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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: EdibleStereos]
#18853979 - 09/17/13 03:09 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I feel ya OP.
See ever since 14 I can clearly tell I was heavily into something, I always have to go hard on something. From smoking, booze, heroin, women, love, ketamine, self harm, caffeine, masturbation.
It is like it all goes through a phase where each one follows the next. Even when I was fully clean of drugs except caffiene, I was drinking 6 xl coffees a day and obsessed with women and sex to the point it was as bad as the drug addictions.
So I'm trying to learn with having less harmful addictions, right now its internet, chain smoking, and weed all day.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: EdibleStereos]
#18854225 - 09/17/13 04:04 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Man, humans are creatures of habit. It is our nature.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: rakipo]
#18854240 - 09/17/13 04:07 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Ever since I quit smoking weed I have kicked drinking into high gear and it's a real problem now. I drink every morning and all through the day if I don't work, and it's not as cool as some might think. I don't usually tell people because they think I'm trying to sound cool for it. I've bought some things to help me stop but being sober is boring to me. I just need to get a new job so I can start tokin again, I can never feel bad about being stoned.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: thizzlemaniac]
#18854249 - 09/17/13 04:09 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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i am addicted to buying quantites of drugs that i will not use, nor sell.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: thizzlemaniac]
#18854262 - 09/17/13 04:13 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Lol I used to guilt trip myself with stuff like that to the point where I couldn't even enjoy it. But one day I realized its just a hobby... Some people do puzzles or build model airplanes, some people take drugs. Obviously you don't want it to become a problem that interferes with your life, but that can be said about anything, even building model airplanes.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: Eukaryote11]
#18854364 - 09/17/13 04:38 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Eukaryote11 said: Maybe not addictions as such, but habits. Things I can live without if they become unavailable and aren't a big deal to lose, but I would not opt to go without when it is available.....
This is how it is for me with the internet and cigarettes. More along the lines of habits and things I prefer, rather than cravings for these things and addiction.
I'm on the internet way too much when I'm at home, something I definitely need to pull my self away from. But if I so happen to not have access to the internet it's not a problem, I don't even use the internet/browse on my phone besides using it for maps & navigation.
Cigarettes...I smoke more than I've ever wanted to, but I don't have a problem with it. I can have a pack sitting in my room for weeks with out smoking one, but when I hang with friends & with social interaction I almost always smoke a few. I enjoy the act of smoking and do get a nice mild nicotine buzz, but if I don't go out I don't smoke any, having a cigarette doesn't even cross my mind when I'm chilling at home.
Opioids...I really enjoy em', but I know it's a slippery slope to walk on and know it's not something I can do for long periods of time. Every so often I'll get a bit of oxy/hydro / codone/morphone, when I have them I will pretty much do a little bit every day to every other day, but once it's gone I will wait weeks or even months later to get more. I've been doing this for years now and had only one period of prolonged regular use and that was about a 30 to 60 days, realized what was happening and stopped for a month or so before touching them again.
I'll take kratom everyday for weeks or months, but that stuff is like medicine to me. I don't see any difference between me being prescribed an ssri, a benzo, & adderall...or me just taking a few grams of a leaf everyday, besides the fact the leaf helps more so and has far less side effects and a shat load of other health benefits.
Weed....I've been smoking almost everyday for years, but have kept it at only a gram or so a week, smoking like 0.1g to 0.2g a day. Weed is the one thing I really prefer not to go with out though...even though I smoke relatively small amounts, I still hate not having a little bit of weed to smoke before bed or before going about the day. If I for some reason I run out and can't get any it's a bummer, but isn't a problem.
Sweets/sugar...I've improved my diet lots over the years, but I still have a thing for sweet snacks. I don't eat candy or drink soda...but things like pastries, ice cream, chocolate, pie, cookies, anything sweet & tasty etc. I get cravings for something sweet every day, it's probably the only thing I ever actually straight up "crave" and really want...I don't think I've ever had cravings like that for any drug besides opiates occasionally when I'm feeling down and depressed.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: rakipo]
#18854477 - 09/17/13 05:08 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah I always feel addicted to everything drinks,food,t.v.,friends,dreaming,drugs and sex.Anything that gives me ANY pleasure I over indulge in.I'm addicted to all these things plus Xanax and weed I cannot go without, i used to be addicted to opiates too. It seems all the time i'm looking for some kind of drug to be on(pills,E,LSD) or ill continue watching something to laugh at on t.v. On the other hand I still take care of my family and work so its sorta balanced
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: rakipo]
#18854579 - 09/17/13 05:34 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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BlindSophist said: I'm a bit of an alky. I routinely tell myself I'm not going to drink much on a given night and then follow up on it by getting completely shit-hammered with friends who are the same way. I still feel like it could be a lot worse, though, and I definitely have more discipline now than I did in the past.
i was slowly becomin one myself...it was kinda scary. I told myself i was always better after a drink but would feel like shit after. alcohol can be way more dangerous than a lot of illegal drugs imo.
