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dontknow
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I hate myself
#18785947 - 09/01/13 04:07 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I let a guy give me a bj last and I wholeheartedly regret that. I was just wanting to get off and he was willing. This was a huge mistake.
It wasn't even slightly enjoyable. I was just in a rush to get it out of the way and i hate it  Now I feel worthless. I really wanted to die afterwards.
Don't be in a rush to have sex especially if you're young. I feel like I've got nothing to offer anymore... i would do anything to change this.
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow] 6
#18785955 - 09/01/13 04:08 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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you experimented.
don't beat yourself up, bro.
there's literally 100000000000 worse things that could have happened to you last night.
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18785963 - 09/01/13 04:11 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Didn't you post a fairly similar thread a while ago? 
Anywho, so what. You did it and it can't be erased
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Re: I hate myself [Re: rulesq]
#18786002 - 09/01/13 04:18 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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don't beat yourself up for it man. fuck it, it happened and thats that. now you know what getting a bj from a guy is like. like salomon said, it could have been much much worse.
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dontknow
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Re: I hate myself [Re: zZZz]
#18786009 - 09/01/13 04:20 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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If i go to get std tested will they test/see drugs in my system, and do they care?
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18786032 - 09/01/13 04:25 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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dontknow said: If i go to get std tested will they test/see drugs in my system, and do they care?
STD tests are confidential and they will not test you for drugs during this. unless you're trying to become a pornstar.
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18786037 - 09/01/13 04:27 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I don't hate you!
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18786039 - 09/01/13 04:27 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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it's always good to get checked for STD's but i hope you dont think just because he's a guy you have one. girls have std's as well. however no, they will not care about the drugs. if you dont want your primary physician to know about your drug use, or STD's dont get it done at your regular doc office. but no harm will come of it.
i'd also like to mention, experimenting with the opposite sex is nothing to feel ashamed about. please do not let society influence thoughts that there is something wrong or dirty about it. you are clean, innocent, and any girl would be lucky to suck on that dick of yours. So please dont feel bad about it. it's not worth messing yourself up over, people have done worse. i honestly see nothing wrong with what you did. but at least you know now, you are not homosexual.
take care man, we are here to help. we are not like the others, we are your friends.
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Re: I hate myself [Re: Salomon]
#18786054 - 09/01/13 04:32 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Okay thanks. Should I wait a week or so to get tested? And have any of you used STDalert.com?
And thanks guys, i feel a little better already.. The tip of my dick is slightly burning today so that's why I'm worried. I did wipe down with alcohol type wipes very vigorously, put hand sanitizer/alcohol in my urethra (somehow didn't burn as bad as I thought it would lol) and took a very long shower using a ton of soap. That probably all seems stupid but I was desperately trying to get 'clean', I was flipping shit last night. So I'm hoping that's where the burning is coming from.. He said he was clean but there's no way for me to know.
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow] 1
#18786061 - 09/01/13 04:34 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I think its a safe bet that vigorously rubbing some of the most sensitive tissue on your body with chemicals could be responsible for the burning.
don't beat yourself up, buddy. You were curious. Nobody got hurt, you didn't break any laws, you are OK
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Re: I hate myself [Re: NWlight]
#18786071 - 09/01/13 04:37 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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NWlight said: don't beat yourself up, buddy. You were curious. Nobody got hurt, you didn't break any laws, you are OK

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Re: I hate myself [Re: g00ru]
#18786073 - 09/01/13 04:38 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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man hard solvents on my dick would be terrible!
i remember jacking off with soap one time when i figured out how to jerk it.
it burnt so bad, i promised mary, joseph, baby jesus, and the god allmighty that i'd never masturbate again.
lol who woulda thought it was just the soap  Quote:
g00ru said:
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NWlight said: don't beat yourself up, buddy. You were curious. Nobody got hurt, you didn't break any laws, you are OK


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Re: I hate myself [Re: Legend]
#18786089 - 09/01/13 04:46 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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You'll be alright. Try to learn from the mistake though.
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18786098 - 09/01/13 04:49 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Is part of your regret the fact that you took the easy way out (i.e. easier to get with a guy than a girl)?
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Re: I hate myself [Re: s240779]
#18786872 - 09/01/13 08:24 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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That's part of it i guess. I just don't like it being meaningless
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18786901 - 09/01/13 08:32 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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what a wonderful phrase!
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18786909 - 09/01/13 08:34 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow] 5
#18786910 - 09/01/13 08:34 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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success! the shrooms have turned you gay!
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Re: I hate myself [Re: dontknow]
#18786917 - 09/01/13 08:35 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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dontknow said: That's part of it i guess. I just don't like it being meaningless
so meaningful bjs from a guy are okay ?
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