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I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC
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This is my fucking dream.Right now I'm overdosing on DXM so I might get a chance to become psychotic,is there anything wrong with me? I love you all,I hope there aren't any spies here,I feel under close surveillance. I'm innocent.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore] 2
#18821718 - 09/10/13 01:48 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm not gonna suggest anything, but the only way I've been able to attain a true psychotic state is by way overdoing it on amphetamines. And I really wouldn't recommend it. Psychosis is certainly interesting, but it isn't fun. Your family and loved ones become your worst enemies as your conviction builds that they are your worst enemies. It's a feedback loop that won't stop until your brain regains its equilibrium. It's really fucked. Special effects be damned, there is nothing good about psychosis.
DXM won't make you psychotic, it'll just make you high, then low... and potentially permanently stupid.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
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i've been down this path before, and let me tell you, no you dont
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Soulidarity] 1
#18821722 - 09/10/13 01:49 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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you'll regret it
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Soulidarity]
#18821723 - 09/10/13 01:50 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I can't get my hand on amphetamines right now,what about getting psychotic without substance abuse,is that possible? and by the way,DXM in high doses,it's said that it can cause psychosis,as far as I know.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821729 - 09/10/13 01:52 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't want to condone this sort of activity cause I suspect there may be legal implications (I'm not concerned about your mental health as I don't know you and your life is of absolutely no concern to my existence).
But if you DON'T want to get schizophrenic then DON'T mix stimulants with strong psychedelics (e.g. speed+LSD, meth+nbome)
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I don't care if I'll regret it,right now,I want to suffer,I like suffering and hallucinating,I like bad trips,I like everything that makes me feel bad because most of the times I'm emotionless,I prefer to be depressed than to lack any emotion,I'm like a stone right now.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821735 - 09/10/13 01:54 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: I can't get my hand on amphetamines right now,what about getting psychotic without substance abuse,is that possible? and by the way,DXM in high doses,it's said that it can cause psychosis,as far as I know.
Try not eating and not sleeping for a few days, you should get a good taste of psychosis without any kind of drug intoxication.
Anything in high enough doses can cause psychosis. Psychosis is inherently a condition of impairment. It stands side-by-side with death and dementia.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821737 - 09/10/13 01:55 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: I don't care if I'll regret it,right now,I want to suffer,I like suffering and hallucinating,I like bad trips,I like everything that makes me feel bad because most of the times I'm emotionless,I prefer to be depressed than to lack any emotion,I'm like a stone right now.
Have you considered suicide? Its a viable option.
I'm just asking, I'm not suggesting he does anything in case any mod with less than 2 functional brain cells decides to ban me for that post.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821740 - 09/10/13 01:56 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: I don't care if I'll regret it,right now,I want to suffer,I like suffering and hallucinating,I like bad trips,I like everything that makes me feel bad because most of the times I'm emotionless,I prefer to be depressed than to lack any emotion,I'm like a stone right now.
Have you considered suicide? Its a viable option.

MP, quit flaming people, I don't want to see you get banned again.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821741 - 09/10/13 01:57 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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yes,I love you for recommending me to suicide,I don't want to do that yet,I must fuck up my life really hard first.
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BlindSophist said: I'm not gonna suggest anything, but the only way I've been able to attain a true psychotic state is by way overdoing it on amphetamines. And I really wouldn't recommend it. Psychosis is certainly interesting, but it isn't fun. Your family and loved ones become your worst enemies as your conviction builds that they are your worst enemies. It's a feedback loop that won't stop until your brain regains its equilibrium. It's really fucked. Special effects be damned, there is nothing good about psychosis.
DXM won't make you psychotic, it'll just make you high, then low... and potentially permanently stupid.
yeah, I figured that wanting this was foolish. No offense OP, but you know, what would the benefits be? Probably the only one would be everything would be trippy, and you can just make that happen anytime you want with mushrooms or LSD or DXM or what have you.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821747 - 09/10/13 01:59 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Eat a 10strip. start smoking meth on the comeup. You'll get your psychosis and you'll get it quick.
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mellowparty said:
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Grigore said: I don't care if I'll regret it,right now,I want to suffer,I like suffering and hallucinating,I like bad trips,I like everything that makes me feel bad because most of the times I'm emotionless,I prefer to be depressed than to lack any emotion,I'm like a stone right now.
