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Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests?
#18773479 - 08/29/13 02:47 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I don't really have any friends at the moment. I stopped taking drugs and the whole idea of my other friends was to score lol. There are people that I know from highschool in my area that like me and we greet each other, some seem like they'd like to catch up.
But I am close with family. Mum is awesome and two of my brothers really help me and each other out with favours etc. My other brother in a distant city bailed me out of a financial problem recently so we're close and his wife is really cool and likes me.
But that's what 5-6 people. I spend most of my time in solitude with intense interests including Carl Jung, other psychology / philosophy, computer games, the experience of Nature in various states of consciousness, music - this is huge, I have 100GB of mp3s but despite loving it all I'm mostly on obscure radio stations like SomaFM, on wikipedia a lot looking into schizophrenia, mental disorders, science, engineering, I'm always looking at shit like it's alien technology and really marvelling at cars IRL and cities and the complexity of society.
But I'm almost completely absent from any social lives... it feels weird, and the more it feels weird, the more I get going with my interests to fill the void. I don't want to be some fucking drifting nobody, you know.
But every day, right, every day is getting closer and closer to a psychedelic trip. I think we live in a psychedelic-type universe. It's really amazing. When I'm not a bit silly and not paying attention, it's fucking awesome, nothing is ever boring outside. I can just look at people in the street and be amazed. Shopping centres are particularly interesting, all that activity...
But is this just really original, really awesome, or really strange?
If people ask me "what do you do" I'm basically on some trip all the time. I say I play computer games.
If I was to invite a girl into my life what could I say I "do"? It's difficult to explain that I'm permatripped in this really awesome way...
Or do I just need to make the effort to fit in somewhere? Do what I'm doing but just with friends for fuck sake.
I mean am I presently "weird"?
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18773568 - 08/29/13 03:10 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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It's only as weird as you make it out to be. It doesn't matter what your occupation is if you love doing it. It seems you're very optimistic about "permanently tripping", but that doesn't make it an excuse to not have any social life. Find quality people who are a good influence on you and your future goals.
Let this gift be your entertainment when you're bored, but don't speculate over it 24/7.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: philopian_tube]
#18773611 - 08/29/13 03:19 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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haha i trip out on the world around me all the time no drugs needed, friends arent absolutely necessary for happiness but they can be enhancing, you dont sound like your trying to keep from having friends, it sounds like you just arent meeting people tuned into your frequency
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circastes
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: Does]
#18773932 - 08/29/13 04:26 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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 Good way to put it!
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18775373 - 08/29/13 09:59 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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It is definitely an asset to be amazed and in awe of the world around you. That isn't a problem. It sounds like the real issue you have is how to structure your time, which is something I struggle with too. The reason it feels weird to not have an identity in terms of something you "do" is because, not only is it an issue of practical importance (i.e. making a living), but I think we all have some inner drive to accomplish something (or at least build or develop some skill). Is there anything you would like to see happen in your life or in the lives of others? I would suggest setting small goals to help make that a reality. I speak merely from a philosophical point of view, for I am not very accomplished or skilled myself (but I'm working on it).
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18775399 - 08/29/13 10:06 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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The real question is: are you happy with this situation? If so, great. If not, do something to change it.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: Le_Canard]
#18775491 - 08/29/13 10:33 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I don't think it's weird.
Sometimes I view my friends as a burden taking away time that I could be devoting to my interests as well. Sometimes I wish I didn't have a cell-phone at all (I already deleted FB a few years ago).
I also don't think its original, awesome, or strange. It is what it is. But what toiletduk holds: Are you happy with the situation, and what it is?
Edited by TheMule73 (08/29/13 10:34 PM)
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: Le_Canard]
#18775497 - 08/29/13 10:35 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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yeah sounds like me bro, im not permanently tripping but find myself often asking the big questions - questions it seems not many people around me ask at all.. I think just go with the flow, if you are unhappy then yeh do something different to mix it up.. I think this thing is here for us to experience the hell out of it - not so much answer the question why its here! this could be wrong of course haha
The hardest thing to break free of are societal structure i.e. born, get educated, get a job, retire, die. rinse and repeat... This structure is ok, but needs to be balanced out with something ridiculous like dmt or shrooms or skydiving or travelling or meditating in a crazy temple with buddhist monks or helping those who got a shitty roll of the dice etc.. there's heaps of shit out there so dont worry bout 'what do i do' etc.. ur job is to experience.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: sandman205]
#18775748 - 08/30/13 12:41 AM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Awesome replies.
