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Anonymous #15

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #18840124 - 09/14/13 05:19 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:

Then he invited me inside his house to eat cookies and watch movies




Cookies and a fucking movie? Is this what y'all were gonna watch?



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Anonymous #8

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #18840174 - 09/14/13 06:22 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)



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Anonymous #16

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #8]
    #18843742 - 09/15/13 08:57 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

You could have just yelled...  Anything, like, BOO!  And, your energy would have returned to you.  You gotta startle that fucker next time.


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Anonymous #3

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #16]
    #18844377 - 09/15/13 12:26 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Fight fire with fire, try to steal his energy.


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Anonymous #17

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #18850459 - 09/16/13 06:07 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:


We were talking and at one point It sunk in that he was taking personal offence to the opinions I was sharing. He seemed to be speaking subliminally about our energetic relationship. It seems he feels I don't provide him with enough energy and that I should give my energy out more freely and that I am selfish.

After a long time I accepted his psychic offer which was to tone down my being and strength, to make him feel more equal. He took a bunch of energy and there was a look of smug satisfaction on his face as he allowed himself to feel superior to me.

Then he invited me inside his house to eat cookies and watch movies, and I told him I was tired and going home to take a nap although I had only woken up 4 hours ago








Don't take this the wrong way, OP....but are you really sure you're not a paranoid schizophrenic?


Maybe it's just your wording... or maybe I'm misinterpreting....


But what do you mean when you say he was "subliminally" speaking to you?


Honestly, the way it's written it sounds delusional.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #17]
    #18850848 - 09/16/13 07:28 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Yeah I am a paranoid schizophrenic. I guess this shit still pops up sometimes regardless of the meds I take.

Subliminally like he was subtly insulting or attacking me although his overt words did not say that.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #18851657 - 09/16/13 10:25 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

He just left now. I felt like super pressure to preserve my energy so I over exaggerated my being

It was a struggle and a battle but I think now he knows who is in charge in this relationship. I realized he is just a kid and probably looks up to me so he doesn't take any offense to what I say or do

Only when I realized that he didn't take offense I could be myself.. and him being him and me being myself there was a schism and new land was found


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Anonymous #18

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #17]
    #18851694 - 09/16/13 10:34 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #17 said:
Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:


We were talking and at one point It sunk in that he was taking personal offence to the opinions I was sharing. He seemed to be speaking subliminally about our energetic relationship. It seems he feels I don't provide him with enough energy and that I should give my energy out more freely and that I am selfish.

After a long time I accepted his psychic offer which was to tone down my being and strength, to make him feel more equal. He took a bunch of energy and there was a look of smug satisfaction on his face as he allowed himself to feel superior to me.

Then he invited me inside his house to eat cookies and watch movies, and I told him I was tired and going home to take a nap although I had only woken up 4 hours ago








Don't take this the wrong way, OP....but are you really sure you're not a paranoid schizophrenic?


Maybe it's just your wording... or maybe I'm misinterpreting....


But what do you mean when you say he was "subliminally" speaking to you?


Honestly, the way it's written it sounds delusional.





Sounds more like metaphor to me.  There are different levels of communication beyond the words that we speak to each other.  Noticing this in-depth is not schizophrenic.


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Anonymous #19

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #18] * 1
    #18851737 - 09/16/13 10:44 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Anonymous #18 said:
Sounds more like metaphor to me.  There are different levels of communication beyond the words that we speak to each other.  Noticing this in-depth is not schizophrenic.





Uhhh, are you dumb, OP just said this:

Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:
Yeah I am a paranoid schizophrenic. I guess this shit still pops up sometimes regardless of the meds I take.

Subliminally like he was subtly insulting or attacking me although his overt words did not say that.




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Anonymous #18

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #19]
    #18853062 - 09/17/13 10:37 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Yes, he said he is schizophrenic.  That does not mean that every experience he has is invalid.  :rolleyes:


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Anonymous #4

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #18853101 - 09/17/13 10:49 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #18 said:
Yes, he said he is schizophrenic.  That does not mean that every experience he has is invalid.  :rolleyes:




Yeah but the ones involving telepathy and "energy" vapirism are definitely called into question with that fact in mind, aren't they?

Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:
He just left now. I felt like super pressure to preserve my energy so I over exaggerated my being

It was a struggle and a battle but I think now he knows who is in charge in this relationship. I realized he is just a kid and probably looks up to me so he doesn't take any offense to what I say or do

Only when I realized that he didn't take offense I could be myself.. and him being him and me being myself there was a schism and new land was found




This is what I mean, in OP's mind this battle between will powers and egos that happened on some plane that almost assuredly isn't real. $100 says the kid in question would have no idea what OP is talking about and just thought he was hanging out with him. The entire thing is only within OP's head. Read the bolded paragraph, classic delusion of grandeur.


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Anonymous #17

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1] * 4
    #18853186 - 09/17/13 11:17 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:
Yeah I am a paranoid schizophrenic. I guess this shit still pops up sometimes regardless of the meds I take.
Subliminally like he was subtly insulting or attacking me although his overt words did not say that.







Well, thanks for the honesty.  The thing is, if you recognize this, and you accept it, and you accept that stuff like this arises sometimes because of your condition, perhaps you can use this as a starting point the next time this happens, to talk yourself down from it.


"This is not real, this is just my condition fucking with my head, and it will go away soon" type stuff.



I don't know if this will help you at all, but I wonder if you realize how scary it can be, to be in the other position-- your friend's position, and watch in horror as your friend's schizophrenia makes him believe something awful about you, that you would never do. I've been there before. Part of the reason I was able to recognize the symptom.

I used to hang with this schizophrenic dude when we lived near each other. We would hang out, smoke weed, listen to music, talk, watch movies, that kind of stuff. One day we're hanging out, and he turns to me with an unusually serious look on his face and says "Yo, Cid, what the fuck did you just say about my family?"

I hadn't said anything at all... like, zero words whatsoever, let alone anything bad about his family.


So I said "Nothing, T. I didn't say anything about your family."  But recognizing what was happening, I was able to reassure him.  "You're a cool dude, and I'd never say anything bad about your family, man."


"You sure?"

"I swear."


And fortunately, that was enough to ease his mind. I say "fortunately," because he was a really big dude, and I actually watched him beat the living shit out of another dude, for the exact same reason. lol 



Anyway... the point being, I was just sitting there hanging out, sort of minding my own business, so to speak, when his mind twisted against him, and fucked with him by telling him that I was talking shit. When i wasn't doing that, and I never would have done that, because he was my friend.


The title of this thread should be changed to "Mind raped by my self."  And I don't say that to be hurtful, but rather to drive the point home.


Sure, there are people out there who are obsessed with power, and social standing, and dominance. But you can usually recognize these people by their actions. They're usually loud, aggressive jerks, and easy to spot, and you don't have to resort to looking for psychic and subliminal stuff. You feel me? I'd imagine that if this guy is your friend, he's not some kind of jerk. And if you do really think he's some kind of jerk, then distance yourself from him. But don't let your mind make you turn against a good friend, just because you mind wants to fuck with you.


That being said, if your condition is acting up, and you're getting hallucinations or whatever, maybe talk to your doctor about changing your meds. And be careful with drugs. Various drugs can, of course, exacerbate the condition. Especially highly dopaminergic stuff like stimulants, and MDMA, perhaps psychedelics, and in some cases, marijuana.


If you do find yourself in a situation like this where you've smoked some weed, maybe try to look at that first as a cause. Remind yourself-- "Oh yeah, I smoked weed, and that stuff can fuck with my head some times, so this will go away soon."  Hell, you don't have to be schizophrenic for weed to mess with your head. Happens to people all the time. Sometimes remembering "oh yeah, I altered my consciousness with drugs, and maybe this is because of that" can be helpful.



Good luck.


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Anonymous #20

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #12]
    #18853540 - 09/17/13 01:24 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #12 said:
a lot of people are just needy because they masturbate their energy away.




Could you please elaborate on this more please.

(For the record, i once couldn't cum while having sex with my ex, so i faked it, and she did somehow know. Don't know if we're thinking the same though.


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Anonymous #21

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #20]
    #18853545 - 09/17/13 01:25 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

you should get yourself checked for an ETD


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Anonymous #3

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #21]
    #18854200 - 09/17/13 03:57 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I want to be turned into a vampire too, how do I do this?


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Anonymous #22

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #17]
    #18854980 - 09/17/13 07:01 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #17 said:
Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:
Yeah I am a paranoid schizophrenic. I guess this shit still pops up sometimes regardless of the meds I take.
Subliminally like he was subtly insulting or attacking me although his overt words did not say that.







Well, thanks for the honesty.  The thing is, if you recognize this, and you accept it, and you accept that stuff like this arises sometimes because of your condition, perhaps you can use this as a starting point the next time this happens, to talk yourself down from it.