Have you considered suicide? Its a viable option.

MP, quit flaming people, I don't want to see you get banned again. 
How is this flaming? Flaming is calling you and your family/loved ones nasty names (and racism).
Also I edited my post and explained that I'm simply asking, not suggesting he actually does something about it. I believe if OP has the capacity to compose his original post then he can decide for himself
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821752 - 09/10/13 02:00 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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well, the first step towards insanity is beginning to talk to yourself
also, go stare in the mirror for 30 minutes without blinking or losing eye contact with your eyes
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Soulidarity]
#18821758 - 09/10/13 02:02 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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thank you sir,I'LL DO THAT,ANY OTHER ADVICE?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821771 - 09/10/13 02:07 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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mellowparty said: How is this flaming? Flaming is calling you and your family/loved ones nasty names (and racism).
Also I edited my post and explained that I'm simply asking, not suggesting he actually does something about it. I believe if OP has the capacity to compose his original post then he can decide for himself 

ILU MP
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821774 - 09/10/13 02:08 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Soulidarity said: well, the first step towards insanity is beginning to talk to yourself
also, go stare in the mirror for 30 minutes without blinking or losing eye contact with your eyes
Ten years old. Turned into a corpse.
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Grigore said: thank you sir,I'LL DO THAT,ANY OTHER ADVICE?
It's very simple, go without food or sleep for 3+ days. That is the cleanest and most responsible way to attain disconnection from reality. Use caffeine if you gotta. I don't recommend amphetamine.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
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mellowparty said: Wanna come over? I got cheap wine and lube 
me the place and time.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821784 - 09/10/13 02:12 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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k, theres coke too but thats only if you behave
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821792 - 09/10/13 02:16 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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My butthole is yours forever.
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can't get enuff of dat shite
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821800 - 09/10/13 02:19 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I wouldn't recommend you actually do this but...
Hypothetically you could eat about 36 Dramamines that'll make you feel completely schizo, at least that's how it made me feel.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore] 1
#18821809 - 09/10/13 02:23 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You gotta BELIEVE
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: abltsandwich] 1
#18821817 - 09/10/13 02:25 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Considering antipsychotics work like reverse psychedelics on the receptor level I'd propose that eating an excessive amounts of psychedelics may render one not exactly sane.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821833 - 09/10/13 02:31 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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NO DOSAGE ADVICE!
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821837 - 09/10/13 02:32 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hey, aren't you the guy that poured random chemicals all over yourself and started that mamelon on your testicle thread a couple of months ago?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18821842 - 09/10/13 02:33 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: This is my fucking dream.Right now I'm overdosing on DXM so I might get a chance to become psychotic,is there anything wrong with me? I love you all,I hope there aren't any spies here,I feel under close surveillance. I'm innocent.
You already sound fucked in the head...best of luck to you in the future. BTW Sheekle is a spy beware of him!
edit: after reading the whole thread now I'm sorry for this ^, but don't fuck up your life because you haven't found anything that makes you happy...get out there and live life. Trying to become crazy on purpose is....crazy.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Into The Woods]
#18821866 - 09/10/13 02:46 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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YES,I am that guy,I love you,thank God for your advices back then,right now I have scars all over my balls but I'm doing fine.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: thizzlemaniac]
#18821869 - 09/10/13 02:48 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I may sound fucked up but still,I don't feel crazy,I am not crazy yet,not yet,not yet,not yet,BUT I'M GOING THERE AND I HOPE I WILL NEVER COME BACK
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#18821875 - 09/10/13 02:50 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: I may sound fucked up but still,I don't feel crazy,I am not crazy yet,not yet,not yet,not yet,BUT I'M GOING THERE AND I HOPE I WILL NEVER COME BACK
You have your reasons I guess and I'd love to tell you ways on how too corrupt your brain irreversibly but I've been banned to many times and they won't let me go with a simple warning.
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#18821881 - 09/10/13 02:53 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Have you thought of getting on welbutrin maybe? Also wanting to become psychotic and all this non feeling emotionless wanting to suffer talk......it gets easier after middle school brah.
Or your a terrible troll. In which case I have to say........it gets easier after elementary school brah.
