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Grigore
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SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS 1
#18881051 - 09/23/13 03:27 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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It's the 5th day of the ambitious experiment that has currently ''helped'' me achieve my first psychotic episode. I haven't slept one second in these 5 meaningful days and ate ONE apple per day. (to keep the doctor away xD) I'm mentally exhausted,irrational paranoid thoughts consume me,using other words,I feel supervised,haunted by other people conscious. When I walk I'm very dizzy,patterns constantly move in front of me. Theoretically,I'm alone in my own house,but,today I've heard the first terrifying scream from the kitchen that chilled my bones. Oh,forgetting my sluggish thinking,I must mention that I hear my voice very loud,I hear it like I hear it when I talk with myself,also,I argue with myself about my paranoid thoughts,I NEVER WIN when I argue,I start hating myself,I look in the mirror,my grimaced face reveals the hate flowing through my veins,I hate who I become but I never accepted who I was before,I'm lost,I can't control my thoughts. Weird close eye visuals,no inhibition,starting to like screaming with no reason,it relieves my pain,just cut myself out of boredom with my kitchen knife,hurting myself to exhibit the fact that I'm still here,forgetting everything for a moment,more hallucinations,a couple is laying in my bed telling me to leave them alone,I feel ALONE,I'm expelled from my own house,I hear voices of people that I hate,I feel the presence of entities,my oblivion is the fuel of my childish curiosity,being lost in my darkest chambers of my own mind was never more intriguing. But I can't go on,this is not the life that I'm used to,I'm going to stop this madness,I'm going to fix this mess and go to sleep... Good night or better said,embrace reality,wish you good life.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18881063 - 09/23/13 03:30 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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that shit is super unhealthy.... go to bed sketch
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore] 1
#18881145 - 09/23/13 03:54 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Go to sleep dude.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Shroomism]
#18881164 - 09/23/13 03:57 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You're going to waste the next week catching up on sleep.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18881171 - 09/23/13 03:58 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Nighty night
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Amphetamines usually do that to ya.. night pal!!!
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: microdotty]
#18881198 - 09/23/13 04:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Go for another 5 days if you really want things to get interesting.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: volcomstoner] 2
#18881250 - 09/23/13 04:24 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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By the way, the pictures in your sig are hardly scary at all.
I'm so tortured that I have eyeballs in my hands and whole arms growing out of my eyeballs.
When I go to the dentist the hygenist asks me to close my mouth because she can't stand the darkness inside of me.
My skin is so pale and my tears are so black that my friends call me Poodle.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Me_Roy] 2
#18881258 - 09/23/13 04:26 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Me_Roy said: By the way, the pictures in your sig are hardly scary at all.
I'm so tortured that I have eyeballs in my hands and whole arms growing out of my eyeballs.
When I go to the dentist the hygenist asks me to close my mouth because she can't stand the darkness inside of me.
My skin is so pale and my tears are so black that my friends call me Poodle.
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Quote:
volcomstoner said: Go for another 5 days if you really want things to get interesting.
i endorse this statement
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: P-O]
#18881459 - 09/23/13 05:23 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hahaha this dude is making me lol.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18881494 - 09/23/13 05:34 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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It appears that OP wasn't serious about becoming a schizo&psycho. Otherwise he would've stayed up for at least another five days or so.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: rulesq]
#18885288 - 09/24/13 02:49 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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For fuck's sake,I was almost totally detached from reality and you are encouraging me to exaggerate even more,to go even more beyond the limit,you,sir,you are the person that determines me to stay 5 more days awake for your amusement.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18885300 - 09/24/13 02:51 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You must be really fucking bored to wasted a whole week on this.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18885307 - 09/24/13 02:52 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You wouldn't have been able to go 5 more days anyway. Your body would shut itself down way before that.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18885317 - 09/24/13 02:55 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Whatever, try-hard
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18885338 - 09/24/13 02:59 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Besides, do you really expect me to take you seriously? You claimed in the other thread that you became a schizo after your 5 day "session", yet you're here on a fucking internet msgboard making fucking ridiculous posts(which btw make way too much sense assumin you'd be a schizo).
Please stop trolling
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: rulesq]
#18885582 - 09/24/13 04:03 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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OP should start a web cam show.... how long can this guy dumbass stay awake for... and the chat room is allowed to hit a buzzer anytime he starts to drift to sleep.
...... fuck im stoned
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: P-O]
#18885660 - 09/24/13 04:18 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I found the OP extremely painful to read. It sounds like your brain is having trouble coping with the stress you've put on it, and is releasing it in such fascinating ways.

If you're trolling op good job
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18885694 - 09/24/13 04:26 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Seriously though, did you cut yourself or was that a delusion?
Take it easy, take some weeks off stimulants to recover.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18885741 - 09/24/13 04:40 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: For fuck's sake,I was almost totally detached from reality and you are encouraging me to exaggerate even more,to go even more beyond the limit,you,sir,you are the person that determines me to stay 5 more days awake for your amusement.
Hey don't be blaming other people just because your not man enough to stay awake for another 5 days, whatever your trying to accompish your not willing to do it right. Just a failure, might as well try nothing ambitious in life.
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Geez guys is it really absolutely necessary to make the OP feel even worse? He has a lot of recovering to do, have a heart.
Are you the kind of guys to mess with someones head when they're high?
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Asante]
#18885820 - 09/24/13 05:03 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've gone psychotic/paranoid before both from k2 and from psych meds that were supposed to help me with the myriad psychiatric disorders that you automatically probably have if you do drugs. I honestly miss that terrifying, irrational fear.