"This is not real, this is just my condition fucking with my head, and it will go away soon" type stuff.



I don't know if this will help you at all, but I wonder if you realize how scary it can be, to be in the other position-- your friend's position, and watch in horror as your friend's schizophrenia makes him believe something awful about you, that you would never do. I've been there before. Part of the reason I was able to recognize the symptom.

I used to hang with this schizophrenic dude when we lived near each other. We would hang out, smoke weed, listen to music, talk, watch movies, that kind of stuff. One day we're hanging out, and he turns to me with an unusually serious look on his face and says "Yo, Cid, what the fuck did you just say about my family?"

I hadn't said anything at all... like, zero words whatsoever, let alone anything bad about his family.


So I said "Nothing, T. I didn't say anything about your family."  But recognizing what was happening, I was able to reassure him.  "You're a cool dude, and I'd never say anything bad about your family, man."


"You sure?"

"I swear."


And fortunately, that was enough to ease his mind. I say "fortunately," because he was a really big dude, and I actually watched him beat the living shit out of another dude, for the exact same reason. lol 



Anyway... the point being, I was just sitting there hanging out, sort of minding my own business, so to speak, when his mind twisted against him, and fucked with him by telling him that I was talking shit. When i wasn't doing that, and I never would have done that, because he was my friend.


The title of this thread should be changed to "Mind raped by my self."  And I don't say that to be hurtful, but rather to drive the point home.


Sure, there are people out there who are obsessed with power, and social standing, and dominance. But you can usually recognize these people by their actions. They're usually loud, aggressive jerks, and easy to spot, and you don't have to resort to looking for psychic and subliminal stuff. You feel me? I'd imagine that if this guy is your friend, he's not some kind of jerk. And if you do really think he's some kind of jerk, then distance yourself from him. But don't let your mind make you turn against a good friend, just because you mind wants to fuck with you.


That being said, if your condition is acting up, and you're getting hallucinations or whatever, maybe talk to your doctor about changing your meds. And be careful with drugs. Various drugs can, of course, exacerbate the condition. Especially highly dopaminergic stuff like stimulants, and MDMA, perhaps psychedelics, and in some cases, marijuana.


If you do find yourself in a situation like this where you've smoked some weed, maybe try to look at that first as a cause. Remind yourself-- "Oh yeah, I smoked weed, and that stuff can fuck with my head some times, so this will go away soon."  Hell, you don't have to be schizophrenic for weed to mess with your head. Happens to people all the time. Sometimes remembering "oh yeah, I altered my consciousness with drugs, and maybe this is because of that" can be helpful.



Good luck.





This is really good advice.


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Anonymous #1

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #22]
    #18855343 - 09/17/13 08:23 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Thanks anon 17

I feel like me and my friend are both schizophrenic and we just amplify each others thoughts. He's on meds too, not for schizophrenia but OCD. But I do suspect he's got a bit of schizophrenia he's dealing with.

The problem is I don't have the balls to just man up and start communicating more directly. I feel like he is super sensitive and it would just fuck him up, that I know what he is thinking. He subtly accused ME of being the vampire and being evil.

I don't know that for sure though.. Just he never speaks to me directly about what is going on with him, it's all rhetoric questions and trying to frame everything to make sure he never feels uncomfortable.

Why can't he just say "hey man, I'm getting paranoid. What should I do?" Instead he fucking blames the people around him and tries to get them to feel shitty and depressed so he can feel better about himself.

And I know that about him because I used to be like that. I used to get really angry if someone teased me or mocked me in some way. I had a huge chip on my shoulder and I strived really hard to be as cool as my friends. If I saw my friends being really happy and confident it was like a punch in my stomach.

But I was a idiot.. What a terrible way to live.

I tried to be honest the other night.

"Are we talking about sports or something else?"

I told him I was too high, that it was all too much. He couldn't figure out to react. Like spiritual constipation. I'm sorry that he is confused and lost but he needs to grow up and face reality... We're not going to always be there for him, when he is bored, depressed, what not. Start doing more and analyzing less!


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Anonymous #19

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #18856109 - 09/17/13 11:24 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

What does your friend do?
Is he in school? 
Does he work?
Does he exercise?


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Anonymous #1

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #19]
    #18863648 - 09/19/13 04:12 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

He doesn't do much. He is a freelance videographer, he works like 2 days a week.


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Anonymous #23

Re: Mind raped by a friend [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #18920884 - 10/02/13 12:38 PM (10 years, 4 months ago)



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