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#18821887 - 09/10/13 02:56 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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psychotic behaviour is a pathway to abilities most would consider, un-natural
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty]
#18821891 - 09/10/13 02:56 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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tell me,please tell me somehow,in a private message,IN ANY WAY,I WILL BE FOREVER THANKFUL
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Rewindicus]
#18821894 - 09/10/13 02:58 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Rewindicus said: Have you thought of getting on welbutrin maybe? Also wanting to become psychotic and all this non feeling emotionless wanting to suffer talk......it gets easier after middle school brah.
Or your a terrible troll. In which case I have to say........it gets easier after elementary school brah.

Nah, I think he actually thinks there's something cool or interesting about psychosis. I've been there, it's not about trolling. The mechanisms of psychosis are just so tantalizingly mysterious, how crazy people could come to the crazy conclusions they do.
Turns out, they're fucking crazy. Ever seen a crazy person having a good time? No, they're fucking crazy and it sucks. I seriously pity people who have the neurological deficiencies necessary for chronic psychosis and schizophrenia to occur. The way for a relatively stable person to glimpse that territory is tremendous personal neglect and self-abuse, whether ritualized or spontaneous; psychosis is the illness that follows. It is interesting, definitely, but I wouldn't recommend it or wish it upon anybody. It's more like having an injury than anything else. It's debilitating.
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#18821898 - 09/10/13 03:02 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Rewindicus said: Have you thought of getting on welbutrin maybe? Also wanting to become psychotic and all this non feeling emotionless wanting to suffer talk......it gets easier after middle school brah.
Are you also going to suggest to suicidal people that life can get better and full of rainbows and unicorn shaped cookies with little pink hearts on them? IMO if someone wants to kill themselves, damage their brains or whatever then they should be 100% entitled to doing it in the comfort of their own time and space (provided they don't hurt others on more than a mere emotional level).
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Your point of crazies never looking like they are having fun is so true. Ive done my fair share of psych rotations and internships. They are always either = pissed off, anxious, or asleep. Oh or screaming at shit thats not there.
No fun.
As to mellow......
I think that someone transforming themselves from a possible danger to themselves to a danger to society is reason enough for some people who may have a little more life experience to chime in with counsel.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Rewindicus]
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This is some crazy shit , OP you need to talk to someone about your problems not make them worse . Your still young and you want to destroy the rest of your life over something so small.
Everyone has issues , how you deal with those issues is what makes you human .This is not a path you want to follow , many have tried and all failed and had to live with the concisenesses for the rest of there life . You are only thinking of yourself which is selfish , what about the people who love and care for you .
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
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You're welcome, man. I'm glad took my advice back then. It's good to know you made it through that.
Now please listen to me again when I tell you that me and the rest of the people who are advising you not to pursue this are absolutely correct. Psychosis is not what you might think it is, it is a dark, terrifying, lonely hole that nobody should ever say they want to be in. You'd be worse off than you are now, trust me. Please try another approach.
Have you heard of MDMA? it might be worth reading up on.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Into The Woods]
#18822010 - 09/10/13 04:16 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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What the fuck are you on. just reading through your posts i think your already there
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Ilift]
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lol yup
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Into The Woods]
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DARKNESS,TERROR,LONELINESS IS WHAT I WANT,I want to feel terrible,I want to destroy myself,there's no more time,no more TIME,there is someone there waiting for me to do it,I can't fucking continue in this way,I need to become psychotic,I need to SUFFER MORE THIS IS WHAT HE WANTS FROM ME AND THIS IS WHAT I WANT,I am him,he is me,I don't know what's the difference between what I want and what he wants but he is the one taking the decision,I'm fucked up a little bit because I'm on the right path but,peace to you and I NEED MORE ADVICES PLEASE
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18822603 - 09/10/13 09:38 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Dude, don't do that.
Unless you like hate smoking weed.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18822607 - 09/10/13 09:39 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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smoke mdpv and don't sleep for at least a week.
it's not pleasant btw.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: druqs]
#18822623 - 09/10/13 09:44 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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thank you,I've tried oxymetazoline before,drank 10ml of Afrin. *silence and then he talks,he tells me to express his emotions,I look on the wall,see an angry face,lost myself for a second,blinking repeatedly,it starts again,I love him,I love myself.
from afrin,I had a ringing in the ears the next day and everything looked brighter,it is possible to become psychotic from it?
shit it starts again,it's like a dubstep drop
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18822639 - 09/10/13 09:51 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: I don't care if I'll regret it,right now,I want to suffer,I like suffering and hallucinating,I like bad trips,I like everything that makes me feel bad because most of the times I'm emotionless,I prefer to be depressed than to lack any emotion,I'm like a stone right now.