I think I'm content with it... because what I chase is a kind of spiritual feeling(s) amidst it all that makes it all worthwhile. I think God is each and every one of us and life is some kind of celebration. If you can chase your own Self and find it, you really do land where you want to be, and then some... it gifts you with more, if you just get your mind right.
So funny I make threads like these.
But I wonder to myself, how far have I strayed? Have I really strayed at all? Do I just need to be a bit more focused and I will see how it works and what I have to do? Or do I just reside in God?
Maybe I'm afraid of being judged. Maybe I feel like I'm wasting my tasty brain people say I have. Maybe I SHOULD change it.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18777166 - 08/30/13 12:31 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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You over think things. I mean friends are nice but what I've learned is people come and go, real friends are hard to find. So don't be ashamed you don't have people in your life RIGHT NOW, hell having intense interests is what could end up finding your good friends. That is just right now. Its hard to get past what is in front of you sometimes. Finding people you actually want to keep in your life are probably going to be few and far in between all the people you meet in your life.
As you get older, people get busy with their lives to the point having friends is just something EXTRA in their life. I suspect I will go through the same, just as you.
So don't worry about things too much. Just focus on how you can make things better and just take one step at a time to try and reach it.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: Uzziel]
#18777583 - 08/30/13 02:15 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18778451 - 08/30/13 05:35 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Sound like you might have mild aspergers syndrome. Psychedelics + asperger syndrome = genius beyond measure.
With aspergers, you have the brain; the ability to store information and retrieve and apply your knowledge. With every gift comes a curse however and aspergers lack a sort of emotional intelligence and understanding.
With psychedelics, you can grasp the side that aspergers syndrome falls short on and grow exponentially.
To answer the OP, it can be unusual but by who's standards? Society's standards? Who cares, do what you like to do and not let the societal whisper/nagging of your psyche bring you down.
As long as it isn't harshly interfering with your life in any way, I think you are okay.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18786458 - 09/01/13 06:34 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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circastes said: I don't really have any friends at the moment. I stopped taking drugs and the whole idea of my other friends was to score lol. There are people that I know from highschool in my area that like me and we greet each other, some seem like they'd like to catch up.
But I am close with family. Mum is awesome and two of my brothers really help me and each other out with favours etc. My other brother in a distant city bailed me out of a financial problem recently so we're close and his wife is really cool and likes me.
But that's what 5-6 people. I spend most of my time in solitude with intense interests including Carl Jung, other psychology / philosophy, computer games, the experience of Nature in various states of consciousness, music - this is huge, I have 100GB of mp3s but despite loving it all I'm mostly on obscure radio stations like SomaFM, on wikipedia a lot looking into schizophrenia, mental disorders, science, engineering, I'm always looking at shit like it's alien technology and really marvelling at cars IRL and cities and the complexity of society.
But I'm almost completely absent from any social lives... it feels weird, and the more it feels weird, the more I get going with my interests to fill the void. I don't want to be some fucking drifting nobody, you know.
But every day, right, every day is getting closer and closer to a psychedelic trip. I think we live in a psychedelic-type universe. It's really amazing. When I'm not a bit silly and not paying attention, it's fucking awesome, nothing is ever boring outside. I can just look at people in the street and be amazed. Shopping centres are particularly interesting, all that activity...
But is this just really original, really awesome, or really strange?
If people ask me "what do you do" I'm basically on some trip all the time. I say I play computer games.
If I was to invite a girl into my life what could I say I "do"? It's difficult to explain that I'm permatripped in this really awesome way...
Or do I just need to make the effort to fit in somewhere? Do what I'm doing but just with friends for fuck sake.
I mean am I presently "weird"?
This sounds exactly like me, except I am not very close with my family. I have no full brothers or sisters - only a half brother and half sister. I have nothing in common with them. Same really with my parents, although my dad is actually quite geeky like me and is interested in a lot of things, just nothing that I am personally interested in.
It's just having a very philosophic mind and a thirst for information. This, along with a lot of solitude, leads to seeing things in a different way than most of the more 'ordinary' people who just like to watch TV shows or get drunk in their spare time away from work.
Literally, anytime I tell anyone in my family something cool (fucking mind-blowingly cool sometimes) and there is zero interest. It's like I'm adopted or something. I just feel like I'm alone in the universe sometimes.
