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st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



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I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD]
#18825345 - 09/10/13 09:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I saved every $2 bill I ever received and besides the one that remains, pristine and in a display/protective holder, all of my $2 bills are gone. They were stored together in a jar in my room along with other small trinket-type stuff and I noticed their absence when I was looking in that jar for a USB drive.
I spent them on DXM, I remembered, despite that I thought (and still think) that $2 bills are neat and nifty, just because that was the only money I had. I also have stolen DXM once from a store.
If there isn't an addiction, someone will simply not do these kinds of things to get something. I guess I'm finally admitting...
I indeed have and have developed a DXM addiction. Yes, I'm finally acknowledging that I'm a syrup addict.
Hooray, huzzah, most of you were right. I still have used it in ways and towards ends that are meaningful and even beneficial, but this is all overlaid on a fundamental addiction to the stuff.
My last 3 trips have been disappointing, and 2 other attempts to explore plateaus past where I normally go resulted in puking, so I've kind of lost interest as of late, although I'm sure I'm going to, from time to time, try it again and see if the magic's back.
If it is, that could pose a problem that I'll deal with if it emerges, but if not, I'm not all that worse for the wear.
Long time coming, but better late than never.
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Sheekle
FREE BURKE



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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: st1llnox] 2
#18825350 - 09/10/13 09:07 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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adicted
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lil_demented
Loner will lone

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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: st1llnox]
#18825357 - 09/10/13 09:10 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I used to love dxm as a teenager. I stopped doing it for years and tried it again and it was terrible.
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fee
Im he who is the


Registered: 01/16/03
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Loc: amsterdam
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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: Sheekle]
#18825370 - 09/10/13 09:12 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sheekle said: adicted
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blankk said to fee: btw you're a total fucking psychedelic pimp Turtletotem said: I want to become a sun worshipper, so next time an atheist smugly asks me where god is, I can point smugly at the sun and laugh my ass off. Then I drive away in my solar powered piece of shit car, cool stuff man. And then I go kill a bitch because the flaming orb in the sky told me to do so, and I don't know, oppress a few minorities here and there in the name of nuclear fusion? Religion is fun.
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st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



Registered: 11/27/12
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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: fee]
#18825374 - 09/10/13 09:13 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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fee said:
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Sheekle said: adicted

I've noticed a lot of Sheekle's input on threads, especially when he firstreplies them, is not very useful or neat (much as I love the kid). This seems to be one such case.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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psi
TOAST N' JAM


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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: st1llnox]
#18825402 - 09/10/13 09:18 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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st1llnox said: I indeed have and have developed a DXM addiction. Yes, I'm finally acknowledging that I'm a syrup addict.
Good for you man.
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Shroomslip
Architekt



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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: st1llnox]
#18825522 - 09/10/13 09:44 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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As cliche as it is to say, the first step is admitting you have a problem. Until you admit it, you can't really hope to change it. Took me a long time to admit I have a problem with alcohol, and took me even longer to actually do anything about it.
Actually the last couple of months have been the first since I was 13 or so that I've chosen to be sober from everything. I've been sober, but it was never a choice. Either I was locked up or I couldn't get anything (I didn't even like alcohol until I was about 18, up until then it was just weed mostly).
I've basically spent the last 10 years drunk, every single day, all day minus the 8 months of probation (had a year but was still drinking the first 4 months, until I got caught).
What helped me is another cliche thing from AA (don't believe in AA and won't/didn't go, but not all of what they say is just total BS). "Take it one day at a time".. The thought of being sober for the rest of my life is a daunting thought.. But the thought of just being sober for a day is pretty easy.
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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memes
Blessed



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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: Shroomslip]
#18825532 - 09/10/13 09:46 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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GJ RP
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Bodhi of Ankou
*alternate opinion blocks path*


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Loc: Soviet Canukistan
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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: st1llnox]
#18825551 - 09/10/13 09:50 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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The very first time I did cough syrup I wandered around town, I got lost and ended up by the airport, then just as it dawned on me that I got use the lights to navigate my way back, cause all the signs looked like hieroglyphics, the power went out. Im not even kidding you. I just gave up and sat on a bench till it wore off enough that I could read again.
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st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



Registered: 11/27/12
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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: Bodhi of Ankou]
#18825624 - 09/10/13 10:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Shroomslip said: As cliche as it is to say, the first step is admitting you have a problem. Until you admit it, you can't really hope to change it. Took me a long time to admit I have a problem with alcohol, and took me even longer to actually do anything about it.
Actually the last couple of months have been the first since I was 13 or so that I've chosen to be sober from everything. I've been sober, but it was never a choice. Either I was locked up or I couldn't get anything (I didn't even like alcohol until I was about 18, up until then it was just weed mostly).
I've basically spent the last 10 years drunk, every single day, all day minus the 8 months of probation (had a year but was still drinking the first 4 months, until I got caught).
What helped me is another cliche thing from AA (don't believe in AA and won't/didn't go, but not all of what they say is just total BS). "Take it one day at a time".. The thought of being sober for the rest of my life is a daunting thought.. But the thought of just being sober for a day is pretty easy.
Thanks for your wonderful input and for sharing your own situation. I'm happy things are going well for you! Also, QFT!!!
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Bodhi of Ankou said: The very first time I did cough syrup I wandered around town, I got lost and ended up by the airport, then just as it dawned on me that I got use the lights to navigate my way back, cause all the signs looked like hieroglyphics, the power went out. Im not even kidding you. I just gave up and sat on a bench till it wore off enough that I could read again.
DXM lends itself to getting people in socially precarious, if not personally dangerous situations, if in the wrong setting or something else is suboptimal. I just hope nothing bad came of this, and I applaud you for cleverly using an alternative, unhampered part of what you were sensing and perceiving.
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IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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sonamdrukpa
Wayfarer


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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: st1llnox]
#18825885 - 09/10/13 11:21 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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st1llnox said:
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fee said:
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Sheekle said: adicted

I've noticed a lot of Sheekle's input on threads, especially when he firstreplies them, is not very useful or neat (much as I love the kid). This seems to be one such case.
 
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st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



Registered: 11/27/12
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Re: I was looking for something in a jar that had my $2 bill collection [DXM THREAD] [Re: sonamdrukpa]
#18825913 - 09/10/13 11:33 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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sonamdrukpa said:
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st1llnox said:
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fee said:
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Sheekle said: adicted

I've noticed a lot of Sheekle's input on threads, especially when he firstreplies them, is not very useful or neat (much as I love the kid). This seems to be one such case.
 

Gotta hand it to you--you've made a proper reply to this thread if there ever was one.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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