to me. Some people aren't male-female, straight, masculine-feminine respectively. I'm oen of them (gay man) and I take care of my own. Last guy that called me a fag without being facetious got grabbed by the neck and thrown down a (short) flight of stairs.
He never called me a fag again and we became fast friends. It's good being a male, although the transexuals I've met are very nice people, especially given their stature in mainstream society.
Even though I'm gay and not tranny, your contention does actually apply to me (you got 0shroomed, taken down to 1/5 from 2/5 weighted btw, because you picked on the most defenseless minority there is). Even just being gay and not tranny, we are more prone to drug addiction than any other population last I checked (circa '09). 60% of us smoke cigarettes compared to ~25% compared to the general population.
The high suicide rate applies to gays too. I was featured in a local newspaper for an event that was even covered by The Advocate (the Shroomery of GLBT) when in 2009, we put a flag in our campus's quad for every gay suicide in the united states in the last calendar year.
We put nearly 2,000 flags down. When we finished, I looked out at the swaying sea of red flags and cried my fucking eyes out because I'd been there and frankly only survived because my suicide note got so long it turned into a crude philosophical text.
If you'd like to know what it's like to not only be the odd man out in your group of pretty much all straight guys, but also a misfit in your own community (I do not fit in with "gays" in the colloquial sense), I wrote in length about it in S&R.
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/18586882#18586882
That said, do you have a good reason for me not to think you're just covering your ass with that 'concern for trannies'? What indicated to you I might be transexual? I have a signature addressing how my dick pics are going to blot out the sun in a meme secondary to one of the most blithely testosterone-drenched movies of the last decade.
I'm a chump who is prone to apologizing to people who don't deserve it and I don't know any better and can't help it, so burden of proof is on you. I'll take you back up to at least 2/5 for now though.
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: st1llnox]
#18886460 - 09/24/13 07:57 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Ya I honestly thought you were transgender and swore I read that in anouther thread so my bad, but I was honestly trying to get you to see that it is possible your not fully seeing your problem (one that's not their now you'd explained)
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: dark3st]
#18886476 - 09/24/13 07:59 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm fine with bad ratings as long as they are legit like almost none are because they think I'm trolling when I'm saying what I want to say without social norms getting in the way
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: st1llnox]
#18886490 - 09/24/13 08:01 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Actually, I'm not going to until you show me that you understand how comparing transvestite to "normal" is perpetuating their extremely marginalized status in society. Or at least acknowledge it.
Just so you know, I study computer science and philosophy with an emphasis in both classical philosophy and formal logic/predicate calculus kinda stuff (I don't usually say the latter because I'm perceived as being an egotist too much already) and I'm currently engaged, while I'm not at university, in both trying to empirically prove a trivial theorem that, if I play dirty, could make me the person with the highest known finite Erdos number if I can publish even in an undergrad journal and I'm also testing some of Stephen Wolfram's theories with a bit of chaos theory thrown in with a cellular automata engine I wrote myself in C++ and SDL2 that I'll be analyzing computationally as soon as I implement Kasomethingov's metric for complexity as per a former professors recommendation (I haven't even looked into that metric and its associated algorithm yet, so no credit for this).
Why am I telling you this? Because god damn is it hard for me to rate someone 0/5 who's got a novel cipher he's worked on for over a year including an outstanding prize for whoever can crack it.
You better hope someone claims the prize before I get a Nvidia chip with CUDA cores 
If I've got such an inherent affinity to you (which I do), why then do I rate you so low? Because I've seen people finally resort to attempted suicide for less than what you threw at me (if you were trolling) and for less than you implied about transgendered individuals (this is the most PC term ATM I know of). Luckily none died. Including myself.
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: st1llnox]
#18886552 - 09/24/13 08:17 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I wish I knew programing so my cipher could be used and made on my computer without writing it down.
I really hope someone can solve it. I wish I could give a $200 prize but I'm poor as a motherfucker haha.
Also as I said I was misinformed. I didn't have all the information and I made the mistake of opening my mouth before knowledge on the subject has been made clear.