I'm probably digressing here. But, meh.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: as7859]
#18787558 - 09/01/13 10:47 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Circastes I'm glad you make threads like these, your posts always makes me think and It generally attracts others who are kinda on the same level type of thing. I usually lurk your threads and don't really comment but I just wanted to say that I enjoy your posts and I'm always interested in hearing your point of view. Everyone else, awesome replies like OP has said before, this is why I have stayed on the shroomery because I too find myself with very few friends, many have come and gone but I'm glad that no matter where I am in life, I can discuss and hear other peoples opinions on life, it fills the void that having few friends nearby has made in my own life.
There are more than a few good people on this site and I'm glad this place exists man, so thanks everyone.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: The5thElement]
#18787895 - 09/02/13 12:49 AM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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 The Shroomery is great, it's why I'm here despite having given up drugs.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18787921 - 09/02/13 01:05 AM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I think if you wanted a girl in your life just tell her exactly what you said you do here. Say you don't have much of a social life and spend your time researching things, reading, listening to music and playing computer games. You could talk about how you're close to your family and that's the social aspect of your life atm.
If you want more to it then just put in a bit of effort, be yourself but try to instigate friendships. Most will fail, some will stick and then later fail and maybe some will stick a bit longer. If that's what you want then go for it. You seem a pretty cool, interesting guy, I'm sure you can find friends if you want them.
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Re: Is it a bit unusual to just have some family and lots of intense interests? [Re: circastes]
#18788272 - 09/02/13 04:19 AM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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circastes said: I don't really have any friends at the moment. I stopped taking drugs and the whole idea of my other friends was to score lol. There are people that I know from highschool in my area that like me and we greet each other, some seem like they'd like to catch up.
But I am close with family. Mum is awesome and two of my brothers really help me and each other out with favours etc. My other brother in a distant city bailed me out of a financial problem recently so we're close and his wife is really cool and likes me.
But that's what 5-6 people. I spend most of my time in solitude with intense interests including Carl Jung, other psychology / philosophy, computer games, the experience of Nature in various states of consciousness, music - this is huge, I have 100GB of mp3s but despite loving it all I'm mostly on obscure radio stations like SomaFM, on wikipedia a lot looking into schizophrenia, mental disorders, science, engineering, I'm always looking at shit like it's alien technology and really marvelling at cars IRL and cities and the complexity of society.
But I'm almost completely absent from any social lives... it feels weird, and the more it feels weird, the more I get going with my interests to fill the void. I don't want to be some fucking drifting nobody, you know.
But every day, right, every day is getting closer and closer to a psychedelic trip. I think we live in a psychedelic-type universe. It's really amazing. When I'm not a bit silly and not paying attention, it's fucking awesome, nothing is ever boring outside. I can just look at people in the street and be amazed. Shopping centres are particularly interesting, all that activity...
But is this just really original, really awesome, or really strange?
If people ask me "what do you do" I'm basically on some trip all the time. I say I play computer games.
If I was to invite a girl into my life what could I say I "do"? It's difficult to explain that I'm permatripped in this really awesome way...
Or do I just need to make the effort to fit in somewhere? Do what I'm doing but just with friends for fuck sake.
I mean am I presently "weird"?
The second you say you're permatripping or exploring consciousness they'll think "WTF" in a bad way. Then, they'll find out you're schizophrenic and they'll be like unfortunately. If I was you I'd play my cards close to my chest, pretty much everything you mentioned in the OP is for your head only, until you get closer to them and you naturally mention things in passing, in conversation - "oh cool you've studied psychology, yeah I've read a bit of Jung and find it interesting", "used to smoke weed? yea me too but it wasn't that great for me, i got over it", "i agree, nature is fucking awesome".
If I was you'd I'd be a closed book, play my cards close to my chest, talk about things you're not really all that interested in, rather than tell the truth all the time and put people off. I say this because I'm in the same boat, not many friends and if I tell people some of the more "occult" things I'm into, if and when they find out I'm bipolar and have been committed, I instantly lose credibility and respect.
"So circastes, what do you do with yourself" "Well, sexy lady, I listen to a lot of music, read about things like science, technology and philosophy, I take the dog for a lot of walks in nature, go exploring by myself sometimes, play video games occasionally, teach myself guitar over the internet and sometimes go to the pub or the local pool tables hall...pretty much just kick back while im unemployed, relax and have fun" (but don't say all that stuff at once)
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