Then why don't you aim for a good trip, so you can feel good things?
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Grigore
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: JacksonMetaller]
#18822655 - 09/10/13 09:56 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't deserve having a good trip,I'm a piece of shit that deserves to die.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18822667 - 09/10/13 09:59 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well you got a self fulfilling prophecy going on there.
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GreySatyr
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Konyap] 2
#18822694 - 09/10/13 10:06 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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OP is an attention whore.
Just go eat some fucking datura or belladonna, DUH!
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Grigore
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: GreySatyr]
#18822705 - 09/10/13 10:09 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm searching for them,didn't find any yet,where to search?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18822713 - 09/10/13 10:12 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Konyap]
#18822817 - 09/10/13 10:33 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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It is simple but I will not say what it really is.
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Inconspicuous
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: mellowparty] 1
#18822834 - 09/10/13 10:37 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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mellowparty said:
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Grigore said: I don't care if I'll regret it,right now,I want to suffer,I like suffering and hallucinating,I like bad trips,I like everything that makes me feel bad because most of the times I'm emotionless,I prefer to be depressed than to lack any emotion,I'm like a stone right now.
Have you considered suicide? Its a viable option.
I'm just asking, I'm not suggesting he does anything in case any mod with less than 2 functional brain cells decides to ban me for that post.
You do give some really shit advice.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: pmoseman]
#18822836 - 09/10/13 10:37 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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It would be very nice of you to tell me,I will be forever thankful,my life depends on the fact that you know how can I become psychotic,it's your chance to make my dream come true.I am waiting for your help Sir.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18822966 - 09/10/13 11:13 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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you're already there.. read my posts theyll make you suffer..
dont believe me? read em
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Grigore
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Deathcore]
#18822989 - 09/10/13 11:18 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm NOT CRAZY ALREADY,I'M NOT,I'm totally NORMAL,WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT I'M CRAZY?
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GreySatyr
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18823067 - 09/10/13 11:35 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You're a boring narristic troll that deserves a dogs death now to hell with you, minion of satan!
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18823074 - 09/10/13 11:38 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm sure you're just joking. At least, I hope you're just fucking around. Psychosis and schizophrenia are nothing fun, and certainly nothing to be desired. Even if it's just out of curiosity.
And on that note, if that's what you're going for, you're taking the wrong shit. The stuff you're looking for is called MDPV. Considering that's now illegal in most of the world, maybe a-pvp or something similar. You want to lock yourself in a room and start vaporizing it. Perferrably the freebase. But if you want to skip any pretenses of pleasure and head straight for the shadow people, and paranoid hallucinations, then vaporize the HCl salt.
Do this for a number of hours, and I virtually guarantee you'll get your wish.
Good luck with that.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: GreySatyr]
#18823092 - 09/10/13 11:43 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You know my name,not my story or the reasons that determined me to intentionally become mentally insane.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18823122 - 09/10/13 11:49 AM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: This is my fucking dream.Right now I'm overdosing on DXM so I might get a chance to become psychotic,is there anything wrong with me? I love you all,I hope there aren't any spies here,I feel under close surveillance. I'm innocent.
As someone who has dealt with iatrogenic psychosis (what you're aspiring to) and who is also our resident DXM expert, I can tell you you're going about this the wrong way but that you're doing something admirable if you can avoid the trouble it can beset you with.
Amphetamine psychosis is going to be best for this, OR sleep deprivation but luckily you'll have that to enhance the amphetamine psychosis as a direct and nearly-inescapable side effect of administering enough amphetamine.
PM me if you'd like. I may not end up monitoring this thread.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: st1llnox]
#18823193 - 09/10/13 12:12 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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somebody ban that faggot...
on a brighter note hes making me feel.mentally prepared to trip again.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18823246 - 09/10/13 12:29 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: You know my name,not my story or the reasons that determined me to intentionally become mentally insane.
I'm sorry (well not really) but you sound REALLY stupid. Nobody ASKS to be schizophrenic, that's just retarded and you already sound like you need serious help.
Nobody should be helping him either imo.
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Maybe you need a strong ayahuasca experience to help change your tune.