It ain't so bad, you get used to it. I still go dry sometimes just to see if I can and honestly, I don't enjoy it.
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yessssssir, we all are. that's why anti-drug people are fucking hypocrites cuz we all have our addictions.
some stare into a tv for 4 hours every night to get away, others hit a bowl to escape. we all have our ways to kick back and get away from the game so it's dumb to judge anyone for that, at all.
on a side note that's why i love that book "trainspotting." there's this underlying theme that society criticizes the fuck out of drug users, yet at the essence, we're ALL addicted to something in one way or another. so in essence we're ALL ON DRUGS, because we all have our own "drug of choice" to escape, whatever that may be.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: resonant111]
#18854935 - 09/17/13 06:52 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I've always seen an addict as simply someone with an unhealthy attachment to something. Regardless of what we're talking about, drugs, whatever.
I have strong attachments to certain things, but they are healthy attachments that benefit me. Music, weightlifting, climbing, meditation, cannabis, mushrooms, fruit juice, etc. These things you could say, I would be a lesser man without. Maybe go as far as saying, I would not care to live without. But does that make me addicted to these things?
I say no. They are healthy activities that benefit my mind, body and soul. I am dependant or "addicted" to these things in the same way I am to oxygen, or sex. It wouldn't be in my interest to abstain. So there's no addiction to speak of. I think you can only use the word addiction if your behaviour is self destructive. Otherwise its just, doing what I do in order to be healthy and happy.
Anyone get where i'm coming from?
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: rakipo]
#18855052 - 09/17/13 07:20 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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rakipo said: not even just to drugs, but tv, eating etc. i think everyone has an addiction. mine is definitely getting high in general. I can stop doin drugs for months if i need to but i always have to come back. My drug of choice is prolly mxe. hbu? but then theres also people who have emotional addictions like people who always want to be the victim so idk
My drug use was pretty innocent until I started selling them and drinking when using. When I started selling molly I would end up doing around a half gram to a gram a night for anywhere from a week to a month straight. At the time I saw nothing wrong with this, despite I was losing touch with reality and damaging pretty much every relationship I was involved in.
Going to prison probably saved my life. I just got out of a nine month drug rehab program inside the prison where I was able to really get honest with myself. The drugs were holding me back from a lot of shit and making my life unmanageable. So I made the choice to be sober, parole or no parole. I've never been happier or more emotionally stable.
I agree with the "everyone is addicted to something" thought. At this point I'm focusing on developing healthy addictions such as fitness, family time, and prayer/meditation.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: ilike_trees]
#18859612 - 09/18/13 06:17 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Addicted to life, including the ups and downs. Sometimes I feel like im a retard on a roller coaster, but its all cool. Being paranoid as shit is another addiction, crazy shichzo shit. Addicted to creativity. Sometimes I'll just sit and create new worlds, I guess its my way to take a lil off the tracks adventure. I think we are all addicted to the craziest thing, society....
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: Eukaryote11]
#18869885 - 09/20/13 10:12 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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One addiction I think I have is human company, but I think all but a few humans have this addiction. I've gone long periods of time in the past with little to no companionship or anyone to talk to and it felt like my brain was rotting and I was going mad. I craved company so badly I'd go to extreme lengths for it, but I would come across as crazy to others creating a vicious cycle. It was hard to break that one and return to normality, I needed to face some difficult truths about my own personality.
I am quite grateful I have avoided true addiction so-far in my lifetime as I hear it's one of the most difficult cycles to break out of.
I'm most likely one of those few people. I need peace and quiet.
I really enjoy spending time by myself, in mind numbing silence.
It turns the endless stream of thoughts in my head into white noise.
I have never understood the need for human company.
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: EdibleStereos]
#18872335 - 09/21/13 01:58 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Esekon Kelly said: Only to anal sex

Anyone wanna hook up with me?
Wear something pretty. And be prepared, I'm going in dry.
Nah sorry, man. I wanna pound you hard and gape your asshole wide like an open door and stick a red juicy apple in your purty mouth and make you my fucking gimp bitch. You will Fucking do whatever I say or I'll punish you ...SEVERELY! I'll spit in your mouth and make you swallow my load...every hour...everyday...you will be my cum dumpster. I will fist you and make you eat my shit and drink my urine and taste me.....my preciouss
Wow, way to take a joke too far dude.
that's one of the most awkward Internet interactions I think I've ever seen
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: Luc1d]
#18873946 - 09/21/13 09:29 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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It didn't seem awkward to me. It just seemed honest.
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awkward is such a weirdly defined word with so many different reasonings and past experiences made up to classify and act acccordingly on what the circumstances is
tldr its not awkward if you dont want it to be
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Re: do you ever feel like youre addicted? [Re: rakipo]
#18874006 - 09/21/13 09:47 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Asceticism is the commitment to end dependence on all this stuff and devote your life to meditation.
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