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245willow19

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Homophobic! Am I a bad person?
#18785626 - 09/01/13 02:43 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I was on holidays in Spain when I was 15 and went to a nightclub. People assumed I was 18 and got into all nightclubs without ID. Anyway I went outside the nightclub to get some fresh air and this weird Spanish or French guy came up beside me and chatted. He was obviously drunk and kept urging me to go back to his apartment to drink more but I said no and he was like 'Why not. You are not drunk. We go to my apartment, get more drink and come back, okay' or something like that but I said no several times and shook my head notating that I wasn’t in the mood. Then he gave me his glass of vodka and kept rubbing my back and touching me and feeling me up and asking where I lived and who I was here with...Luckily my cousin returned, I threw away that vodka and went straight home. I had a weird feeling that man was trying to lure me away so he could rape me...thank god he didn't. I was trembling with fear and anxiety. I was a very shy and sensitive 15 year old.
I don't care if the guy was gay but they should keep away from me. I don’t mind if a gay guy flirts with me, that’s okay and it just flatters me but feeling me up and rubbing my back and shit makes me very uneasy. Now I know how girls feel when strange men feel them up in a nightclub or try flirt with them. I had fucking nightmares about being entrapped and molested. I was only 15 for fuck sake. It was very uncomfortable, troubling and awkward and he is the reason I use to hated gays so much during my teenage years. I was very homophobic and didn’t understand homosexuals at all. That Spanish guy wasn't just gay but a fucking pedophile because he wanted to have sex with a fucking 15 year old. he probably knew I was 15 which makes it worse. My young fragile body. Maybe he wanted my tight 
I knew from his eyes and looks that he was a closeted gay...disgusting. I hate being touched, especially by men. It’s seems I attract strange people, either clingy psycho bitches or gay guys. I was deeply troubled for years because of this and that was why I hated gays for a while and despised them. Nowadays it doesn't affect me anymore and I just laugh about cause I am quite flatter that gay guys find me attractive since I consider myself fat and ugly. Anyway I am generally a honest person and never sugar coat what I mean. But now I am less homophobic and I would consider myself a firm supporter of LGBT community. I have gay friends and I love them all . Does this make me a bad person? What do you guys think? If you were 15 and some gay weirdo tried feeling you up, what would you do and how would you react?
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19] 8
#18785629 - 09/01/13 02:43 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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last I heard you were like, super duper gay.
does not compute
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight]
#18785631 - 09/01/13 02:44 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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NWlight said: last I heard you were like, super duper gay.
does not compute
Pretty much.
Homophobes aren't comfortable with themselves.
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: Acaterpillar]
#18785648 - 09/01/13 02:49 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Pretty much. Homophobes aren't comfortable with themselves.
But I grow out of being a homophobe. I was just angry with myself and others and was very naive and ignorant. If I am homophobic that means a lot of my friends are too in fact that makes most of Arab speaking world and Africa gay as well . I don't even use the word "fagget" or "poop poker" because it offends people. Most homophobes are insecure about themselves that's why they target gays, and the same can be said for racist who are insecure about themselves . I am a troll and those threads were made so people would give me 5+...Indeed, it was sort of an asshole thing to do but at least I have 5 shrooms . my plan worked
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last I heard you were like, super duper gay. does not compute
I wouldn't consider myself gay. I ain't attracted to men at all. I just went through a homophobic phase like most teenage boys who don't understand lgbt community. I am insecure about myself...I hate my body and teeth .
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19] 6
#18785657 - 09/01/13 02:51 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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This is gay.
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19] 5
#18785658 - 09/01/13 02:51 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I wouldn't consider myself gay. I ain't attracted to men at all.

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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight]
#18785685 - 09/01/13 02:59 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight] 2
#18785693 - 09/01/13 03:01 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I think this is another case of mushrooms making a person gay, sorry OP, but you are a victim of the .
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight]
#18785696 - 09/01/13 03:03 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I wouldn't consider myself gay. I ain't attracted to men at all.


I made a lot of troll threads here just so people would sympathize with me and give me pity or most times it was purely due to boredom and curiousity. I am a very bad manipulative person .Quote:
I think this is another case of mushrooms making a person gay, sorry OP, but you are a victim of the
I have never ever taken shrooms at all, even though, I said I did. I'm just a liar. The only drugs I have taken are opium, pods and weed
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19]
#18785709 - 09/01/13 03:07 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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If you'd admit that you're gay, I bet you'd get a lot more +1's/kudos's
even if it wasn't true
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: rulesq]
#18785718 - 09/01/13 03:09 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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not to talk about you like you aren't here, esekon, but I believe you are also strongly in denial about your addiction to opiates.
this is a community that will accept you most whoever you are as long as you are straight up and honest and you don't hurt others with your actions
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: rulesq]
#18785721 - 09/01/13 03:10 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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If you'd admit that you're gay, I bet you'd get a lot more +1's/kudos's
even if it wasn't true 
But then that I would be dishonest and I'd be trolling . My days of trolling are basically over now. I got all the shrooms I need and nobody hates me anymore on this forum. I don't care if they think I am gay. It seriously doesn't bother me. I only made this thread to make people understand why I was so homophobic. I guess one could consider me a very insecure child. I use to be a big bully in my school. I hurt a lot of people.
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not to talk about you like you aren't here, esekon, but I believe you are also strongly in denial about your addiction to opiates.
this is a community that will accept you most whoever you are as long as you are straight up and honest and you don't hurt others with your actions
My taste for opiates has been suppressed at the moment. 4 months clean
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19]
#18785733 - 09/01/13 03:12 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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you can't be serious. that would be a LOT of dedication to a troll, inventing an entirely alternate persona and life experience online. 
I wonder what a shrink would have to say about that 
Don't get me wrong esekon I truly want you to be happy and well, as I do with all shroomerites. your actions just concern me, no matter whether they are true or whether it's a lie
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My taste for opiates has been suppressed at the moment. 4 months clean
Congrats man I'm really happy for you
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight]
#18785738 - 09/01/13 03:13 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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NWlight said:
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I wouldn't consider myself gay. I ain't attracted to men at all.


this is EPIC LOLZ!!!!
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight]
#18785751 - 09/01/13 03:18 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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NWlight said: are you totally serious? that was a LOT of dedication to a troll, inventing an entirely alternate persona and life experience online 
I know and people say I am a very good story teller. I have my way with words and I could convince anyone that the world is square . I have a calm reassuring voice. Anyway I am deeply ashamed for trolling, but it was fun and I got a lot of support and it showed me that people in this community actually care about one another. That whole story was invented from the top of my head in order to get an reaction from people.
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19]
#18785760 - 09/01/13 03:20 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well whatever the truth is I hope you find self-acceptance.
But I am still quite skeptical
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight]
#18785767 - 09/01/13 03:22 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well whatever the truth is I hope you find self-acceptance.
But I am still quite skeptical
Wanna fuck?
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19]
#18785772 - 09/01/13 03:23 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Nah I only fuck gay guys no homo
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: NWlight]
#18785795 - 09/01/13 03:28 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Nah I only fuck gay guys
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Re: Homophobic! Am I a bad person? [Re: 245willow19]
#18785846 - 09/01/13 03:42 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hey, as long as the balls don't touch
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