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Grigore said: You know my name,not my story or the reasons that determined me to intentionally become mentally insane.
I'm sorry (well not really) but you sound REALLY stupid. Nobody ASKS to be schizophrenic, that's just retarded and you already sound like you need serious help.
Nobody should be helping him either imo. 
No... actually, what he's doing IMHO borders on noble. Plus, how is anyone going to understand what psychosis is like without experiencing it.
Having experienced both psychosis and much of what drugs have to offer, I can tell you this: drugs are sometimes hard to convey the experience of to someone who hasn't taken them and just need to be experienced, but PSYCHOSIS is ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE IN ANY WAY AT ALL to explain to someone who hasn't experienced it.
Conversations seem staged to tell YOU something... TV and Radio broadcasts, are not just addressing you as an audience but are speaking to and about you as an individual... among other very enjoyable and interesting, albeit potentially unsettling/frightening, phenomena.
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IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18823449 - 09/10/13 01:25 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: I don't deserve having a good trip,I'm a piece of shit that deserves to die.
That's bullshit OP. why the self hate? We all have our place
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Grigore
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: JacksonMetaller]
#18823566 - 09/10/13 01:55 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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self hate,self mutilation because I did some terrible things in my life and if I can't forgive myself for doing them,NOBODY WILL
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Grigore
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: CidneyIndole]
#18823580 - 09/10/13 01:58 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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it will be too hard to obtain that substance,I'm looking for something that I can buy from the pharmacy maybe or doing something like staying awake for days.(started to do so from today)
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18823627 - 09/10/13 02:16 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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could you elaborate? few things are as terrible as most people make them out to be
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: JacksonMetaller]
#18823634 - 09/10/13 02:19 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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fucked an ill cow,maybe got rabies,fucked a dog,raped someone,are those enough?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: st1llnox]
#18823753 - 09/10/13 02:57 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: You know my name,not my story or the reasons that determined me to intentionally become mentally insane.
I'm sorry (well not really) but you sound REALLY stupid. Nobody ASKS to be schizophrenic, that's just retarded and you already sound like you need serious help.
Nobody should be helping him either imo. 
No... actually, what he's doing IMHO borders on noble. Plus, how is anyone going to understand what psychosis is like without experiencing it.
Having experienced both psychosis and much of what drugs have to offer, I can tell you this: drugs are sometimes hard to convey the experience of to someone who hasn't taken them and just need to be experienced, but PSYCHOSIS is ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE IN ANY WAY AT ALL to explain to someone who hasn't experienced it.
Conversations seem staged to tell YOU something... TV and Radio broadcasts, are not just addressing you as an audience but are speaking to and about you as an individual... among other very enjoyable and interesting, albeit potentially unsettling/frightening, phenomena.
c'mon stillnox, noble? that's a joke. That's like saying it's noble to kill yourself, or noble to want to spend the rest of your life in a mental hospital. 
And the whole, conversations seems staged to tell you something, I've experienced that frequently on mushrooms. Not saying I understand psychosis, because it sounds rather complex and unique, just saying I definitely know what you mean by that.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Psilosopherr]
#18823774 - 09/10/13 03:01 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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In order for the universe to be balanced up in peace there must be people like OP in the world.
There would be no happiness if it wasn't for op's suffering. Sorry OP its the universe using you as a vessel to create happiness for someone else kinda like matter and antimatter co-exist in the same visible universe.
hows that for a stoned rant
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18823776 - 09/10/13 03:02 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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mushroom_sandwich said: I'm sorry (well not really) but you sound REALLY stupid.
I saw this thread title earlier today and just reading the title the first 3 words to immediately pop into my head "that's fucking stupid"
Didn't care to comment earlier but this just got bumped a second ago, also this:
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Grigore said: fucked an ill cow,maybe got rabies,fucked a dog,raped someone,are those enough?

