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Astrodelic
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How did psychedelics change you?
#18773432 - 08/29/13 02:41 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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After talking a bit with one of my new shroomery friends I've decided to post a part of our conversation about how psychedelics changed my life for the better. I'm very interested in your individual experiences as well.
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Alright trying to keep it simple:
To understand my first trip, you need to understand I had fallen into a huge low in my life. I was to be a college football player but had a career ending neck injury during summer camp before my freshman year. Football had been the only thing I publicly identified myself with. I grabbed on to the football player tag and it was my personality (not that I was a stupid jock, but that I allowed it to be the only thing that gave me confidence to propel myself into social situatons)
After I hurt my neck I wondered for a while. I dropped out of school and started doing heavy opiates and was sure everyone knew how I was ruining my life. I was sure every time someone laughed it was at me, that no one wanted me around...blah blah. construct the biggest whoa is me sob story and you'll understand my perception of the world.
enter my first trip. 4 grams of some cruddy looking stems and baggy leftovers.
It was indescribably huge. I understand t was all my perception and that most of us are stuck in our perceptions, slaves to a constucted ego. I watched the movie revolver the day before and it could have had an affect on my trip...but it was all laid out for me. why I was miserable, what I've done n my life that made me happy, the things I needed to change and an understanding that we each have the same feelings and I wasn't as singular as I believed.
This set me off onto a string of psychedlic experiences, searching for more answers (including a rather unhealthy period of taking atleast an 8th a day fr 3 weeks, culminating in one final super freak out trip and a complete loss of reality)...until I had a realization that it wasn't about finding answers. it was about the journey. it was about observation, and gaining wisdom and applying intelligence. I began to realize that I have a real love for science and math. That I really enjoyed writing and how much I missed being physically active and made me reevaluate my reasons for learning to play guitar (so people would like me, not because I wanted to play my emotion...as it's become now)
Psychedelics changed my life. they helped me accept myself and realize it was within onlyy my power to find happiness. I believe without these experiences I would still be lost. I may have found my way eventually but it greatly spd up the process
sorry about typos and sticky buttons. I'm on a school computer and I keep having to jam the buttons to get any response.
my biggest non trip realization was during a discussion with my friend. he made me realize I wasn't taking pride in my work. That when it came to things that involved other people, if they weren't paying attention to what I was doing I didn't put forth full effort and this was the last major hurdle that was lowerng my self value. I've since been practicing the art of completing things to a point that I'm proud of them (like I do with my writing, reading, and learning), and it's been very healthy.
I still have a long way to go, but I'm walking my own journey with confidence now. I'm proud of myself and how far I've come/grown. I can now be myself, no matter the company. it's very liberating.
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My Journal “Television is by nature the dominator drug par excellence. Control of content, uniformity of content, repeatability of content make it inevitably a tool of coersion, brainwashing, and manipulation.”-Mckenna Everything I say is part of a roll playing fantasy and should be considered a lie. Engaging in illegal activity is dangerous.
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Novnia
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Re: How did psychedelics change you? [Re: Astrodelic]
#18773737 - 08/29/13 03:43 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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My first acid trip made me see others the way i saw myself. I was always timid and no-confidence. When i took that first hit of acid i became king of the world, and i saw how everyone else is just as afraid of what OTHERS think of them that they see themselves in the same "no-confidence" light i saw myself in.
Pre acid trip i never could have fathomed this. i was always a little awkward.
My first DMT trip opened my mind to spirituality. I grew up heavily christian and turned from it as i had a hard time reconciling the violence of the old testament with the peace of the new testament.
Being in hyperspace dmt land was... astonishing. It opened my mind to what my brother always belived, that we are more like beings of energy inside a temporary physical vessel.
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Astrodelic
Cosmological Philosopher


Registered: 08/16/13
Posts: 89
Loc: The Woods
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Re: How did psychedelics change you? [Re: Novnia]
#18773982 - 08/29/13 04:37 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I had very similar feelings during my first trip on shrooms. I've never experience acid or dmt but would very much like to do both.
Dmt especially, for the reasons you described. I have believed that for a long time, and I'm excited to experience what it might be like to allow my consciousness the opportunity to experience what could be an alternate dimension.
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My Journal “Television is by nature the dominator drug par excellence. Control of content, uniformity of content, repeatability of content make it inevitably a tool of coersion, brainwashing, and manipulation.”-Mckenna Everything I say is part of a roll playing fantasy and should be considered a lie. Engaging in illegal activity is dangerous.
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