This trip report dates back one year ago. I had only done 25i once before so I was still very inexperienced.
The trip started on a nice day when me and a friend, Bob, went over to Jack's (another friend) house. Bob was supposed to be our sitter and it would only be me and Jack that would drop a tab of 1200ug 25i-NBOMe together.
When me and Bob arrived at Jack's place, we noticed Jack had another guest; let's call him Dude. This being rather unexpected we were introduced to him. Basically he had been crashing at Jack's place for several days now. He was supposed to meet him girlfriend in town but wanted to trip with us instead.
So Bob was just smoking a bowl and me, Jack and Dude decided to hit the 25i. Now Jack had a nice comfy couch but because of Dude, there wasn't enough space for me to sit there, so I was given a shitty stool to sit on (you know, those wooden ones that practically fall apart after a month).
At first it didn't bother me much so we just dropped the tabs and put on some trippy videos. 1hr in we were almost completely into it when Dude suddenly mentions something about his friend who had taken shrooms and who had jumped in front of a train later as he went insane. We both stared at each other rather horrified, and so the trip started rather awkwardly...
Bob being our sitter, he was responsible for changing the videos and putting on some nice trippy music. Because Bob was just smoking buds, he wanted something deep to chill on, so he put on some deep tech stuff he liked. You must know that musical taste on 25i (or acid for that matter) really does differ from what you would normally listen to on weed, and this stuff was WAY too deep.
The music sent me to a deeper level and I was getting really entranced. Then Bob put on some funky visuals to sync with the music. This is where all started to go horribly wrong...
The way we sat, everyone on the couch could see the screen but because my stool was too far off the side, I could hardly see anything at all. Imagine watching a television screen from an angle... Well, let me tell you, it sucks; both while tripping as when sober!
So I was really going deeper and deeper, and the annoyance of not being able to watch the screen kept getting worse. On top of that my back started hurting from that horrible stool, all while sinking deeper into this void...
I knew I should just ask them for different chair or just sit on the ground but I didn't feel at home and somehow the feeling of sitting on the ground led me to believe I was a junkie and they'd make fun of me. So I just sat there, negative thoughts piling up, music taking me deeper and I started to lose myself...
I closed my eyes as I couldn't see shit anyway and then there was only darkness. The visuals disappeared and everything went black. I stopped thinking, I stopped feeling, ... I simply stopped existing. All sense of reality was gone. My ego died. There was nothing left.
I don't know how long I was stuck in that 'hole' but when I finally came out thanks to Dude suggesting we put on some trance, I was aware I had just lost my ego. It was a horrible feeling and I felt very confused.
Afterwards Bob and Dude went to smoke in the kitchen so I quickly occupied the couch. I had some funky visuals where I would see my friends sitting in the corner of my eyes, but when I faced them, they disappeared (apparently, I'd been hallucination for they were in the kitchen all this time).
We tripped it out while watching some cartoons and everything seemed to be made for tripping. The music, the videos, ... It seemed like everything was made with us in mind. We got ourselves some food from the store and had dinner, talking about our visuals and experiences. Jack told us he spent the entire time tripping in some Runescape world, slaying cows and shit. Dude compared 25i to LSD and said it was very similar and he wouldn't be able to tell the difference in a blind test.
Our evening concluded with everyone parting ways and me telling Bob about my ego-death experience. I still had a bit of fear at the end, thinking it could possibly happen again that night (for 25i only really wears off after sleep), but thankfully it didn't.
Shortly after I realized how set and setting were very important and I had to be very comfortable while tripping. I learned a great deal of things from this and all future trips were very positive and 25i instantly became my most favourite substance!
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