Trolling is for losers you should be banned for making such a stupid thread. If you aren't trolling, you should still be banned because I think you are already crazy and need a lot more help than anyone here can provide you with.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Psilosopherr]
#18823805 - 09/10/13 03:10 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: extreme]
#18824000 - 09/10/13 03:47 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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you are insulting me,but that isn't a problem,the thing that I hate the most about people that don't know me is that they don't believe me,if you would meet me in reality,you would realize how fucked up I really am. for the love of God,I am not trolling and I have no intention of doing so.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: extreme]
#18824005 - 09/10/13 03:50 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't have much time to live anyway,I'm not doing well with my overall health and,as I said above,my stupidity might of made get rabies,but I'm still not sure about this. If I'm crazy,does that mean that I have to be marginalized? Can't I be helped by some normal people,do I ask so much?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18824089 - 09/10/13 04:16 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I must say, I am struck by some of the inane, and potentially dangerous comments from some of the posters, completely stupid, even if it turns out he is a troll.
I say to you grigore, even if you have done bad things in your life, you can still be redeemed, through various forms. Through therapy, religion, and other sober based methods.
I would recommend you to take no psychotic drugs whatsoever. None.
You have to speak to a human being where you can look to his/her eyes and reveal your troubles.
I would not listen to anyone encouraging psychedelics or other drugs.
If you want psychosis then it will come after you, not you, after it.
You have to deal with what you have done, and in redemption you can change your life, and he will have no affect on you.
I tell you my friend. That you are asking the wrong people for advice. They have shown themselves(not all) to be completely small minded and rather idiotic.
If you wish to do as you will, then you will through your own will.
Regardless of your reasons, true or not, I wish you luck, and honestly hope that you can transform.
With sincerity.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18824104 - 09/10/13 04:23 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: fucked an ill cow,maybe got rabies,fucked a dog,raped someone,are those enough?
That is all sexual deviance. You can look at it as a part of yourself that needs to be stopped. The other parts of yourself do not deserve to be punished. You need a healthy strong self to control and restrain such tendencies Fucking animals. Sometimes this crosses a person's mind, I will admit. I do not accept this course of action, but you can do much worse things than that. A kot of people who do that shit, give AIDs, and think it is great. You are better than they are. I do not believe in punishment, only in healing people or throwing them into volcanoes. Sexuality and deviance go hand in hand. Move on and do something positive. Destroying yourself would make me suffer as well and you can only do good or bad things from now on. There is nothing you have done that you can change. Do or do not. There is no try.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: pmoseman]
#18824415 - 09/10/13 05:36 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Mind if I ask why you did these things? I'm not trying to judge just understand. You seem aware of the fact that it's "fucked up." You don't sound like you intentionally harm people as you sound regretful. Honestly you can't do a damned thing about the past. You are who you are. That doesn't mean you have to waste the future. I honestly think you should aim for a good trip instead
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: JacksonMetaller]
#18824422 - 09/10/13 05:37 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Have u tried heron?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: JacksonMetaller]
#18824998 - 09/10/13 07:50 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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JacksonMetaller said: Mind if I ask why you did these things? I'm not trying to judge just understand. You seem aware of the fact that it's "fucked up." You don't sound like you intentionally harm people as you sound regretful. Honestly you can't do a damned thing about the past. You are who you are. That doesn't mean you have to waste the future. I honestly think you should aim for a good trip instead
Because evil feels fucking great and when you are low it just makes you feel normal and undeserving. He ruined something else in the process so now he wants to destroy himself to give back what has been taken...? Just a guess. I am also curious about his reasoning.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: oropal]
#18825110 - 09/10/13 08:17 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I love people like you
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: pmoseman]
#18825118 - 09/10/13 08:19 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've lost my faith,my hope,my self respect,I actually did some very fucked up things back when I didn't care about anything and now,suddenly,I started caring and the first thought that crossed my mind is that I need to punish myself for what have I done and this is what I'm going to do by intentionally becoming psychotic
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825127 - 09/10/13 08:21 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Maybe you should think this out a bit more man. What terrible things did you even do?
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Grigore
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: TheMule73]
#18825146 - 09/10/13 08:25 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've said them before:I fucked an ill cow and I might have gotten contaminated with rabies,so there isn't much time until I will go crazy anyway and eventually die,I fucked a dog when I was drunk,I raped my exgirlfriend at a party when I was drunk and few other minor things.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825212 - 09/10/13 08:40 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well the closest i felt to insane was when i once was on a binge of ambiens i got for free and mxe earlier that day and i was smoking wax and after probably redosing on mxe and ambiens which is probably dangerous. I took 6 12mg pills of ambien that night (not at the same time) and took a few bumps of mxe aswell (i had my first IM mxe trip earlier that day) but basically around 2 in the morning i felt super lonely and depressed and i started hearing people talking to me. One person sounded like she was a stereotypical black lady and the rest i referred to as friends. The entire night they kept me company and would talk to me and then when id go to look at them they would disappear and i would look for them in the other room. They told me to do things like get scissors and stuff and to rearrange things.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825215 - 09/10/13 08:41 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Scopolamine.
