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stpedro75
Mr. Dr. Cpt. Sgnt.


Registered: 12/20/12
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A revelation
#18830350 - 09/11/13 10:19 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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If any of you have read my other posts your probably sick of me bitching about this bad trip I had while foolishly mixing Prozac and shrooms. after it first happened I read about ego death, and the dark night of the soul, but I didn't understand what those things meant. Today I said to myself "I don't know who I am". And knowing that I know nothing about myself is the first thing I've known about myself in a really long time. I'm not crazy, I just don't feel like I have an identity. If art is an expression of self then the reason for my writers block is that I feel I have no self to express. Darkness is the absence of light. I just need to figure out who I am. what a daunting undertaking
-------------------- hopelessness is a lie
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Staplerhead
Phanner


Registered: 12/02/11
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Maybe give meditation a try. Sam Harris wrote an article describing how to meditate.
http://www.samharris.org/blog/item/how-to-meditate
And here is a guided meditation.
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SomeGuyX
The Ganja Mahn



Registered: 11/04/12
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Go volunteer and help others. Have a mushroom trip to inspire yourself, and draw/sing or whatever you do afterwards. Go out and make a few more friends to hang out with.
Good luck!
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flickedbic
Sojourner



Registered: 03/21/11
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Re: A revelation [Re: SomeGuyX]
#18830960 - 09/12/13 01:44 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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"What makes me happy?" may be a good question on the path of "who am I".
Maybe go for some paintings meanwhile, really throw yourself into them. Their catharsis may provide content.
-------------------- Favorite entheogen experiences in descending order: 1)Combo of oral DMT + smoked Bufotenine 2)Amanita (urine drank twice) 3)Mushrooms > Achuma 16"+cid(still need higher dose Achuma)> Cid (still need high dose) 4)Morning Glory-HBWR (+cumin, cinnamon aldehyde adducts) > Methyl chavicol (need more activators) 5)Salvia (need to try quid)
All readable matter in the above post is ficticious... any similarities to real life are purely coincidental. Blessing.
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Deathcore
Stranger


Registered: 06/08/13
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who cares who you are
enjoy what you are
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4nik8
I am I Am


Registered: 08/18/13
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Know thyself. It sounds so simple, but really its a life long journey. Don't stress about it so much. It's like driving, if you think about it when you're doing it it becomes very difficult. If you are relaxed and taking enjoyment from it, the trip is better and you drive better.
-------------------- A wise man once told me: "don't sweat the small stuff, it's all small stuff"
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Thayendanegea
quiet walker



Registered: 02/20/12
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Re: A revelation [Re: SomeGuyX]
#18831486 - 09/12/13 08:02 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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SomeGuyX said: Go volunteer and help others. Have a mushroom trip to inspire yourself, and draw/sing or whatever you do afterwards. Go out and make a few more friends to hang out with.
Good luck!
-------------------- Look Deep Into Nature,and Then You Will Understand Everything Better. Albert Einstein
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Universe
Friend


Registered: 05/27/13
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stpedro75 said:... I just need to figure out who I am. what a daunting undertaking
You need to go to the top of a big hill or a mountain, or some beautiful place overlooking a vast landscape and go alone. Smoke some weed and stand at the grandest location and declare to yourself, the sky, and the universe: "I'm me". Just keep saying it - I'm me I'm me I'M ME. It might also help to say "I am a human being" a few times. That addresses the "what am I?" question, which goes hand in hand with "who am I?". Finish it all with "I exist". Also, do this when you're tripping. It will really help.
It looks silly on a computer screen, but the "I'm me" declaration is extremely profound and it has meant a lot to me. It's really the only good answer to the question "Who am I?". I'm me. I am a human being, and I exist.
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MightyJoeJon
The Black Blonde



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Re: A revelation [Re: Universe]
#18832270 - 09/12/13 12:32 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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if you dont know who you are you must be a follower or something.
-------------------- Im assuming mushrooms, Im a Necrolampoon.
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PrimalSoup
hyperspatial illuminations



Registered: 11/17/09
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stpedro75 said: If any of you have read my other posts your probably sick of me bitching about this bad trip I had while foolishly mixing Prozac and shrooms. after it first happened I read about ego death, and the dark night of the soul, but I didn't understand what those things meant. Today I said to myself "I don't know who I am". And knowing that I know nothing about myself is the first thing I've known about myself in a really long time. I'm not crazy, I just don't feel like I have an identity. If art is an expression of self then the reason for my writers block is that I feel I have no self to express. Darkness is the absence of light. I just need to figure out who I am. what a daunting undertaking
Writer's block is due to a lack of practice, not having nothing to say. Huge number of writers have nothing to say and that doesn't stop them. Writer's block is mostly an amateur affliction, BTW. 
Don't mix psychotropics.
PS
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stpedro75
Mr. Dr. Cpt. Sgnt.


Registered: 12/20/12
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trust me man this is some next level shit and i don't believe that writers block is an amateur affliction. theres no way even the greats don't sometimes have creative dry spells
-------------------- hopelessness is a lie
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Ultron
alchemist programmer




Registered: 08/04/13
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Take a break meet new people bounce ideas off them listen to there stories. Take a vacation and get to know yourself get a feel for your likes and dislikes. Try new stuff to get those creative juices flowing.
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PrimalSoup
hyperspatial illuminations



Registered: 11/17/09
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stpedro75 said: trust me man this is some next level shit and i don't believe that writers block is an amateur affliction. theres no way even the greats don't sometimes have creative dry spells
Believe it if you need to, a lot of people think that way.
Sounds more like you're just feeling lost. But there's no map.
PS
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Agentchewy
Pantheism.


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Who do you think you are
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If I knew the way, I would take you home.
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