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st1llnox
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Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D
#18811651 - 09/07/13 01:40 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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K2. Worse than coke arguably. Certainly for me.
Violent psychotic rages, thousands of dollars, multiple car crashes, and worse.
It would have killed me or I would have ended up killing someone.
And I beat it! I totaled my car 6 months ago and after that and a few hours in jail, I decided I'd never so much as touch the stuff again.
And I did it. It's been offered to me and even used around me in a couple situations and I don't even want it any more.
Feels good
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox] 6
#18811658 - 09/07/13 01:43 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Too bad you're still addicted to a host of other drugs.
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rulesq
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox]
#18811667 - 09/07/13 01:45 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Forgive my ignorance, but wtf is K2(other than a huge mountain and a trademark)?
Congrats anyway tho
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox]
#18811669 - 09/07/13 01:46 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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st1llnox said: K2. Worse than coke arguably. Certainly for me.
Violent psychotic rages, thousands of dollars, multiple car crashes, and worse.
It would have killed me or I would have ended up killing someone.
And I beat it! I totaled my car 6 months ago and after that and a few hours in jail, I decided I'd never so much as touch the stuff again.
And I did it. It's been offered to me and even used around me in a couple situations and I don't even want it any more.
Feels good 
Isn't K2 spice? Either way it's good you're clean....from that
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: pwnasaurus] 3
#18811685 - 09/07/13 01:51 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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pwnasaurus said: Too bad you're still addicted to a host of other drugs.
And making terrible threads
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox] 3
#18811694 - 09/07/13 01:55 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You spent thousands of dollars on spice?
You should probably avoid trying fun drugs if you have such a struggle with shitty drugs like K2 and DXM.
Either way, congrats on your better quality of life.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox] 1
#18811695 - 09/07/13 01:56 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Nothing wrong with a little psychosis once in a while and surely a car crash or two is normal for anyone in life. Everyone spends money. I think you're overstating the case a bit here OP.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox]
#18811710 - 09/07/13 02:00 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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st1llnox said: Violent psychotic rages, thousands of dollars, multiple car crashes, and worse.
...I totaled my car 6 months ago and after that and a few hours in jail, I decided I'd never so much as touch the stuff again.
Congratulations. Its always good to hear of people overcoming addictions.
Not trying to troll, but are you underage b& or is there just no weed in your area?
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: abltsandwich]
#18811713 - 09/07/13 02:02 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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and surely a car crash or two is normal for anyone in life.
a car crash caused by being so out of it on drugs? No, that is not normal for anyone in life 
The best part is, the car was bought for him by his parents. They paid for it, put it in his name, he gets all drugged up and totals it, luckily not killing innocent people in the process and THEN feels he's entitled to the money for said car. 
But yeah stillnox, glad you've moved on from that drug. One step at a time. now it's time to stop using some other drugs my friend. It can't all happen at once, but just keep making steps. You are getting there.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Masked]
#18811765 - 09/07/13 02:20 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Okay fine... I was proud of this but apparently everyone wants to be h8rtrolls.
And K2 is "spice", "synthetic weed", etc. JWH, AM, HU series novel cannibinoids among others.
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pwnasaurus said: Too bad you're still addicted to a host of other drugs.
And making terrible threads
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Nimpo said:
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pwnasaurus said: Too bad you're still addicted to a host of other drugs.
And making terrible threads
You both are terribly sad souls. Why did you even reply, let alone fabricate other apparent addictions I don't have. So you know, using or liking a drug does not constitute addiction.
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st1llnox said: Violent psychotic rages, thousands of dollars, multiple car crashes, and worse.
...I totaled my car 6 months ago and after that and a few hours in jail, I decided I'd never so much as touch the stuff again.
Congratulations. Its always good to hear of people overcoming addictions.
Not trying to troll, but are you underage b& or is there just no weed in your area? 
No worries... Nice to have a nontroll reply.
I started smoking it with a friend who was on probation, and the particular brand we had happened to be especially physically addicting. It started at age 20, BYW and I'm 23 now but was 22 6 months ago.
And what really got me was sleep dependence at first, coupled with the convenience and availability.Quote:
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and surely a car crash or two is normal for anyone in life.
a car crash caused by being so out of it on drugs? No, that is not normal for anyone in life 
The best part is, the car was bought for him by his parents. They paid for it, put it in his name, he gets all drugged up and totals it, luckily not killing innocent people in the process and THEN feels he's entitled to the money for said car. 
But yeah stillnox, glad you've moved on from that drug. One step at a time. now it's time to stop using some other drugs my friend. It can't all happen at once, but just keep making steps. You are getting there.
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and surely a car crash or two is normal for anyone in life.
a car crash caused by being so out of it on drugs? No, that is not normal for anyone in life 
The best part is, the car was bought for him by his parents. They paid for it, put it in his name, he gets all drugged up and totals it, luckily not killing innocent people in the process and THEN feels he's entitled to the money for said car. 
But yeah stillnox, glad you've moved on from that drug. One step at a time. now it's time to stop using some other drugs my friend. It can't all happen at once, but just keep making steps. You are getting there.
Thanks Masked! Means a lot coming from you of all people. I've started working on being respectful of their house... Haven't decided what I'm doing about DXM but I've been using it rarely and dare say I'm almost "safe" on that too.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Masked] 2
#18811810 - 09/07/13 02:33 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox]
#18811813 - 09/07/13 02:34 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've started working on being respectful of their house..
very awesome 
Sounds like you are finding your way. I'm interested to see where you are in a couple years. Good luck
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Masked]
#18811825 - 09/07/13 02:38 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Spice, eh...
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox]
#18811834 - 09/07/13 02:42 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Don't let them rustle your jimmies man! You're a good dude and we all struggle with problems day to day. I bet everyone here has shit they won't share even on the internet because they are too ashamed. Spice was crazy I'm glad I don't fuck with it anymore myself. They made it illegal after a while thank God. I started smoking it to find a job and stuck with it because I was new to this state and knew 0 dealers of any kind.
Spice never got to me like others, just seemed like some people would freak the fuck out on it. I always felt like it was weeds lil cousin kind of like LSA to LSD.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: GreySatyr]
#18811836 - 09/07/13 02:42 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Synthetic noids are no worse than extremely heavy marijuana abuse, in my opinion. After 2 years of daily use I simply stopped ordering the shit and I was fine in a week or two, my only problems being severe insomnia and lack of appetite.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: thizzlemaniac]
#18811854 - 09/07/13 02:46 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I bet everyone here has shit they won't share even on the internet because they are too ashamed.
That's quite a bold statement. Whatever helps yourself sleep at night
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Masked] 1
#18811889 - 09/07/13 03:00 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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There are a lot of details about my life that I don't share on here. It's not that I'm ashamed though, I just know a lot of people are assholes.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: psi]
#18811913 - 09/07/13 03:09 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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I dunno, nothing to hide about my life.
It's actually quite the opposite for me. I don't divulge a lot about me or my life in real life, but on here, I'm too open..
...so much that I've had to delete posts and close former accounts so that they can't be used against me
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Masked]
#18811962 - 09/07/13 03:22 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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CongrAts bro I know spice is hard to quit. I get drug tested randomly so I smoke it a lot instead of weed. When I don't have it I get anger outbursts like a mother fucker. I also can't eat and throw up sometimes if I don't smoke. Shits more serious than people think. I think u would thoroughly enjoy/benefit from mushrooms.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Masked] 3
#18811976 - 09/07/13 03:26 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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You both are terribly sad souls. Why did you even reply, let alone fabricate other apparent addictions I don't have. So you know, using or liking a drug does not constitute addiction.
Don't BS. You are addicted to DXM. Everything you do seems to be a means to justifying your use of it. This thread is saying "see, I can stop if I want. So get off my case about the DXM"
Didn't you throw up forty pills or something the other day?
Stop fighting the tide.
Quitting the DXM is the only way you're going to see any respect from 95% of the peeps around here.
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st1llnox
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: psi]
#18812168 - 09/07/13 04:40 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanks for those of you that made helpful replies and started this into a conversation.