That is all.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Fuckspice]
#18825224 - 09/10/13 08:43 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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tomorrow I'm getting Xanax/Valium from a friend(he buys it from a guy that periodically has Xanax,either Valium) and also getting Ambien. Would it be nice to combine them? Will it get me at least close to becoming psychotic?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825240 - 09/10/13 08:46 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Seriously, see a therapist.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825267 - 09/10/13 08:51 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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These are obviously horrible actions, that will never leave you or the victims, but as it is, by turning things around, and being truly regretful and compassionate you can go on with your life in a positive manner. And it seems that you have already made the first step, by openly admitting on this forum, of your dirty deeds.
You may expect, and even want abuse for the things that you have done, but my friend, that is not going to help you and neither the beings involved.
You have done something, and you are paying for it, you have to transform your soul, the fibre of your being into a positive sense without lying or masking your past to yourself.
If you can work out your issues with someone with a genuine heart a good ear, and intelligent words, you may find that there is still alot that you can do, (A therapist comes to mind) which does not involve self-induced psychosis.
You cannot turn back the past or remove the scars, from you or the victims, but to continue on your path of darkness, will truly be excruciating depravity.
And you may find, that through genuine transformation, complete and sincere, the power of forgiveness, although, this can never be assured, but trust me, if you really turn yourself around and make actions that counter your negative past, you will understand my words, and be very pleased that you didn't destroy yourself.
But, this process is not simple, requires lots of patience, will, truth, time, assistance, ups and downs, and other obstacles, and may be very difficult to obtain, and is impossible to obtain, if you are not truly sorry, and have no want of forgiveness and redemption, and no impulse to be a truly good and decent human.
Many people have different views on this. Maybe you should seek spiritual advice, from the church or something similar.
I am not in a religion, but its moral structures, and redemption, may be an asset for you in your darkness.
As I am a stupid man, you must take my words at face value, you will have to seek out people to assist you. And you will not find them here.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: themusicofzann]
#18825268 - 09/10/13 08:52 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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a therapist is going to help me recover,I want to become worse,I want to become psychotic,am I following the right path in order to become psychotic?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825276 - 09/10/13 08:53 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Grigore said: tomorrow I'm getting Xanax/Valium from a friend(he buys it from a guy that periodically has Xanax,either Valium) and also getting Ambien. Would it be nice to combine them? Will it get me at least close to becoming psychotic?

The new game on the shroomery seems to be how long you can keep a troll thread alive...how long can you masquerade as serious while still being ridiculous.
Pretty sad how much time people have on their hands.
I know for 100% certainty that this is what that is.
deny all you want...you and I both know the truth...

Maybe we should call it ninja trolling?
Or since it's an elaborate game involving finesse...we will call it :finessetrollalert:
or how about... :ihavenolifetroll:
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: oropal]
#18825284 - 09/10/13 08:55 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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no you're not stupid at all I assure you that you're intelligent,what you said is right but I hate myself so much that I can only forgive myself if I make myself suffer for what I've done
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825300 - 09/10/13 08:58 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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you should get me serious,as other more-wise people that commented on this thread,why do you respond with so much ignorance and distrust? Do you want pictures of me fucking a dog while being drunk,do you want pictures of the ambien and xanax/valium pills that I'm getting tomorrow in order to believe me? What do you want in order to be able to think rationally and not consider me a troll?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825307 - 09/10/13 08:59 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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why do you respond with so much ignorance and distrust?
soon enough, everyone will know. Your not fooling me
:finessetroll:
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825315 - 09/10/13 09:00 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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What do you want in order to be able to think rationally and not consider me a troll?
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Do you want pictures of me fucking a dog while being drunk
That'll do troll. That'll do. I, very scarred at the thought, await your offered proof.