Life is so much more interesting when they're controlling the stoplights to try to intercept you before you get out of your college town (thanks Seroquel... that was a thrilling beginning to a missed semester )
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Asante]
#18885848 - 09/24/13 05:08 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Wiccan_Seeker said:
Are you the kind of guys to mess with someones head when they're high?
sadly yes
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: P-O]
#18885873 - 09/24/13 05:13 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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PostiveOutlook said:
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Wiccan_Seeker said:
Are you the kind of guys to mess with someones head when they're high?
sadly yes 
That's kind of cruel. They're coming to get him, after all...
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: P-O]
#18887744 - 09/25/13 03:10 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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that's a really nice idea,must buy a webcam first.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Asante]
#18887753 - 09/25/13 03:14 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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It was not a delusion,when I was staying in the kitchen looking at the floor and waiting for something to happen,I imagined myself feeling something,I imagined pain,in that precise moment,I started missing that feeling,the temptation grew and I knew that I'm gonna use the kitchen knife in order to finish my miserable life. But courage,I didn't have,so,I managed to make only 1 little stab.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18887814 - 09/25/13 03:48 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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If I didn't have to sleep, I wouldn't. Some props OP, it takes some of what I'd call, discipline, to do that. I can hardly make it past 24 hours.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore]
#18887865 - 09/25/13 04:45 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: It was not a delusion,when I was staying in the kitchen looking at the floor and waiting for something to happen,I imagined myself feeling something,I imagined pain,in that precise moment,I started missing that feeling,the temptation grew and I knew that I'm gonna use the kitchen knife in order to finish my miserable life. But courage,I didn't have,so,I managed to make only 1 little stab.
Hey man, I probably care a lot more about you than most people posting here.
Get some sleep, give yourself a break from amps if thats what you're doing and get off the shroomery for a bit. Your first post was really disturbing to be honest. Not in a scary way, but in more of a "I care about the sake of you" kind of way.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Everything]
#18888258 - 09/25/13 08:30 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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ive often wondered how dosing mush after 3-5 days of being awake would be.....
i wonder if the visuals would be WAY stronger
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: P-O]
#18888412 - 09/25/13 09:12 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Dude, that's gnarly. You should really go to sleep. I've gone 3 days without sleeping, and I was losing my mind. At one point it begins to get dangerous. You lose you regard for wise decisions. Don't let anyone egg you on. It's probably best if you let you brain get some rest and reproduce some vital chemicals that it needs.
Good luck, and don't hurt yourself more than you have
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Grigore] 1
#18888541 - 09/25/13 09:54 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: It was not a delusion,when I was staying in the kitchen looking at the floor and waiting for something to happen,I imagined myself feeling something,I imagined pain,in that precise moment,I started missing that feeling,the temptation grew and I knew that I'm gonna use the kitchen knife in order to finish my miserable life. But courage,I didn't have,so,I managed to make only 1 little stab.
You have to be 18 to use the Shroomery.
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Me_Roy]
#18888578 - 09/25/13 10:08 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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what the fuck reason does anyone have to hate on this guy?
fucking "its my way or nothing" type of thinking ignorant fucks. You don't even know him. This guys an explorer, in whatever era of time or state of mind he's in. Now you have problems that he's not productive right? I'm sure you are lol.. and whoever the fuck thought diagnosed schizophrenics can't navigate the internet...ughh
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Asante]
#18889093 - 09/25/13 12:35 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Wiccan_Seeker said: Geez guys is it really absolutely necessary to make the OP feel even worse? He has a lot of recovering to do, have a heart.
Are you the kind of guys to mess with someones head when they're high?
Did you not see all the threads he was making before about 'wanting' to get psychosis? OP is either a troll, or very stupid.
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Or in a confusional state with misaligned priorities?
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Asante]
#18889594 - 09/25/13 02:29 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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OP are you the kinda guy that takes datura for fun?
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Re: SLEEP DEPRIVED for 5 DAYS [Re: Asante]
#18889634 - 09/25/13 02:43 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: For fuck's sake,I was almost totally detached from reality and you are encouraging me to exaggerate even more,to go even more beyond the limit,you,sir,you are the person that determines me to stay 5 more days awake for your amusement.
your crying for help, if you want help, 90% you got to be a leader and get it yourself, its hard for other people to make you get help
i sorta know from experience, make some phone calls
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berdinwall said: what the fuck reason does anyone have to hate on this guy?
fucking "its my way or nothing" type of thinking ignorant fucks. You don't even know him. This guys an explorer, in whatever era of time or state of mind he's in. Now you have problems that he's not productive right? I'm sure you are lol.. and whoever the fuck thought diagnosed schizophrenics can't navigate the internet...ughh
this is the comment that initially threw me off V
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Grigore said: Thank you man,the problem is that I don't want to get better,I don't want therapy,I get medication because my family obliges me to do so,if I won't get better with medication,I won't mind at all,by the way,I actually made a thread in which I discussed about the fact that I want to become schizophrenic/psychotic and now,my wish came true,I became a fucking schizophrenic for real.
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Wiccan_Seeker said: Geez guys is it really absolutely necessary to make the OP feel even worse? He has a lot of recovering to do, have a heart.
Are you the kind of guys to mess with someones head when they're high?
usually people dont get that high on purpose
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Wiccan_Seeker said: Or in a confusional state with misaligned priorities?
yessss!
if anyone knows him in real life, get this guy to therapy or self help meetings or something
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I take atropa belladona when I'm bored.......
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