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: dark3st]
#18886764 - 09/24/13 09:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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dark3st said: I wish I knew programing so my cipher could be used and made on my computer without writing it down.
I really hope someone can solve it. I wish I could give a $200 prize but I'm poor as a motherfucker haha.
Also as I said I was misinformed. I didn't have all the information and I made the mistake of opening my mouth before knowledge on the subject has been made clear.
How about you apologize to the Transvestite community and suddenly get your own programming tutor, with experience in healthcare IT (you haven't seen cryptography till you've dealt with HIPPA) and who's since both taught fundamental computer science courses and published in computational genomics (find us a more interesting code than DNA and I'll eat my nicotine patches ).
Anything computational regarding cryptography both threatens the security and enables absolutely stupid amounts of complexity to be introduced into the cipher.
If you'd worked on the cipher for a year in a computational context, offering the shroomery a prize for solving it would be like imposing a "no knives" rule for dealing with the Gordian Knot .
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: dark3st]
#18886766 - 09/24/13 09:07 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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dark3st said: I wish I knew programing so my cipher could be used and made on my computer without writing it down.
I really hope someone can solve it. I wish I could give a $200 prize but I'm poor as a motherfucker haha.
Also as I said I was misinformed. I didn't have all the information and I made the mistake of opening my mouth before knowledge on the subject has been made clear.
Oh by the fucking way, why don't you answer to/address what I did like 3 posts about before I start liking you?
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: st1llnox]
#18887976 - 09/25/13 06:14 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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edit: whoops.
Edited by memes (09/25/13 06:17 AM)
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: memes]
#18888184 - 09/25/13 08:03 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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memes said: edit: whoops.
Hey please don't be so hard on me if you can help it in the future, BTW. I had you on ignore but frankly, you're a real contribution to the forums and don't want to miss out on that for the sake of self esteem
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: st1llnox]
#18901725 - 09/28/13 06:59 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Dude honestly you don't need more drugs or different drugs... You need less drugs.
Lets face it, they aren't helping you much if at all and are adding another large stress factor to your life.
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: limentroll]
#18908079 - 09/29/13 05:43 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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I disagree; its using the right ones and in moderation.
How's every RC in the world going for ya?
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: st1llnox]
#18908376 - 09/29/13 06:46 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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Going pretty well, I have great friends who love each other dearly, I go to a great school for what I am currently working on, and will most likely transfer once done.
For what drugs I have done and do I have to say I am impressed at my ability to consistently eat healthy meals. I am not surprised by how active I am haha- if I was any less active I would be a fatty!
The three worst drug use decisions and accidents for me in terms of health and mental capabilities would be: 1) Cannabis Addiction 2) Mixed Methylone/Mephedrone Addiction For a Short Period of Time 3) Accidental OD on 2C-I (200-300mg) ...Then Smoking Meth During The Trip
I take full responsibility for these fuck ups, and try to live my life in a manner that doesn't exacerbate underlying issues from these incidents.
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Re: Fuck I'm frustrated [Re: limentroll]
#18908413 - 09/29/13 06:54 PM (10 years, 3 months ago) |
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It was a super low blow but I was referring specifically to the #2 on your list we all know about in Warminati->DTC.
Weed is super underrated for its ability to derail your life.
You said it great that if you're using hard drugs, people will make sure you're okay but if you're ruining your life with weed... it's just weed.
I'm in a similar situation but not as far along: relearning math, starting an awesome new job that's gonna be killer on the resume doing what I love in so many ways (I'm dumbstruck how I ended up set to study Philosophy with a Psychiatrist!!! LOL)
I've pruned my friends pool a litlte bit and am not going super far out of my way to make more till I am back at Uni but I reconnected with a LOT of my old high school friends that are still in my hometown or came back and it's going great 
Sorry for being a dick in my reply. You have good intentions and a month ago you would've had an unambiguously 100% valid point (or 7 weeks and 2 days if you wanna go by DXM ).
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