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You both are terribly sad souls. Why did you even reply, let alone fabricate other apparent addictions I don't have. So you know, using or liking a drug does not constitute addiction.
Don't BS. You are addicted to DXM. Everything you do seems to be a means to justifying your use of it. This thread is saying "see, I can stop if I want. So get off my case about the DXM"
Didn't you throw up forty pills or something the other day?
Stop fighting the tide.
Quitting the DXM is the only way you're going to see any respect from 95% of the peeps around here.
This is... Overly simple. And you're way off base about my reasoning on making this thread.
I feel I'm fairly respected enough on here and when I disappeared for a couple weeks, it came up in multiple threads, a PM, and even a phone call making sure I'm okay(from Kronik0... That dude is such a caring and legit person it's unreal). That said, I'm a love him or hate him kinda person, but better to have an excessive personality than a dearth of personality at all.
And yeah I threw up 40 pills... Shoulda spaced em out cause I forgot I didn't have food on my stomach. 600mg is more than I'd be willing to put thru my body on the regular, but occasionally its fine (lab tests as well as cognitive batteries/"iq" tests have validated that I've handled my shit responsibly, including when I realized I WAS developing an addiction and losing respect for the drug and took it upon myself to take action.
How about this: I'm going to trip DXM tonight and I do not need a reason. I'm going to do it because its fun and also because I often benefit from spiritual and intellectual experiences it can provide. And then I'm probably not gonna touch it for a week or two. 
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psi said: There are a lot of details about my life that I don't share on here. It's not that I'm ashamed though, I just know a lot of people are assholes.
QFT. I'm super open both IRL and on here and you're definitely right: people on here sometimes even relish getting to dig their troll fingernails under other people's scabs when they're having problems, or they try to create problems, etc.
IRL, people can get weirded out but are almost never malicious. The Internet though... Dayumm.
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: st1llnox]
#18812177 - 09/07/13 04:44 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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How about this: I'm going to trip DXM tonight and I do not need a reason. I'm going to do it because its fun and also because I often benefit from spiritual and intellectual experiences it can provide. And then I'm probably not gonna touch it for a week or two

Gotta love that addiction reasoning and denial
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st1llnox
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Nimpo]
#18812229 - 09/07/13 05:04 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Nimpo said:
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How about this: I'm going to trip DXM tonight and I do not need a reason. I'm going to do it because its fun and also because I often benefit from spiritual and intellectual experiences it can provide. And then I'm probably not gonna touch it for a week or two

Gotta love that addiction reasoning and denial
No need to be childish. I kept and have been keeping an open mind to the possibility of addiction, but where I'm at right now that really isn't applicable. I use DXM maybe every week and a half to 2 weeks tops... Less often than I drink, so mustn't that mean I'm addicted to alcohol?
Thanks for your concern but it is not needed
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: Nimpo]
#18812230 - 09/07/13 05:05 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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Good for you!
Welcome to the slightly less psychotic plane in existence
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st1llnox
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Re: Officially 6 months clean from the addiction that would have killed me :D [Re: plektheplek]
#18812255 - 09/07/13 05:13 PM (10 years, 4 months ago) |
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plektheplek said: Good for you!
Welcome to the slightly less psychotic plane in existence 
Thank you so much!
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