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What do you want in order to be able to think rationally
Very ironic
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825330 - 09/10/13 09:04 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I was being ironic,for the name of Lucifer,why would I take pictures while fucking a dog while being drunk? and also...why fuck a dog while being drunk,just because I have no more inhibitions? well,I'm gonna pay for my mistakes anyway,even if I must be the one making myself suffer.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825341 - 09/10/13 09:06 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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so why tease me with that kind of proof?
sigh...I had a hard on already too
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825363 - 09/10/13 09:11 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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if you already have a hard on,write: ''gay beast'' on google and enter the first site,there is what you want to see.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825383 - 09/10/13 09:15 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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well I did what you said. I grabbed a pen, dick in hand, and wrote "gay beast on google"? Nothing happened.
But I gotta tell you...
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825397 - 09/10/13 09:18 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm here to receive help,not to talk about bestiality and other sexual fantasies that might become reality when you get drunk as hell,as I said,I don't care if you believe me that I really want to torment myself and become psychotic or if you don't,I'm just saying that if you're willing to help me,do so,or,stop talking about trolling and infantile things.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825401 - 09/10/13 09:18 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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note to mods
Regarding the thread at hand I see only the following:
1) classic baiting and trolling in the original OP
or
2) classic dangerous, possibly suicidal behaviour asking for advice how to harm oneself.
edit: Quote:
I don't care if you believe me that I really want to torment myself and become psychotic or if you don't,I'm just saying that if you're willing to help me,do so
edit2: exhibit B Quote:
I'm just willing to harm myself psychically and mentally and you don't understand this
case in point. I rest my case
It's definitely 1.
But lets entertain it being 2.
In that case, either way this thread should be locked.
/nuff said
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825416 - 09/10/13 09:21 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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it's definitely 2,you are now the single person that continues arrogantly believing that I'm trolling,what reason would I have to troll? I wouldn't spend so much effort in trolling people,I find this stupid. I'm just willing to harm myself psychically and mentally and you don't understand this,it's really sad that you don't...
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825420 - 09/10/13 09:21 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Masked, of course he is quite likely a troll, it is quite simply silly to be assured in your opinion. I am on neither side of belief. And of course it will not take long to ascertain the validity of the OP. But tread carefully, as people have regretted making haphazard comments to potentially vulnerable and unstable individuals on the internet.
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Quote:
BlindSophist said:
Quote:
Soulidarity said: you'll regret it
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: oropal]
#18825436 - 09/10/13 09:25 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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But tread carefully, as people have regretted making haphazard comments to potentially vulnerable and unstable individuals on the internet.
Then you have zero idea who I am.

I believe in natural selection. I wouldn't lose any sleep over someone doing something so ridiculous.
I haven't fished for "assurance" on the troll aspect either. Just stating my opinion. I don't care what he says.
I also have created quite a compelling case why this thread should be closed...or at the VERY least...moved to the physical and mentality board.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825445 - 09/10/13 09:28 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I already hate myself and making myself suffer is MY JOB NOW,why you want to emotionally consume me for no reason instead of helping me suffer alone and then mind your business?
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825460 - 09/10/13 09:31 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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why you want to emotionally consume me for no reason instead of helping me suffer
Well riddle me this...
does emotionally consuming someone = suffering, in some aspect?
So in your troll reality, I'm helping 
I'll mind my own business and not post again until it is hopefully locked for earlier reasons. good luck
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Masked]
#18825492 - 09/10/13 09:35 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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you are helping me suffer,but not in the terms and conditions that I've implied,you help me suffer in a way less severe that won't satisfy my needs of suffering,do you mind insulting me maybe? that would might add some salt and pepper to your immature technique of approaching this situation.
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Re: I want to become SCHIZOPHRENIC/PSYCHOTIC [Re: Grigore]
#18825523 - 09/10/13 09:35 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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This thread has been closed.
Reason: I agree with Masked. Op if you wish to PM me regarding this, please feel free to.
Quote:
Masked said: note to mods
Regarding the thread at hand I see only the following:
1) classic baiting and trolling in the original OP
or
2) classic dangerous, possibly suicidal behaviour asking for advice how to harm oneself.
edit: Quote:
I don't care if you believe me that I really want to torment myself and become psychotic or if you don't,I'm just saying that if you're willing to help me,do so
edit2: exhibit B Quote:
I'm just willing to harm myself psychically and mentally and you don't understand this
case in point. I rest my case
It's definitely 1.
But lets entertain it being 2.
In that case, either way this thread should be locked.
/nuff said
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